jamie parker !!

19 • they/she • insane about sanders sides, music, tadc, saw, etc • i’m here bc tumblr doesn’t have a character limit and i like to rant

[rhyesse]

Genuine question how much do most people think about how they make tea?

Because like. idk weirdly every time I read a fic where a character makes tea they just. pour water, stick a tea bag in, and start drinking immediately?? Like that isn't absolutely horrific???

[parkerjams]

“why is dating scary?” sasi episode killed doctor who real not fake

[itsmyknife]

what if the dark sides never actually did anything to virgil but something about being around them just puts him in survival mode and he had to get out

[mr-infodump]

i read ashley's post about Logan's stagnancy and had a lot of thoughts about it / adjacent to it that I felt bad tacking them All onto her post so that's what this post is for. I reccomend reading ashley's post first just for potential context but also it's a good post that raises fair concerns.

she briefly touched on some things regarding Logan & Orange that I do feel Some Type Of Way About, because before we got more Orange hints & implied connections with Logan, it was generally well-known he was the least popular side (I mean, it even gets mentioned as an insult point-blank in an episode).

I'm not saying people only care about Logan because of Orange, or pulling any lame "new fans aren't Real Logan fans" bullshit. But I feel like there is something to be said about the fact that IMO, 50% of current fans who place Logan as their favourite side didn't feel that way before SvS Redux, WTIT, etc. And some of that's natural, because Logan's had some great moments since then, and also like god forbid people's faves change over time, but idk. I feel like people are way too enamoured by what could be going on regarding Logan & Orange than actually caring about Logan as his own character, without realizing. This isn't helped by the fact that a majority of the fanart I see for him nowadays is either explicitly about their connection, or alluding to it in some way (ei Normal ass fanart but Logan will have orange incorporated into his design). which again, not bad! just interesting to me.

it's like Logan currently can't exist as his own character even in the fandom, because of the looming presence of Orange. even character moments that should be big or at the Very least notable for Logan as we lead to his next arc are not only overshadowed by Orange's presence, but sometimes explicitly 'written away' from Logan by fans. I've seen lots of people theorize that Logan's outburst in WTIT wasn't Logan at all, and was just Orange speaking through Logan. Which is fine as a theory, but it takes away Logan's agency and some of his first more obvious less-static moments towards the end of the season.

& none of this is an attack on fellow fans, I'm not trying to invalidate anybody's Logan-fan status. Even if this is true & a lot of people jump ship to a new favourite side once we get Orange properly revealed, that's cool, and I'm glad to at least be Logan-stans-in-arms rn. it's just like. confusing for me to witness as somebody who's favourite side has Always been Logan, and as somebody who pretty regularly seems to disagree with/think differently from the majority of the fandom. I already have a Lot of thoughts about the current fandom's acceptance of how intertwined Logan & Orange are despite all of this Being Theories And Not Canon Yet but that's for a wholeeee other post.

[mysweetoddbird]

sorry but once you notice how often ppl use a southern accent as shorthand for being unintelligent you can never unsee it. classism is baked so deeply and why are you acting like anyone who talks the way my grandfather talks is stupid.

[questions-about-blorbos]

Reblog if it’s okay for people to inbox you questions, headcanon, theories, anything about your Blorbo

[parkerjams]

i still think the most ironic thing about janus’ initial reveal is c!thomas being SO SHOCKED about having a “deceit” based side

when EVERY side we’d known up to this point CANONICALLY repressed or lied about themselves 😭

patton masks his negative emotions, virgil made himself “scary” as a shield, roman overcompensates for his insecurities by acting wayyy too egotistical, and logan pretends like he doesn’t have feelings AT ALL.

like thomas. buddy. i’d be more shocked if you DIDN’T have a side that revolves around deceit, repression, and hiding things for the “greater good”

[lilyflxwers]

ok i absolutely need to know what accents u all have pls reblog and tell me or comment or whatever I must know

[parkerjams]

something in the orange by zach bryan is a logicality divorce song to me

[lilypadton]

Hello friends and mutuals. Can i bite any of you please. Can i tackle you and shake your in my jaw thank you

[parkerjams]

sure 👍

[parkerjams]

i think it’s so weird that “doing something for attention” has such a negative connotation.

as a social species, humans do like Most Things for attention, right? why is that immediately a bad thing?

personally, i’ve cried for attention, self harmed for attention, lied + bent truths for attention, dressed eccentrically for attention, spoke my mind in inappropriate situations, everything that people point to as “attention seeking” behavior. it’s probably somewhere in one of my therapist’s notes if i looked. usually the reasons behind these behaviors were not EXCLUSIVELY for attention, but that was a main factor. i wanted to be heard, and i needed attention to get there.

so there’s the negative stuff. cool. doesn’t invalidate the shitty impact of those behaviors on me or others. okay.

but i also learned to act for attention. got pretty good at it too. i played music, i write, i post about my silly headcanons online, ALL for attention. i dye my hair and wear fun clothes & jewelry so that people can see me, come up to me, and we can yap! i want the attention because attention brings community! shouting into the abyss and having someone yell back!!!

we as humans do a LOT of shit for attention, and that’s okay!! it’s what connects us to other people!

doing something “for attention” doesn’t make the action inauthentic!

[lilypadton]

Hello friends and mutuals. Can i bite any of you please. Can i tackle you and shake your in my jaw thank you

[rieekake]

I need an intrulocial fic but its just Logan trying to help Remus with his horrible hygiene. I need the masses to remember the duke is a disgusting and stinky character

[emo-disaster]

The dichotomy between Janus being the primary driver of the urge to fit in whilst also being one of the ones that stands out on purpose is quite interesting to me, especially due to his impulse to protect his ego as much as possible. One would think he would try to conform and make his personality appear like the others', but he very intentionally sets himself apart. He does, however, disguise himself as the others when he thinks his own persona won't be enough to successfully either get his point across or appear trustworthy enough to believe. When in the form of himself, though, he actually explicitly attempts to make himself seem worse than he actually may desire to be at heart, not better.

He hides his real self consistently, but never in the way that he pushes Thomas to. He wants Thomas to have a support system, but doesn't outwardly care if he has one himself. He wants Thomas to succeed, no matter the cost to his own quality of life. It's reminiscent of Virgil's "putting on a dark persona is the best way to get anyone's guard up," as Janus puts up a wall of darkness and misdirection as a way to shield himself and expose the others, but while also using the faces of the others to get Thomas' guard down when he feels it's necessary. He feigns innocence just as he does evil, but hardly ever gives being himself a try.

Why should he? If he's vulnerable in any manner, he just gets torn down. When he's on the verge of tears, when he's trying to be honest, and even when he's giving a glimpse into a version of himself not shrouded in self-protection. It always ends in some sort of insult or a different reason to keep hiding. He wants to be trusted, but he's scared to act in the way that may earn him that the fastest because it's been proven to not be safe for him to do so. That way, of course, would be being genuine.

Make no mistake, Janus is still very morally gray at his core. He's supposed to be. He's supposed to do what benefits him, as well as what benefits Thomas, regardless of what the actual morals attached to the decision may be. He has proven this in various different ways. But he actively places himself in the role of the aggressor, even when he would seemingly prefer that the conversation be handled in a calmer manner.

Now that he's accepted and the others are starting to get to know him more, his facade is starting to fall. They're starting to see more of his truth, and why he hides so much of it from him. The question remains of how Janus will react to being discovered, and just what will it take to bring his genuine personality out for everyone else to see?

[k-0-d-y]

I think that remus is evil cuz he has deeper layers and he's covering it up but sometimes he might actually be evil just cuz he wanna

[parkerjams]

sometimes it’s angsty sometimes it’s just for the love of the game

[parkerjams]

partially stealing this idea from @exkkxe-arts-cloud , but sanders sides steven universe AU with patton as lapis and janus as jasper, making moceit malachite.

can anyone hear me

[parkerjams]

hey 🫵 sanders sides fan. what hurts most

logicality divorce arc

moxiety growing apart

“thomas, i thought i was your hero”

end card of “why is dating scary” (younger sides meeting current sides)

“not that any of you care, but i am unharmed. and i don’t want to talk about it”

janus name reveal

creativitwins.

Voting ended onJun 8

[parkerjams]

results are in! holy logan angst sweep