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18+!!! Made this so I can reblog stuff 🚷 I’m 22! They/Them

[prinhlt]

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my mum’s (forcibly) retiring today. hope she doesn’t become a miserable transphobic bitch

[okomepun]

こわい絵

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the magnolias are out

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I will find kindness and make a home there

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dying is such a waste

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i don’t trust anything

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I am not myself

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I don’t think I can keep going I can’t there’s no point I’ve fucked it from the start I need to hurt myself I need to be over I need to kill myself I have to die there’s no more joy I can bring to anyone I have to die I can’t be forgiven I have to die please someone please kill me

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I’ve hurt everyone I’ve ever cared about I should fucking end it I don’t need to be in this world any longer

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trying to find any reason to keep going and not ending it today

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Is there even any point in trying to be better. Why not just stop feeling guilty and worried about the possibility of hurting people all the time and accept I’m a bad person that will hurt people anyway. Why don’t I just give up and be angry. Why not hurt people who wrong me on purpose. Why not be violent and loud. Why should I stay calm. Why try and be better. Why should it matter. What if being violent is inescapable and it’s all I can be. What difference would it make in the eyes of people who already think of me a monster if I actually gave in

why not actually become one

and get locked away or killed or something

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wait till my mum calls the police on me again because she feels threatened. Because I can’t communicate. Because I am violent and uncontrolled and pathetically emotional and helpless and

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I deserved to be hit by my dad

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Fuck this misery business I don’t want to be evil and this world does not need more suffering. I will make my friends smile. I will get a therapist. I will do DBT. I will learn to understand my body and regulate my meltdowns. I will find some way to channel my outbursts away from physical reactivity. my body is a threat despite how small I feel inside

[weepingwidar]

Nicko Cecchini (Canadian, d.o.b. unknown) - Defensive Measures (2026)

[partiallyattical]

Is there even any point in trying to be better. Why not just stop feeling guilty and worried about the possibility of hurting people all the time and accept I’m a bad person that will hurt people anyway. Why don’t I just give up and be angry. Why not hurt people who wrong me on purpose. Why not be violent and loud. Why should I stay calm. Why try and be better. Why should it matter. What if being violent is inescapable and it’s all I can be. What difference would it make in the eyes of people who already think of me a monster if I actually gave in

why not actually become one

and get locked away or killed or something

[partiallyattical]

wait till my mum calls the police on me again because she feels threatened. Because I can’t communicate. Because I am violent and uncontrolled and pathetically emotional and helpless and

[partiallyattical]

I deserved to be hit by my dad

[partiallyattical]

Is there even any point in trying to be better. Why not just stop feeling guilty and worried about the possibility of hurting people all the time and accept I’m a bad person that will hurt people anyway. Why don’t I just give up and be angry. Why not hurt people who wrong me on purpose. Why not be violent and loud. Why should I stay calm. Why try and be better. Why should it matter. What if being violent is inescapable and it’s all I can be. What difference would it make in the eyes of people who already think of me a monster if I actually gave in

why not actually become one

and get locked away or killed or something

[partiallyattical]

wait till my mum calls the police on me again because she feels threatened. Because I can’t communicate. Because I am violent and uncontrolled and pathetically emotional and helpless and

[partiallyattical]

Is there even any point in trying to be better. Why not just stop feeling guilty and worried about the possibility of hurting people all the time and accept I’m a bad person that will hurt people anyway. Why don’t I just give up and be angry. Why not hurt people who wrong me on purpose. Why not be violent and loud. Why should I stay calm. Why try and be better. Why should it matter. What if being violent is inescapable and it’s all I can be. What difference would it make in the eyes of people who already think of me a monster if I actually gave in

why not actually become one

and get locked away or killed or something

[partiallyattical]

When u listless in the city and can find your dad at the movies you can watch inception from 3 rows apart