September 21st 2024 2:50am
This time of year is strange. Two major life events, yet nothing remains in either space.
I remember where I was this time last year, how the world looked different. The stars shined a little bit brighter, the moon didn't make me feel so lonely, and I greeted the sun with the warmest regards.
This year is cold, dark, empty. The stars have dulled, they don't twinkle like they once did. I sit and wonder if they changed, or if it's just me.
The time has gone by so fast, I look back on pictures and don't recognize the face looking back at me. Have I truly become someone else? I know realistically we don't ever remain the same all throughout our lives.
But, do we change so completely that the old us no longer can be found? No recognition to who we were before, what our values or morals were?
I'd like to think that I'll be able to keep the young parts of me. The girl who loves reading, playing with chalk, and talking to her best friend.
The one who always wanted everyone to be happy, don't fight-blame me instead. The one who kept the secrets, to protect them. The one who felt lost and misunderstood.
I miss her sometimes. Sometimes I still am her. Sometimes she is me. I hope she never leaves for good.