CW: Intox play, CNC, Dubious Consent, Gaslighting, probably my most intense writing yet!
You made a bet with your friend. "I could eat a whole one of those gummies without feeling it at all."
A fun little bet, and you were confident! Slightly less, so now sitting knees crossed on their bed with a bag of those edibles in hand... But you're basically already there and are feeling stubborn.
"Now they might look small, but they can pack a punch. You could always back down if you're too nervous."
Oh, now they've done it. You? Nervous? Never! You reach in the bag and pop one in your mouth without hesitation. "This isn't my first time, alright? Now let's figure out what we'll do when I win!"
Your friend covers their mouth with a little giggle, "We can figure that out after, first we got to see if your story holds in an hour."
"Fine fine! Though it's going to be longer than that, I usually don't start feeling it till 2-"
They cut you off, "Nah these are faster acting than what you're used to, we'll be able to tell in an hour. Trust me." You tilt your head which they return with a gentle smile. How'd they know what you usually take? We've never gotten high together... You decide to shrug it off, "Alright, an hour it is then."
For the next 60 minutes they two of you just talk. Hobbies, gossip, life, it's all rather nice. The two of you don't get much time alone, just knowing each other from the same friends before today. Them accepting this bet was honestly a shock at the time, but hey, you aren't one to turn down a free high!
An hour pasts... and just like you said, you're fine! You hardly feel it at all, maybe a little tired but other than that...
"Fast acting, huh?" You chuckle as they look at you wide eyed. "Wow, I'm impressed. Guess you're just stronger than me huh?" You see them reach into their bag to pull out another. "Want to have another then? Feel bad it just didn't do anything." You take the gummy in-between your fingers. "Hmm, I'm not sure. I should probably wait another-"
"Oh come on, if it hasn't hit you yet it's not going to." They gently run a finger along your arm. "Trust me, you might as well take another." You look down at it for a moment... If this is as bad as one will get then.
"Alright alright, I'll trust you!" You pop it in, they smile. "Good. Wouldn't want to disappoint on my promise." They continue to let their fingers trail along your arm as they talk.
You two keep talking.. You start to wonder if they'll ever eat one too? It feels strange to be the only one getting high. Another hour is about to pass when you think to say something.
"Hey, you plan on... you know... joining me?" They tilt their head. "I like to wait till a little later, just a personal thing. Although since you brought it up... Want another?" Another gummy comes out of the bag, put in front of your face.
You're definitely starting to feel it now... Everything's getting a little spacey. "Uhh I'm not sure..." They interject mid thought, tracing a hand up your shoulder as the other holds the gummy closer. "Oh come on now, it's only one more. You'll just have to stay a little longer. It's not a big deal."
You stare at the edible. Trying to think through a reason not to... But a mix of feeling spacey and their touch distracting, you can't seem to put one together. "Well... if you're sure it's not a problem."
They smile, "It's not a problem at all. Trust me." Something feels weird about this situation. But you can't figure out why. And they say it's fine... "Okay... I'll trust you." They give your shoulder a squeeze, "Good."
Time continues passing. You try to keep up conversation, but as every minute passes, it gets harder and harder to keep talking... You're really starting to feel it. Body sways, eyes keep going unfocused. It's taking so much effort to stay engaged. Is this the second hitting? Third? Or... maybe the first? No, that one hit over an hour ago... right?
They're still talking, right. Still touching your shoulder... no wait, your side? When did their hand get down there? And what are they saying? Something about getting comfortable... how late it's getting... This feels really weird...
You start mustering up some words to say so. When you see another gummy be brought up to your face. "Hey, it's been another hour. Want another one?" Hand stroking along your waist. "I um... I don't know..." Fingers trailing your skin, "I um..." Your hip, stomach, touch so soft. "Maybe I... should..."
"Shhhh." The gummy is pressed to your lips. "It's already so late. You're going to need to stay the night. Might as well enjoy it a little longer, right?" Their fingers pressing it against my lips. "Don't you love how it feels?" Sliding slowly in. "It'll be good for you. Trust me." Trust... them. Your lips open just enough to let the gummy pop in. Instinctually, you chew it down... They smile, "Good."
You can't tell if that last one hit faster, or if the others are catching up... But everything feels so heavy now. Body heavy... Thoughts heavy... Talking hard... That isn't stopping them. They're whispering so many words... right against your ear. Their hands are traveling... Up your chest, down your thighs... between your... You give a whimper and a moan, which just encourages them forward. Their touch is so soft, so delibrate, so... Did they ask before touching you there?
"It's all okay, you're enjoying this." Fingers rubbing, lips touching your ear. "This is fine, trust me." It's... fine?... But... "I... okayy... trust... you..." They smile. squeeze your chest. "Good." Another gummy appears at your mouth. "Here's your reward, a treat!" You furrow your brows... A treat?...
The treat is pressed into your mouth with little resistance. They hold you my the chin to make sure you chew... You close your eyes... And...
As you open them again, you see you're... naked? You're on the ground. Your... friend is... sitting over you. "What are... since when..." "Shhhh, it's okay. You wanted to lay on the ground remember? Needed to ground yourself. I'm helping." Rubbing their ass over your waist as they straddle you. "The weight is helping. Keeping you grounded."
You feel a heat building in your body. You suppose that makes sense... grounding... right. "Bbut why are we... umm... naked?..." They tilt their head. "What do you mean? We've always been naked. You wanted to take your clothes off as soon as you got here. I just followed your lead." What...? Why would...
"Shhhh, it's okay. You want another treat?" You smile. A treat.. You like treats. You feel the treat be pushed into your mouth. "Chew." You chew... "Swallow." You swallow...
They smile. "Good." Hands squeeze your hips. "You're so good for me." You moan, squirm. You're being... good for them... "You wanted this. Wanted to get fucked up. Wanted to lose the bet. Wanted to be under me. Don't you remember?" You try to think, but all that comes to mind is their words. You wanted this... You wanted... this... "Aww can't think can you? That's okay, you don't need to anymore." They lean down, giving you a kiss on the lips. "You just need to trust me."
No silly, you need to get rid of those thoughts. You want to be a good princess for your maids. You want to let them disrobe you and slowly dress you up in a big, impractical dress. You'll be a good princess for your head maid and sit still while she prepares you for the day. You don't need to take care of things yourself. Taking care of things is for maids, and you are just a silly slutty princess.
Isn't this so much better? You can already feel the changes. Letting out a haughty hmmph, because a bratty princess is a good princess. Aren't you happy now? You don't need to have all those yucky thoughts about what you need to do and where you need to be, because you are a princess. A good princess. The only thing you need to do is follow what your maids force you to do ā”
I found a sword yesterday! Long with edges just sharp enough that if I really tried I could wound you.
Gave me the thought of one on their knees in front of me as I rest it on their shoulder. So very close to that sensitive flesh of the neck...
But they hold no fear. They only stare up at me with dull eyes and a hanging mouth. Repeating in their mind an affirmation so loud they can't help but let escape their mouth.
"I swear my fidelity to you... I swear my fidelity to you..."
All while I smile hungrily from above. Sword held so close... foot finding its way between their legs... Encouraging my new subject deeper acceptance of their oath.
Letās stop saying āIāve never met anyone who couldnāt be hypnotized.ā
I was having some teaātoo much caffeine at night is badāand I came across some texts that are as interesting as they are dull. As usual, I wonāt say who wrote it or post the screenshot with the name crossed out; that would get more likes, but we donāt want a witch hunt, do we?
Basically, this letās say anonymous text stated: āOh, if the subject isnāt hypnotized, donāt blame their mental health issues (ADHD, etc.).ā In other words, itās not the neurotypeās fault, but the hypnotistāsāand that theyāve never met someone who isnāt hypnotizable.
Although most of the time the problem is the hypnotist, thereās still that small percentage left. That deviation from the curve. That outlierāwhich is why doctors speak in percentages, in a range of probabilities. Someone resistant, who wonāt lower their defenses, who is afraid, who doesnāt want to let go.
Essentially, they decide itās better and more ethical to blame the hypnotist. And while thatās usually true, thereās an issue with your ego in thereāthat youāre the hero who saves the lost llama that couldnāt go into trance. Who do you think you are, that you must save the subject?
Is the hypnotist a hero? Personally, Iāve never felt like oneāquite the opposite, actuallyābut if I can say something: the problem isnāt the diagnosis.
But itās not the hypnotistās omnipotence either.
Hypnosis doesnāt fail because of the subjectās mind, nor is it guaranteed by the operatorās skill.
It failsāor happensāin the relationship.
That idea of a messianic hypnotist who always achieves a stable trance in their subjects without constant micro-adjustments and who comes out of the session revitalized and happy is a myth.
⦠· Ā· Ā· ā¦
Hypnosis isnāt a spell that works in a vacuum. It needs something key: rapport. Connection. Trust.
No one surrenders to a vulnerable state unless there is at least some connection with the guide.
In person, this is woven through tone of voice, eye contact, body language, and realātime adaptation. Itās a dance, not a monologue.
Sometimes, trust isnāt the main focus. Thatās where another ingredient comes in: expectation and authority. Fame, reputation, ritual. A respected hypnotist can facilitate trance simply through the weight of what is expected of them.
And then thereās the third pillar, the most subtle: feedback. A good hypnotist reads microāsignals (breathing, blinking, muscle tension) and adjusts their rhythm and words in real time. Thatās why itās easier to hypnotize in person than over video call, and much easier than over text. A text canāt dance with you.
So before we declare āeveryone is hypnotizable,ā letās ask: What are we calling hypnosis?
Humans are bad at defining subjective experiences. If by āhypnosisā we mean someone following a simple suggestion (āyour eyelids are getting heavyā), then maybe yes, everyone can. But if weāre talking about deep trance, amnesia, hallucinations⦠thatās another story.
⦠· Ā· Ā· ā¦
The phrase āIāve never met someone who couldnāt be hypnotizedā usually comes from someone who:
ā Only works in ideal settings (workshops, preāselected volunteers).
ā Defines āhypnosisā so broadly that any response counts as success.
ā Or ignores the failures (confirmation bias, ever present).
Itās not a superpower. Itās a game of cooperative influence and, like any game, it depends on the rules, the players, and the environment.
⦠· Ā· Ā· ā¦
Hypnosis is probabilistic, not deterministic. It depends on:
ā The subject: their suggestibility, their mental state that day, their real willingness to let go. ā The hypnotist: their skill, their charisma, their ability to adapt. ā The context: privacy, safety, ritual, expectations.
Not everyone wants to drop in. Not everyone can, at that moment, with that person, in that place. And thatās okay.
The āinfallibleā hypnotist probably only dances with those who already wanted to dance. And that says more about the setup than the power.
Princess girls and Puppygirls are both different manifestations of wanting to be loved in a way you haven't felt without having to kill yourself to earn it.
"Villainess" princess girls on the other hand can't accept they actually deserve that love or admit that they need is so they dress it up as something they are taking from you.
Cat girls want to be loved but don't want to be overwhelmed
Knight girls and maid girls are convinced they have to earn the love they're missing by becoming essential to someone else.
Being raised with the expectation that we would perform masculinity left us all with a hole in our hearts that nobody taught us to patch and we're doing the best we can.
What if you held your hand in front of you and gripped the wrist with your other.
Theoretically if you then made that hold a bit tighter, would you say your hand has been restrained?
The feeling is being caused but your other hand yes, but ignore that hand for now.
Just focus on the one being held out. On that squeezing feeling circling around.
Where is it tightest? The top? Bottom? Left? Right? Maybe evenly spread holding your wrist right there in place.
How does that feel along your hand? As well as up your arm?
Do you feel the circulation being restricted?
How that tightness is spreading down your upper arm?
How tight and restricted your wrist feels being held right there in front of you.
Unmoving.
Is that not how it feels to be restrained?
What if then we say while being held in place the tight feeling on that wrist suddenly felt so much heavier.
As if a weight has been attached, becoming heavier every second.
Pulling on your wrist causing it to start rapidly fall downwards.
Down your
Torso
Chest
Stomach
Waist.
Pulling harder and harder on that hand forcing it quickly to sink as if a weight had been attached.
Dropping your attention down and allowing your whole body to feel a heavy pull right from your wrist.
Suddenly heavy
Suddenly falling
Suddenly dropping
Your wrist, your body, your mind.
What if that feeling pulled the rest of you with it.
Pulling you all the way down.
Slowly bringing you to the floor.
Stuck in place as the heavy weight keeps making you sinking in.
Continuing to pull at your mind's focus as your body is dragged down.
Even as your hand stops you just continue to fall.
Wrist moving slower. Body dragging deeper. Mind sinking further.
What if then everything started feeling that tight restraint?
The heavy feeling spreading out up your arm
Across your shoulders and neck
Over your head
Down everything else.
Just a restricting squeeze with heavy weight coming from your wrist, covering your body, and spreading into your mind.
Continuing it's pull. Continuing to sink.
Ever deeper. Ever further.
If that was the case, would you feel like it was restraining you?
Restraining your wrist.
Restraining your body.
Restraining your mind.
Not allowing a single movement. Not a twitch, a thought, a word.
Nothing more but the realization of how little control you've been left with.
Realizing you can't move. Realizing you can't think.
Realizing that you've been caught.
Would you then say your own grip has made you restrained?
Would it force you to nod that head and agree?
Would it?
ā¦
That's good to know.
Of course that is all hypothetical.
There is no weight, there is no tight grip.
You are free to move and to rise up.
To stretch, to breathe, to smile.
Able to continue to think as much as you desire.
Because wouldn't be that easy to capture you!
Wouldn't be that easy to restrain you. Right?
(An old piece of mine I forgot about. Here you are!)
A boat traveling out into a pond
Swimming slowly towards the center
Finding it's way past leaves and little green pads
While the wind blows through
The trees and the water
And all things living in
Once the destination is reached
The sailor comes to a halt
begins to hum a gentle song
Sending a line zipping through the air
Until it finds it's place
Plopping down the surface
Ripping through the waters that surround
The waves pushing out towards the life around
All floating through feeling the push
Followed of course by a gentle pull
A pull back towards a little red white ball
Bobbing up and down as it causes the ripple
Tempting those who see it to think
Of the space in between
Them and it
As each push it gives
Causing a pull from them
A dance twirling back and forth
Following the music hummed through the wet air
Their bodies find themselves brushed by the wind
As the mind focuses in
On this space that begins to shrink
Feeling closer than all else
Yet impossible to reach
Every step towards
Making every inch longer
Every inch longer
Making the ripple even stronger
Until the last one is reached
And they find their hold
Onto this ball, their object of focus
Holding close, as all else is distant
Spinning, twirling through waters to the hum
As they are pulled along
Without even noticing the line retracts
This place they enjoy
Turned from water, to a boat
But does it matter when all they need
Is this ball, and the music to sing
Along they sing to the song
Happy as can be
So if they are happy to be
Then you too will sing for them, won't you?
Here's a fun little water spiral I've made.
I like the way this one both looks like it's ripple out, sending everything slowly out.
But also looks like the center is swirling in a little whirlpool.
Bringing only the focal point deeper into the waters while pushing everything else away.
Only the center focus mattering, all else allowed to simply flow out and fade into nothing. Leaving only the most important part left.
The Center.
Only The Center.
And Nothing Else...
:)
(Note- A silly little hypno story- and also the first then I ever wrote!! Also oral fixation heavily involvedā¦)
There you are, minding your own business when suddenly- WHAM!
Something's hit you on the head! You turn to get a look, it's some kind of⦠ball?
Before you can consider it anymore, the ball splits down the middle and opens up!
You feel a force pulling you towards it. You try to move back, but the strength of the force grows and grows, sucking you straight to the ball. It almost seems to be getting bigger! ā¦or are you shrinking? Before you can think about it more the ball has enveloped you, closing back up as it latches itself shut around you!
Darkness overtakes you, you feel around your dark metal prison, searching for some way to pry it open. When a smell starts to fill the ball! It feels almost, familiar.. like the smell of your home. Comfortable, relaxing⦠Almost instantly you feel a fuzziness start to overtake your head, you try to shake it off but as you do you notice the a sweet taste in the air. Like your favorite treat, making you feel a pleasantness through your mouth and throat.
As nice as it feels, this is strange. How does it know what your home smells like, or what you eat? It almost makes being here not feel so bad⦠which just makes you want to get out even more-
FLASH sudden light overtakes the entire room, blinding you! When you open your eyes and adjust, you see all the walls of the ball have been overtaken with screens upon screens upon screens. Upon them? Spiraling shapes and images, looping through over and over again⦠They feel like they're drawing you in to stare⦠To look closerā¦
You shut your eyes as you feel the compulsion. Feeling around blind to find your escape. But it's impossible to find anything in here without your sight! And there is this itching thought in the back of your head, almost like a sound echoing back and forth in this prison. Telling you to open⦠just open your eyes⦠It- it can't be that bad can it? You need them open to see⦠You do as the voice tells you, and are rewarded with another sweet taste in your mouth. The spiraling seems to have intensified, moving quicker and in unison.
Images & videos start to appear along the spirals- what are those? Taking a closer look you see⦠yourself. The moment you were put into this ball. Another person, the one who threw it? This is the person who captured you in here? Captured⦠Another wave of fuzziness comes over you, you try shaking it off. You were trying to escape⦠right? You see a big round button around a latch at one side of the sphere, that has to be how you get out! You start to walk towards it, finding your moments to feel very slow⦠Each step feels like it takes hours, or maybe seconds- you can't tell.
The only thing to look at as you slowly make your way is the spiraling images around. Hearing other thoughts bouncing along the walls again⦠what are they? You can't quite pay attention as the sweet taste is flooding your mouth now. Everything just feeling so disarming⦠These sensations overwhelming you over and over again⦠For hours? days? years? You can't tell, they are starting to feel like all you've even known. This smell is familiar, this taste is familiar⦠The sounds, images, they must be familiar too⦠right?
Looking at them again you see yourself⦠you look so much awake, aware. Is that how you usually are? This fuzziness has been clouding your mind this whole time, it's hard to even imagine being that way. And this other person⦠Who are they again? Your captor, right! They captured you⦠captured⦠you⦠They had to have done it for a reason. Why? Maybe they liked you, maybe they wanted to keep you for themselves. Wanted to give you these pleasant feelings, familiar sensations. Wanted you to feel⦠good?
Maybe they wanted to take you as their own, keep you as a slave. Slave⦠That means they'd want to be your⦠master? That person as⦠your master⦠Making you⦠obey them⦠Is that right? Is that what they want? Or is that⦠what you want? Do you want that? Want them⦠as your master⦠your⦠masterā¦
You fall down to your knees, going limp inches away from the big button. Contently staring up at the screens as a satisfying click can be heard from outside. The capture was a success, and now your master can celebrate their new pet.
Here's a fun rainbow spiral!
Feel free to watch the different colors swirl around and be pushed out. Can see the futile effort to make it make towards the center, trying to get all the way in... Only to just not have enough to make it and getting pushed all the way back once more.
(Note - I made this a while ago- and honestly forgot I made it. But feels pretty fitting for me...)
Look at you
So stressed
So worried
About what's to come
Take a moment
Take a breath
Deeply In
Deeply out
It's okay
You're safe now
Here with Mommy
Wrapped up around you
Petting your head
All the way down the shoulders
She understands
And she knows what you need
Mommy knows what you need
She whispers to your ear
"Mommy with take care of it"
"Mommy will take care of everything"
Such a soft voice
Such soft breaths
"There's no need to worry now that I'm here"
Now that Mommy's here
She will do the worrying for you
She will keep those bad thoughts away
"You only need to sit here with Mommy"
Relaxing with Mommy
Into her words
Into her voice
Into her touch
Into your head
Soft happy words from Mommy
"Let me worry"
Soft sweet words from Mommy
"While you ease"
Into your ears
"Ease away"
Pushing away all else
"All else inside"
Making it so much easier
To lay back into her
To set your heavy head down
"Relaxing into Mommy"
Relax into her embrace
Blanketing your head
"Blanking your mind"
Covering your eyes
"Fluttering close"
Until nothing else is in sight
Only the words you know true
Bouncing in your soft skull
The simple truth that
She knows what's best
Mommy knows what's best
Mommy knows what's best
Mommy knows what's bestā¦
"Mommy knows what you need"
"Mommy's song in your ears"
"Making all else but me"
"Just simply disappear"
"Just breathe in what I give"
"And breathe out what I take"
"So simple and easy"
"Even an empty head can do it"
"Breathe in that cycle"
"It's all that you need"
"Following what I say"
"As all else begins to fade"
"Only my voice matters now"
"With the comfort it gives"
"With the happiness you feel"
"While it penetrates your mind"
"In that addicted rhythm which I speak"
"Just let anything elseā¦"
"Simply fade away"
"Only Mommy's words matter now"
"Only Mommy's thoughts matter now"
"Any else you do not need"
"Why would you, when this makes you feel so calm"
"Being wrapped up here with me"
"It's the best comfort you could know"
"Coming here must be such a joy"
"And if it feels so wonderful"
"Why not come back for more?"
"What wonderful sense that makes to you"
"As all my words surely do"
"With a lovely smile that it gives"
"Both me and you"
"But for now, our time must end"
"For now, you've relaxed to the peak"
"But remember, I will be here"
"When I take those worries once more"
"Rise up, let the thoughts return"
As she pulls you to your feet
"Open your eyes, open your mind"
"And be ready for the day"
She smiles
As you stretch
And sigh
Standing back up
Once more
And ready for life again
Glad you enjoyed
This little escape
Until next time
Keep the worries away~