[adrenaline]

[passthehorizon]

I am in so much fucking pain it is unbearable

[passthehorizon]

I just reaaaalllly don’t feel like being alive anymore

[passthehorizon]

I am so messed up and I just don’t understand how it got to this point or why it changed or what’s happening and I’m so sad how can these things happen and why am I like this and I’m so sad

[trjoel]

[dirtandleather-deactivated20171]

[passthehorizon]

I’m soooo so so so soooo bad today sos sos

[pompousdouche-deactivated201301]

[death-by-lulz]

I have been laughing at this for 3 years

[elriabrunnr]

Who wants to see a FAT otter. A real ROUND boy. A HUGE man. A CHUNKY guy.

[elriabrunnr]

[endless-puppies]

“Before and after I told her she was a good girl”

[passthehorizon]

Are you ever really excited to show a certain person something and you go to show them and they aren't interested at all and you kinda just "oh"

[passthehorizon]

I miss my best friend so so so so so fucking much. So fucking much. I miss talking to him and hearing his voice and going on random adventures and basically anything I ljust miss being in his presence and eating great food and watching shows and laughing about dumb shit ugh I miss him so fucking much

[passthehorizon]

I'm trying so hard to stay strong today and I'll keep trying and trying and trying

[passthehorizon]

Here’s to you

I think you do know that I think about you all the time. I do hope you know that I love you very much, and I am sorry. I think a lot of things got lost in communication and it all just turned into a big mess and I really do hate that. I don’t even know what to write or say anymore, I’ve wanted to write for a while and had so many things in my head and just wanted to get them out but the second I have the chance it all just melts together. I guess I always do want to thank you, some things were tough and I guess I wanted to hear some words from you but overall I’ll be forever grateful for the way you’ve protected, cared for me and loved me since you met me. Mental illness is shit. It can be defeated tho and even tho right now it probably definitely doesn’t look like it, I can definitely see the baby steps that I have taken to overcome it and some things have gotten better. Thank you for all the times you let me call you and you called me, you’ll never ever ever know how much it helped me get through a day! Just hearing your voice and someone saying they’ll be there honestly saved me more than you’ll ever know, ill always appreciate it. I don’t think you think it did anything, but it saved me every single time and I want to hug you forever with the gratitude for that one. Sending me gifs or compliments or anything helped me too. Pictures of flowers or just talking about other topics. I really do love you. I really do think we’d be good together, because I know the problems are things that can be worked out. I know I can be good and I know I trust you. I want you to have your freedom, I want you to be happy. I do want it to go back to the way it was. Talking on the phone and seeing your handsome lil face, dumb jokes and laughs, tagging each other in things thatll make us smile, sharing our good news and things that make us happy. I love talking to you, I think I always will. You became a part of my everyday and I’m sorry that’s all kind of ruined now. I don’t want it to be at all, but you have to do what you have to do. I just pray and wish and dream it can be fixed or at least we can be friends, we do support each other well. But I do think I’ll always love you. I’m not quite sure if I should but I do like to still believe in those letters sometimes, that someone could feel that towards little old me and mean it. I was a lot healthier then tho, I know I’d get there again when I’m away from here. I actually was starting to and then I came back here again, I don’t want to call it home. I found home and that’s not what this place is. I’m just sorry and I love you. I wish I could be there, I think I could help you even tho these feelings are caused by me. I really don’t want you to hate me. I know I have a lot of good and can be good. I just wish I could be here and help you feel a bit better

[passthehorizon]

Mental illness is a real bummer. It’s honestly destroyed my life and the best parts of it. I’m hoping medication will help but if it’s giving me panic attacks this bad in the first week then idk if it is worth it bc I literally cannot get off the floor?

[passthehorizon]

May I please find some kind of strength to get through this day and this week

[penicillium-pusher]

my counselor: how are you doing?

me: good, how are you?

my counselor: good, what brings you in today?

me: im doin real bad karen