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I’m not a steady person. When I get angry I don’t yell, I give a cold shoulder. When I’m mad at myself I treat other people poorly. When I’m upset I push everyone away and regret it. I can’t stay mad at people who do me wrong for too long and I have way too much love to give. I can treat someone I love like I’ll never see them again or like my love for them never existed. No, don’t get me wrong, I love them, I really do. I just have an awful habit of destroying things I love because that’s what I learned from my parents.

Rida Aamina, I’m a wreck, will you love me nevertheless? (via wnq-writers)

mental-health-recovery

Shoutout to all the people who are trying hard to be more positive and make meaningful changes in their lives and work towards recovery because it’s hard and people definitely don’t say it enough, but focusing on yourself is very difficult & the progress you’re making is valuable.

sprachtraeume

Why does being in your early 20s feel so much like only having 5 years of your life left in which you need to achieve as much as possible? why do I feel like I have an approaching deadline for success?

creativewordspowerfulideas

Because we teach people that success is only meaningful when it comes early. If you aren’t a young innovator, you can never be one. If you’re not a young business owner, no one cares if you get the keys after your mid-life crisis.

Stop the madness. You are you, you exist on your own time table. You aren’t here to win some sort of 100 yard dash and then sit back and cruise the rest of life. It’s a long haul. Jog when you have to. Spend your 20s working jobs that pay your bills, and build relationships. Or spend your 20s in a job you love that pays shit. Or spend your 20s with your nose constantly in a textbook and don’t do a damn thing in society till your 30th birthday balloons have been in landfills long enough to start decomposing.

You set your pace. You define your success. So take a breath and relax. You’ve got time.

Wala kang kwenta at wala kang magandang naidulot sa buhay ko pero ba’t hirap na hirap akong umusad dahil sa’yo? Miss na miss na kita. Isang message mo lang buong puso na naman akong magpakatanga sa’yo. Pwede ba? ‘Wag ka na magparamdam o magpakita man lang sa’kin. Magpanggap ka na lang na hindi tayo magkakilala. Hayaan na lang natin ang isa’t isa. Isa kang malaking perwisyo sa buhay ko.

Mayroon akong ugali na hindi ko pinapansin yung isang tao kapag naiinis o naiirita ako sa ginagawa niya kahit na kaibigan ko pa man siya. I know, toxic akong kaibigan/tao. Hahaha. Akala ko dati mga tao sa paligid ko yung toxic, unaware akong ako pala yung tunay na toxic sa mga tao sa paligid ko. Hangga’t maaari kasi talaga lumalayo ako sa tao para hindi lumala yung pagkainis ko para hindi ako mapuno. Gusto ko kasing isalba yung ‘friendship’ pero ang hindi ko alam, lalo lang pa lang nasisira dahil sa ginagawa kong paglayo. Pero kasi hindi ko kaya na sabihin yung mga hindi magagandang ugali ng mga kaibigan ko. Ang hirap kasing mangialam o makasakit ng damdamin. May kasabihan kasi na pag kaibigan mo, kailangan tanggap mo kung ano siya. HAHAHA WHAT. Para sa’kin mas okay na pahupain yung inis kesa kumprontahin sila??? Eh ayon. Kakabigay ko ng pasensya at malawak na pang-unawa, umabot na ko sa punto na napuno na lang ako??? Hahahaha.

Pa’no ba sabihin in a nice way yung “friend ‘wag mo kong angasan, yabangan at pangunahan kasi ang pasensya ko sa’yo kaunting kaunti na lang.” Charoooot dami pa lang sama ng loob!!! Hahahaha. I knooow, minsan may mga pansariling problema lang din siya kaya niya nagagawa o nasasabi yung mga ‘yun, pero please? Pwede ba ‘wag ka masyadong mean sa’kin kasi meron din akong bagahe na dinadala at hindi naman ako naging mean sa’yo because iniisip ko rin nararamdaman mo. ((except yung mga times na lumalayo ako kasi nga ayaw kong magpaka plastik sa nararamdaman ko))

I think I am better off alone. Para walang hassle sa buhay. Wala kang naaagrabyado at walang aagrabyado sa’yo. At wala kayong expectations sa isa’t isa na ganito ang dapat mong gawin o ganiyan kasi nga ‘kaibigan’ ka.

Hello, tumblr na naman ako because wala na akong friend. Toxic ako kaya wala akong friend. Charoooot wala lang ako friend na mapagsabihan. Punung-puno na si aque & kailangan kong mailabas ‘tong mga hinanaing ko sa buhay dahil hindi na kaya ng utak ko sasabog na ako.

wistfulsuggestions

it’s crazy how much I worry about you

reality-escape-artist

When you meet someone who tries their hardest to stick by you regardless of how difficult you are, keep them. Keep them at all costs because finding someone who cares enough to look past your flaws isn’t something that happens every day.

I truly did, I hope you find someone who will love you as much as I did.. (via 1113am)

fruitsaladchewits-deactivated20

wnq-writers

It’s okay to walk away. You’re allowed to leave this place. You’re allowed to leave toxic people. You’re allowed to say no without explaining why. You’re allowed to quit something that you don’t really love. You can move freely. You’re allowed to start over with something else. You’re allowed to fail and try and try again.

ginniemouse (via wnq-writers)

realifedreamgirl

I can’t wait until I am in that place where everything just falls together perfectly

meanwhilepoetry

The first step to any real kind of healing involves knowing where you made mistakes, what you genuinely could have helped and what you genuinely could not. It is forgiving yourself your mistakes.

Nikita Gill (via meanwhilepoetry)

theohjeezy

We need at least one friend who understands what we do not say.

Dr. Sunwolf (via jmoening)

nebulasresolution-deactivated20

If I am ignoring you, I apologize. I become distracted and will focus on one thing a while. Sometimes I’m just emotionally overwhelmed and I have to lay down for a while. I’m not ignoring you because it’s you it’s because life is distracting and hard and so sometimes I just need to stop talking to people and sometimes I do that suddenly.

i can’t forget that day you said hello and gave me a big smile

i cannot forget and now i can’t stop thinking about you

#gaguuuuuuuuuuu #epekto ng lany to #huhuhuhuhu #syempre char char lang yan diba #no hates #gagu #la ko alam sa pagsusulat #peroooooooooo #please crush #paramdam ka ulit #chos #labyu na

remanence-of-love

They just stop trusting people…

cali-cocaine

lapotencia55

YOOOO SO LOOK DA FIRST TIME I EVER GOT ON DIS RIDE I WAS WITH A WHITE FAMILY AND U KNOW WHITE FOLKS CRAZY SO DEY DONT FEAR ROLLER COASTERS OR DEATH IN GENERAL. AFTER ABOUT 10 MINUTES OF TELLIN DEM DAT I DIDNT WANNA GET ON I FINALLY SAID YES CUZ I AINT NEVER BEEN NO BITCH AND I DIDNT PLAN ON STARTING THAT DAY. WHEN DA ENGINEER SAID “PLS LEAN BACK AND KEEP THE BACK OF UR HEAD PRESSED AGAINST YOUR SEAT” AND I SAW EVERYBODY STICK DA BACK OF THEIR HEADS TO THE CHAIR I KNEW DAT I MADE DA WORST DECISION OF MY LIFE CUZ I EVEN SAW SOME BLACK FOLKS LISTEN AND U KNOW DAT WHEN BLACK PEOPLE LISTEN A WHITE LADY’S ADVICE , ITS DA REAL DEAL. SO MY FIRST MISTAKE WAS REFUSING TO PRESS MY HEAD AGAINST THE SEAT… THE RIDE TAKES OFF AND MY DOME SLAMS AGAINST THE CHAIR WHILE MY NECK SNAPPED… UNCONSCIOUS INSTANTLY.. WHEN I AWOKE FROM MY 3 SECOND SLUMBER WE HAD REACHED DA VERY TOP OF THE RIDE WHERE THE RIDE MAKES A QUICK PAUSE… WHEN THE RIDE MADE THAT PAUSE I OPENED MY EYES CAUSE I THOUGHT THE RIDE WAS OVER AND WE ALL MADE IT SAFELY. BOY WAS I WRONG… I OPENED MY EYES AND DA ONLY THING I SAW WAS A 300 FOOT DROP STRAIGHT TO DA GROUND SO I SAID “GOD YOU CANT LET ME DIE LIKE DIS”. I THINK I SUFFERED A HEART CONTUSION CUZ MY HEART JUST COMPLETELY STOPPED BEATING… AND THAN THE RIDE TAKES OFF AGAIN… WE MAKE THE 300 FOOT DROP AND I SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT AS IM SCARED TO DEATH BECAUSE DA ONLY TIME A HUMAN SHOULD BE DAT HIGH IN DA AIR IS WHEN THEIR SPIRIT IS BEING SUCKED INTO HEAVEN BY DA GRACE OF GOD.. SO WE SAFELY MAKE IT TO DA END OF DA RIDE AND WHEN WE GET OFF I STUMBLE OUT OF THE SEAT CUZ MY LEGS WENT NUMB AND ALL THE AIR WAS SUCKED OUT OF MY BODY SO I COULDNT TALK EITHER.. DA FIRST THING THESE CRAZY MOTHERFUCKERS TELL ME IS “HEY MAN LETS DO THAT AGAIN THAT WAS WICKED”. I LOOKED AT DEM AND I REALIZED DAT DIS WHITE KID DAT I BEFRIENDED WAS ACTUALLY SATAN. I NO LONGER HAVE ANY WHITE FRIENDS.

officiallightningmcqueen

please read this whole thing.

llleighsmith

rub my back and make my decisions for me

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