Growing

[patience-discipline]

I found this book that I bought over a year ago. I can’t remember the exact circumstances under which I purchased it but I believe it will be good for me to read it now that I’m determined to improve myself. My plan is that for each of the “12 Principled for Surviving and Thriving” I will write how I plan on applying it to my life and what lessons I learned from each. 

[patience-discipline]

begging.

Yesterday I realized that I’m coming down from a high. The last two weeks I’ve felt good. Simple as that: good. I began to get things done after a period of stagnation. My mood was consistently high and my worries at a manageable low. But yesterday I noticed a change. I woke up and I felt that feeling again. The same feeling that overwhelmed me not too long ago and that stuck with me for weeks and eventually months. 

The last two weeks were good. I felt as if I could breathe better and I looked forward to each day. Yesterday that changed for some reason. Yesterday I was afraid. I remembered how it felt to feel under for such a long time and how it affected my life. I was afraid that it was going to happen again. Yesterday I spent the day mourning the last two weeks and how good I felt. 

But today I told myself something I hadn’t before; that it doesn’t have to be like before. That I will not succumb to those feelings and that I will fight to feel good again. 

I don’t have a clear plan yet. All I know is I have things to do and things I want to accomplish and things that I need to figure out. Most importantly, I know that these cold damp feeling aren’t going to get me where I need to be.

The things I want:

-To take better care of my body

-To read and improve myself through reading 

-To study and regain the knowledge of my profession

-To enjoy life everyday 

-To care for those I love and those that need me