"If I Miss You, Well Thats My Fault"

Just a blog for me to express my feelings//if you need me just dm me 🙊

[patiently-fading7]

You told me. How you hate girls that call themselves beautiful. That should have been my first clue. That you were so insecure within yourself, that it was almost hereditary for you to pass that pain onto others. I saw your pain- shared it even. Under the starlit sky, we saw each other. We understood. I don't hate you for what you did. I only hope to god. That I am the last one you hurt. That you found peace within yourself.

~I forgive you.

[patiently-fading7]

And when you kissed me.

I could still taste her sweet poison on your lips.

~ I was merely convenient.

[sunsetico-deactivated20250705]

the day you walked out of my life, the sky fell and the world crumbled. the stars burnt to death and the galaxies collapsed. life, as i knew it, was not the same anymore. i, infinitely insignificant and deadly hurt, was buried where no liveliness exists and slowly died, suffocated and numb, thinking; you killed me  and i thought you wouldn’t hurt.

(via sunsetico)

[patiently-fading7]

I'd give all the poetry in the world,

Only if it meant I could feel

A little goddamn less

broken.

[patiently-fading7]

I look at you; expecting to feel;

Disgust, anger, hatred.

All those emotions still raw

running painfully through my veins;

the years of abuse unnoticeable.

I look at you; expecting to feel;

love, acceptance, longing.

Feelings so strong they once threatened to overwhelm me completely;

long forgotten now.

I look at you; expecting and praying to feel;

Almost anything in the world.

But it's the ever persistent numbness that stares back at me

~to my reflection

[wnq-writers]

You can start over today. Right in this minute. It doesn’t have to be a Monday or a new year to recreate yourself.

different-oceans,  writing prompt #73: Write about the lessons you learned this year. (via wnq-writers)

[not-the-one-you-wanted]

So today was… emotional. Remember that app musically? Yeah I had one about a year and a half ago. So I went on in for the shits and giggles, and I saw some musicallys from like back then. Honestly it hurt. I was so happy, like literally just happy. I had amazing friends, and my boyfriend was actually there and able to talk to me and things were great with him, and his family sort of liked me. Things were okay in my own family too. Life was good….. fast forward to now… bf is in Kenya, going away for another 2 months later on in the year, and is going to be away for 6 months next year…. the worst thing is, we can barely talk…. and I don’t care how bitchy this sounds, but honestly I don’t even know if it’s worth it. He’s the most amazing freaking guy, but we barely even see each other anymore…. my parents split up and now spend around 90% of their time talking shit about the other person to me… oh and I developed an eating disorder (can’t even say I’m sad about it, at least it actually makes me numb), I just want things to go back to the way they used to be. When I was happy and carefree, with an amazing boyfriend, amazing friends, amazing family…at least the diets going well this time

[not-the-one-you-wanted]

Actually okay with the way I look today

[teenangstverse]

You left bruises   on my neck   and shoulders,   my collar bones,   my breasts,   from kissing me   too hard. I only left bruises   in one place,   on your heart,   where I didn’t love you   hard enough.

mine will fade before yours will // L.H (via teenangstverse)

Okay I literally freaking love this ❤️❤️

[wistful--dreams]

I’m sorry I couldn’t be what you needed. I’m sorry I was selfish, and I’m sorry our paths crossed at a time when I was at my worst. I was going through my own stuff and figuring my own things out and I’m sorry you were the one who I took it out on. You have a beautiful soul and I’ve watched you grow so much. Timing is everything and ours sucked. I’ve changed so much and grown so much even though I have a lot left to work on. It’s sad that we don’t work anymore, that we don’t click. I know you didn’t deserve to be treated like I treated you sometimes. Our friendship was like a rollercoaster, sometimes so high up and amazing- when I realized again how much I cared for you and I went out of my way to show it, when our rhythms synced. And sometimes it was at the lowest- when I was frustrated with things beyond your control and put the blame on you, and when our communication seemed to halt in its tracks. You can only fix something so many times until it’s broken for good, and that’s what happened here. People change and sometimes they change too much to be together anymore. But, I want to thank you for the memories, the shared dreams, the late night deep talks, the support, the love, the adventures, and really, the lessons. You are one of a kind, truly. Stay sensitive, stay kind, and stay hopeful. But please, for your own sake, learn to speak your mind, and learn to be loud. Learn to disagree and to stand on your own. Be bold, brave, stubborn. I have to say it’s gonna be weird without you, that’s for sure. Know that you’ll be in my thoughts still, and that I hope you are always among people who act the way I thought about you. I’ll always remember you fondly, and here’s to moving on.

[patiently-fading7]

Never in my life have I related to something so much 😢💔

[patiently-fading7]

So proud of this one and everything he is accomplishing. Only 2 more weeks and I can finally see him again. Before he goes to Iraq anyway

(photo was taken from a news article about him 😂)

[patiently-fading7]

“It’s a small crime, and I’ve got no excuse. Is that alright with you?”

[patiently-fading7]

Tb to happier times 🙈💁🏼

[patiently-fading7]

"We are all broken. That's how the light gets in." -Emest Hemingway

[ifthenightcouldtalk]

You have to stop. Stop waiting for text messages that are never going to come. Stop telling yourself that he still loves you even though he says he doesn’t. Stop looking at the pictures of you two laughing together. Stop thinking, wanting, dreaming of him. He doesn’t want you. And you know what? He doesn’t deserve you. He doesn’t deserve your beauty, your grace, your loyalty, your love. Stop waiting on him and starting working towards someone new. Someone who is worth the waiting and dreaming and wanting, someone who is perfect for you.

(via ifthenightcouldtalk)

❤️❤️I needed this right now 😊👌

(via delenasalvador)

[patiently-fading7]

“Tinkerbell has always been there for Peter. And Peter? He chose Wendy. ” Pretty much the story of my life, from friends to family through & out