The first time she lets the redhead take her home, sheâs diligent about hiding her cloak. She folds it carefully against tears and rips and abrasions, and hides it in a sea cave whose entrance is concealed by the tide.
She does the same, the second and third and fourth times, careful, wary, mindful of her motherâs lessons. Remembers the way her motherâs hands had chafed on her soft cheeks, rough with cooking and cleaning for her fisherman husband, the way her motherâs peat-dark eyes had been tense and harsh with the lesson.
âMind me, Niahm. Never let them find your cloak.â
The way her motherâs mouth had curved, a sickle of dissatisfaction and relief and envy, as she had escaped into the waves.
So she minds her motherâs lesson, and she takes care with her cloak.
Would that she had taken as much care with her heart.
The fifth time, she wears the cloak to the girlâs door, clutched about her throat, dripping along the darkened lanes.
She enters the home, welcomed with soft kisses and gentle touches and kindling passion. She drapes the cloak, artful in her carelessness, across an old wooden chair, the one that creaks and tilts slightly if you donât sit just right.
When she wakes, in the wee hours of the morning, even before her lover, the cloak still rests, supple and dappled by the sea, on the back of the chair.
She frowns into the softening dawn, dons the cloak, and returns to the sea.
And again, the sixth time. And the seventh.
The eighth time, she finally breaks, prickling and hurt with longing, gripping a handful of russet hair in her hand, firm with emphasis.
âSurely you know what I am,â she says to her lover, the cool froth of sea foam and the call of gulls curling around her voice.
âOf course,â her lover responds, soft and tender in the dawnlight, throat arched willingly, pale as the inner whorls of a shell. âYou taste of the sea,â the girl whispers, reverently.
She shakes her loverâs head gently, fingers tangled still in russet locks. âWhy?â she demands. âWhy wonât you keep me?â
A long silence that waits and fills, like a tidepool, stretches between them. Cool as a current. Deep as the Channel.
Her loverâs eyes are dark and tender. âMust I trap you to keep you, my heart? Is that the shape of love that you desire?â
She sinks into the thought, struck and stymied, remembering her motherâs harsh hands, her cold eyes. Her hand eases into russet waves, caresses where her grip had punished. Her lips press cool and damp as the sea against the arching curve of her loverâs shoulder. âWhat shape of love will you give to me?â
The answer is easy, quick, certain. âMyself. Only myself, whenever you should wish it. Your cloak by the door, your body in my bed, and the freedom to go, whenever you must. As long as you wish.â
Itâs not an answer a fisherman could ever give, nor would think to.
The ninth time, she hangs her cloak by the door, draped in careful dappled folds next to a drying oilskin jacket.
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