Paul M. Gordon

Schizophrenic || 11/10/89 (30) || Married to Chase Gordon "Give them no reason to stare. No slipping up if you slip away. So, I got nothing to share. No, I got nothing to say..."

[paul--davies]

chase---gordon​:

Chase had needed it. Granted he was trying to be better but he didn’t always succeed especially right now. His sister had moved full time, and he just felt like he was losing everyone. Although Chase understood it. But still it was how he felt. Granted, Paul was still there and that was mattered to him. Leaning into her touch, he also leaned forward and kissed him again. “My guy…how was your day?” He questioned as he pulled away again.

Even his state of panic, Paul couldn’t help but smile at each kiss. His fingers danced along Chase’s jaw and he took his free hand to tug Chase back when he began to pull away. His hand rested on the other man’s lower back.  “I love you.  I love you with every fiber of my being...” he purred softly. He licked his bottom lip, looking his husband over. “It’s been a pretty good day.  I’m kind of hungry though. How’s my baby? Do you want get dinner?” 

[paul--davies]

[ @harshwinterstorm​ ]

“Xanthe...” Paul had been walking home from work when he had a very sudden urge to step out into traffic and a voice in the back of his head telling him to do it. He didn’t really know what her schedule was, but he was simply hoping that she was here teaching a class. This was the nearest place he knew to go. He looked around at her students and forced a weak smile. “S-ssorry...” He stammered, taking a step toward the back of the room and sliding down the wall to sit. He was shaking. He hugged his legs to his chest and rested his forehead on his knees. 

[chase---gordon]

@paul–davies​

“There is my guy.” Maybe Chase was a bit drunk and maybe a little bit high, he shouldn’t be but he couldn’t help it. He needed that hit but he could never find what -A had given him. “Come here.” He leaned in and kissed his lips passionately and roughly. “I’ve missed you.” Chase stated as he pulled away slightly.

[paul--davies]

“Hi, baby...” Paul spoke softly as he glanced up from the kitchen counter. He laughed gently as he was tugged toward him and leaned up to return the kiss. He resisted the urge to sigh and almost frown. The smell of alcohol on Chase’s breath made alarms go off in his head. His own paranoia triggered. He didn’t fear Chase leaving him anymore, but he was still terrified of losing him one way or another. “I miss you too...” he whispered, brushing his fingers along Chase’s chin.

[biancasaverina]

paul–davies​:

“Oh?” Paul had been a little startled when she first spoke. When he turned around to look at her, he gave a small smile though realizing that it was safe. He tucked his hands into his pocket and looked around, thinking for a moment. “You know what that would be great.” 

Bianca smiled lightly, unlocking the car doors and gesturing. “Come on then – don’t want you falling and breaking an ankle.” She made a face. “Where you heading?”

[paul--davies]

Paul smiled a bit and gave a small nod. “Falling and breaking my ankle would be very counterproductive to my to-do list...” He chuckled, walking around the car to get in the passenger’s side. “I was actually heading to the library for a little mid-afternoon study session. I underestimated how bad it was snowing when I left the house.”

[biancasaverina]

“Hey - you okay?” Bianca asked as she wound down the car window and peered out. “You need a ride?” The snow had gotten pretty mad overnight.

[paul--davies]

“Oh?” Paul had been a little startled when she first spoke. When he turned around to look at her, he gave a small smile though realizing that it was safe. He tucked his hands into his pocket and looked around, thinking for a moment. “You know what that would be great.” 

[loveallthegays]

Your heart’s beating really fast. That’s on you.

[chase---gordon]

@paul–davies

[hallie-farmer]

“If you’re here to give me the smoking is bad talk, you can save it. I know it’s bad, but nobody cares what I do anyways…”

@secretsummerstarters​

[paul--davies]

“I won’t lecture you because your lungs, your choice... but I am sure someone does care what you do...” 

[leahwinters-deactivated20210513]

“So are you going to tell me why you’re standing on my porch or no?” @secretsummerstarters​

[paul--davies]

“I got your letter delivered to my mailbox for some reason. Probably because of Xanthe, but still an odd thing to get...” Paul spoke softly, holding out the envelope. “It was even addressed properly. I have no idea...” 

[paul--davies]

harshwinterstorm​:

“I know Paul.”  she said with a small smile. She hoped he knew she loved him too but it was something that wasn’t easy for her to say.

He smiled softly and tilted his head to the side. “Come over tonight for a movie night.” 

[paul--davies]

harshwinterstorm​:

“Sure sure whatever you say.” she teased playfully. “Trying to spare my feelings aren’t you.”

He grinned a bit and shrugged. “You know I love you.” 

[paul--davies]

ava-crxz​:

“Probably, unless they have a new med student be the one to stick you.”

“OMG!” Paul laughed a bit and shook his head. “They can’t punish me for getting low blood sugar, but they just punish me by letting a med student stick me.” 

[paul--davies]

adelaide-crxss​:

“Exactly. I would say the corny saying about teamwork but I inwardly groan every time I hear it.”

He laughed and nodded. “I can agree with you there.”

[paul--davies]

harshwinterstorm​:

“It does. I’m so proud of you.” she said softly. “Don’t say that. Now it makes it sound like you lost interest in girls because of me.” she teased.

“Oh, no, no...” He grinned and shook his head. “I did not lose interest in girls because of you. I never had interest in girls. I just didn’t have interest in boys either...” 

[paul--davies]

chase---gordon​:

“That is all I’m asking.” He grinned, while looking over at him. Shaking his head slightly. “That isn’t who or what I want at all. All I want in this life is you by my side forever.” 

Paul smiled softly and leaned up to kiss Chase’s cheek. “Well, that I can certainly promise you.” He began to sing a song from Gypsy, “You’ll never get away from me. You could climb the tallest tree. I’ll be there somehow.” He chuckled a bit, leaning into him. “I love you.” 

[paul--davies]

adelaide-crxss​:

“Hey, us meddies have to stick together.”

“The best way to succeed... teamwork.”

[paul--davies]

harshwinterstorm​:

“I mean one of us has to be confident in you.” she joked. “I’m good. I’ve just been working a lot. Married life looks good on you.” she told him

Paul laughed and smiled softly. “It does fit me, doesn’t it?” He shrugged a bit. “--and just think, I wasn’t gay a couple of years ago...” Oh, he was totally gay... just not open. 

[paul--davies]

faye--gordon​:

Faye chuckled. “Well, hey, you probably wouldn’t be human if you weren’t at least a little, right?”

“That is very true, but being human is awful.” He chuckled a bit.