A MAD World Order

"The Descent Into Chaos Had Just Begun" -Paul Bernardo

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Karla Holmolka

[pauljasonteale]

whats the origin of your username? also, will you posting again soon? i really miss your blog!

I'm surprised someone even remembers this old thing at all! To be completely honest I made it as a 12 year old serial killer fanatic who wanted to fit in with cool tumblr crime junkies. I'm in college now, and there's really not much updating to be done on the case as far as I know. I may in the future carry it on, as I'm deeply fascinated in abnormal psychology. I would be interested in delving into the complicated relationships between people with untreated personality disorders and abusive relationships, which really does fit Mr Bernardo and Ms Homolka.

However, knowing I romanticized him, and ultimately his crimes, it makes me deeply uncomfortable to look at how I used to post. The gravity of these things never really hit me, but I think carrying the blog on in the manner I once did would be a disservice to the people and families affected by these crimes. I would have to find a tasteful balance between my interest in this case and informative posting.

Thank you for the ask!

[pauljasonteale]

Are any of his siblings, David or Debbie on social media?

I have doggedly looked into this in the past and I’ve found nothing. Who’s to say they aren’t, though? Considering their age, they are likely to be on at least Facebook, but even if they are, their accounts are most likely hidden to avoid harassment. I suppose if somebody had the time, effort, and money to hire a private investigator then you could really get to the bottom of this; however, I’d advise against it. If they really wanted to be out in the public they would make themselves be seen. I find it most respectful to leave them be. They didn’t ask to be involved and probably want to carry on a normal life. However, if you look hard enough, I’m sure you’ll eventually find some trace of them online.

[pauljasonteale]

So,I’m guessing you’d be completely against the possibility that Karla Homolka is rehabilitated,right? If so,why would you be okay with it,if it was Paul Bernardo? I’m sorry to tell you,but serial killers and serial rapists can’t be rehabilitated. Especially people like Bernardo and Homolka.

I’m not against the idea. I don’t know her. I don’t know Paul. I don’t know what their minds are like, not more than anybody else. All I can say for certain is crime rates are lower in places where criminals are given a chance to be rehabilitated, and applying those rates, I am not afraid to say I believe anybody suffering from mental illness like this can be rehabilitated to a point. If that’s not your belief, I respect that, but at the end of the day that’s just your opinion as well as mine. 

Psychology still has many years to branch out and discover endless possibilities and I consider myself optimistic enough to believe there is a form of rehabilitation out there for people who commit heinous crimes. I might be wrong though, who knows, but I am stubborn enough that I will refuse to abandon my stand on things as of now. 

[pauljasonteale]

Teaser for the posts that 0 people will see?? I think yes. Also what the interior book looks like on Amazon if anybody was curious!

[pauljasonteale]

I wonder if I should still post MAD world order topics?? I love to read it now and then and there are quite a few things that would intrigue you guys! Especially revisiting it- it has been quite funny. I’m not sure how interested anybody would be though years later now, and I’m not too fond of tumblr. Idk I might share an excerpt or too and getaway for a few years as per usual 😂

[pauljasonteale]

Look up "max kerman" and just fucking TRY to tell me that's not Paul Bernardo who got access to a time machine.

I do in fact see a resemblance! Though just recently on my trip to Jersey I saw a man that looked just like Paul and it was a bit frightening. I think I read somewhere that we have at least one doppelgänger, though, so I’m not too surprised either way heh

[pauljasonteale]

Do you have any photos that show his feet clearly? 😉

Um no sorry haha, you’ll have to get your fix elsewhere. Though I do wonder how Paul would feel if he knew his feet were being glorified sexually 😂

[pauljasonteale]

You’re glad this guy is in jail right? Do you realize how disgusting his crimes are? Would you still glorify him if you were the one being brutally beaten and raped?

I’m not sure why I have sudden attention on this old ass account but it is a little amusing. Though- on the more serious side of things, as someone who has gone through child sexual abuse and went through trauma therapy, it’s a little distasteful that you ask me. Perhaps that is why you’re on anonymous? Regardless, I’m a believer of rehabilitation, and if several psychologists find him fit for release then I agree he should go back into society. This stands for anybody in prison with a violent/dangerous record. It is not for you or I to decide such things, it is up to the parole board in the end, so my opinion is not of importance. And yes anon, I am in deep l emotional pain everytime I think of what happened to his victims. You would be able to see that if you actually looked through my posts you silly little troll.

[pauljasonteale]

why are you glorifying/idolizing a scumbag serial killer/rapist?

Woahhh I haven’t been on here in forever. None of my recent posts have glorified him and have been mostly informational, from what I can recall. If you don’t like it then you don’t have to see my posts anon ;)

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“One of Karla’s girlfriends, Tracy Collins, described Karla to the police as “a thirty year old in a seventeen-year-old’s body.”

“You know what I’d like to do…?” Karla had whispered in Tracy’s ear one afternoon in the cafeteria. “I’d like to put dots all over somebody’s body and take a knife and then play connect the dots and then pour vinegar all over them.” Tracy was enthralled by the remark and never forgot it.

Karla also started talking about suicide. Her high-school sweetheart, Doug Liddell, whom she met in typing class, liked Karla’s moodiness and found the fact that she was constantly threatening to commit suicide attractive.

Doug was not the only one who noticed Karla was obsessed by death. “Remember: Suicide kicks and fasting is awesome. Bones rule! Death Rules. Death Kicks. I love death. Kill the fucking world” was how she inscribed another schoolmate’s yearbook.”

from Karla: A Pact with the Devil by Stephen Williams

[pauljasonteale]

Parole Denied for Paul

After Debbie Mahaffy, Donna French, and Jennifer, a survivor of one of Paul’s attacks, spoke, Paul offered his appeal to the parole board. He speaks in reference to his crimes as horrible and dreadful, saying he no longer feels his savage behavior was justified, although he once did. Bernardo says that through counselling he’s come to realize the horror of his actions and cries every time he thinks of what he did, acknowledges that he “hurt a lot of people”. Paul also justifies his actions with “anxiety and performance issues” as he has in a past interview.

His Parole Officer apparently stated that “he had made few, if any gains” during his incarceration. Parole Board member Suzanne Poirer adds that Paul’s empathetic attitude is something hes adopted recently, although she didn’t expand, as far as I’ve read, on the time frame of “recent”.

Unsurprisingly, Paul was denied parole, and will have to wait another 5 years before he can apply again.

Source: https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.cbc.ca/amp/1.4866556

Ontario killer and rapist Paul Bernardo denied parole | CBC News

Ontario killer and rapist Paul Bernardo was denied parole at a hearing in eastern Ontario today. It was attended by family members of some o

Transcripts of the victim impact statements can be found here: https://www.scribd.com/document/391058517/Victim-Impact-Statement-of-Debbie-Mahaffy#from_embed

Victim Impact Statement of Debbie Mahaffy

https://www.scribd.com/document/391059162/Victim-Impact-Statement-of-Donna-French#from_embed

Victim Impact Statement of Donna French

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A new courtroom sketch of Canadian serial killer Paul Bernardo.

A minor weapon charge against him was withdrawn on Friday (October 5th, 2018), almost two weeks before an expected parole hearing at which the dangerous offender will plead for release, having spent more than 25 years behind bars, most in solitary confinement.

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Paul Bernardo’s Weapon Charges are Dropped as The Crown decided “there was no reasonable prospect of conviction”

Source: Global News

Paul Bernardo has weapons possession charge dropped

The Crown says the charge was withdrawn because there was no reasonable prospect of conviction.

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Paul Bernardo is set to appear in court via video, and not in person, later today

Source: Toronto Sun

MANDEL: School girl killer Paul Bernardo won’t appear in person at trial

Notorious serial killer Paul Bernardo was scheduled to appear in person Friday for his trial in the Napanee courthouse on charges he crafted

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Excerpts from Paul Bernardo’s voicemail to “Kar” Homolka, a month before his arrest

“When you know you’ve lost it all and there is no one to turn to, death’s welcome mat is the only place you can go. Kar, this one’s for you pal! I don’t know what to say. You know, I love you, man. So fucking much. Right now, you know what I’m doing? Holding your wedding picture, looking at you; you’re so beautiful. I let you down, you know, I really let you down. I’m sorry, Kar. God, I wish I could make it up to you.”

“You’re the best, okay? Don’t listen to the crap I said before. You’re the best. You’re the fucking best, man. You made me so happy, you know. You really did. Like, I really needed love in my life, man, and you gave that to me, and I’m really happy for that, like I treated you like shit near the end and I’m sorry. You’re the best fucking thing in the world, Kar, you’re the best. I love you. Miss you.”

“Here’s the problem, Kar. I tried to be larger than life, I really did. But see, I didn’t try to be average, like the average guy, I tried to be larger. I tried to be the best thing that there ever was, maybe because I needed love, maybe… I don’t know why. I wanted to get Tammy the forest-green Porsche; I wanted to have your parents on speedboats; I wanted to take care of you and have this huge house with the four children; I wanted to be greater than anything there was and when I didn’t reach it I got frustrated and angry and I took it out on you – the person I love the most! Don’t hate me for that. Please… just please don’t hate me for mom’s genetics, right, the weak side.”

“We were a good team you know. We were the best team. We were great man. United we stand together we fall? Fall for us okay? You keep standing pal.”

“Kar, he’s coming to get me now. No, the Grim Reaper’s coming. I’m afraid, I’m too young to die. You never called. Kar, Kar. Please don’t, please don’t, please don’t. He’s outside my car; he’s coming for me… it’s three-ten A.M. I’ve cried a million tears, Kar. I don’t know how to stop.”

It is clear that this was, in essence, a suicide note. The authenticity of the emotions he was feeling at the time are debatable, at least for Karla - there’s no doubt he felt sorry for himself.

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Some lesser seen photos from Paul Bernardo and Karla Homolka’s wedding.