for no one

The truth is, I pretend to be a cynic, but I am really a dreamer who is terrified of wanting something she may never get. Payton.

[paytonsivy]

Dear Florence,

I don't really know you. I think we've spoke briefly once because you were wearing an adorable Jessie outfit. But, I'm certainly creepy enough to ask around. I've found out you were an actress, however. This gift is not me wishing something tragic and horrible, I promise. It's supposed to be a good luck charm. You get it? "Break a leg?" The crutches? I even bought you a chain so you could wear it as a necklace. I hope we can become closer! Merry Christmas! 

Your secret Santa, 

Payton Ivy

[elsewhereicare-deactivated20151]

[devonivy]

I have to disagree considering mom wouldn’t let me leave yesterday because she didn’t want me to see you.

When you open them.

[paytonsivy]

...At least she remembered my birthday. 

So... when can I open it?

[duncanarnott]

Sounds painful. If I’m going to get a tattoo, it’s going to be where someone will see it on the regular, not on my ass.

[paytonsivy]

Wait. Are you telling people don't see your ass daily? People don't see my ass daily? I've been lied to!

[duncanarnott]

Alright, let’s go. Time to do all the legal stuff. Tattoos, gambling, smoking, getting arrested, that’s what I’m here for. All or nothing. 

[paytonsivy]

Tattoos on our asses, though? How does that sound?

[lorettabeyer]

Okay, valid point. I feel even better now.

Oh, uh, okay! Do you have any ideas where you want it?

[paytonsivy]

Good.

We'll decide, alright? Come over sometime.

[devonivy]

I think mom would rather see me dead.

It’s still a secret! You can’t know.

[paytonsivy]

I'm sure she already thinks I am. 

When can I know?

[lorettabeyer]

To spare my feelings. But I’m so glad you like it.

You deserve it. Oh I can’t wait to see it, I know it’ll look amazing in your room.

[paytonsivy]

I'd sound a lot less interested than I sound right now if I was trying to spare your feelings. I'm awful at lying.

Hang it with me. Help me place it.

[phoenixgates]

No way! Both of those things are awesome, at least in my book they are.

[paytonsivy]

I mean, I guess. School isn't, really. Napping is no different from what I do any other day. 

[devonivy]

I’ve thought a lot about it, too. Specifically, matching tattoos because that sounds awesome and there’s no one I’d rather have a matching tattoo with.

It’s a surprise, Payton. I can’t tell you.

[paytonsivy]

I think we should get 'ride or die' as a tramp stamp. What do you think?

But, why? My birthday was yesterday!

[lorettabeyer]

Wait, really? Like you’re not just saying that?

[paytonsivy]

Why would I just say that? That's probably one of the nicest things anybody has ever done for me. 

That's probably the most anybody's ever thought about me. I love it. I'm gonna hang it right in my bedroom, probably. 

[devonivy]

I’m only joking, Payton. You don’t have to get a tattoo for me. Thank you. I think you’re gonna like what I got you. I kinda went a little overboard, but y’know, it’s year 18 so I figure that’s okay. It’s a big year.

[paytonsivy]

Are you kidding? You're my brother. You're my best friend. I want to get a tattoo for you. I've thought about it a lot, really. 

Ooooh, okay. What'd you get me? What'd you get me?

[devonivy]

But it’d be super cool and when I turn 18, I could get a matching one that says that you rock. Happy belated birthday, by the way. I’m sorry I didn’t get to see you yesterday. Mom kept a very close eye on me all day. I have gifts, but like, it’s hard to get away without mom noticing, y’know? I also have no idea where you’re living these days.

[paytonsivy]

Maybe I can get one for you, but not like that, yeah? Thanks, baby bro. I get you. Uh, yeah. I can give you my address. You can come over any time you like. Any time you can. 

[lorettabeyer]

I realized I was gay because I had to paint a half naked girl in my art class over the summer, and I hated this painting at first but it helped me… become who I am. And I know it’s probably totally weird and I promise this isn’t me like, trying to give you porn because it’s art, but that’s a whole other argument but you also played… like a ridiculously huge part in me coming to terms with myself so I just. Want you to uh, have it. If you want it. It deserves to be displayed.

[paytonsivy]

...Loretta, I love it. I love the thought you put into it. 

[lorettabeyer]

I have something for you. For your birthday, I mean. Happy birthday by the way. Anyway, it’s kind of strange and you might not even want it and it might be totally inappropriate, but I always want to deck out your apartment with art so…

[paytonsivy]

Okay. Hit me with your best shot. 

[phoenixgates]

Congratulations and happy birthday! Did you do anything special for the big day?

[paytonsivy]

I went to school, then I took a nap. I'm a bit pathetic. 

[devonivy]

You can get a tattoo now. You should get a tattoo that says Dev rocks. Just a suggestion.

[paytonsivy]

That's super tacky, man. I'd want to put a little thought into a tattoo. Also, the fact I'm broke doesn't really help.