The Lunatic, The Lover, & The Poet

Original Poems and Other Stuffs

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I did a thing today. In this bag lies hope and, possibly, a tiny amount of relief. I have officially begun treatment for my depression. This year has had too many ups and downs and stresses and I've had trouble coping with the new demands and experiences. This Christmas season has been hard for everyone, but I know it's been especially hard on those fighting mental illnesses. For me, I have been feeling a tremendous weight on my chest and I can feel it getting larger and heavier. I'm afraid it's going to culminate in a terrifying explosion. So, after two weeks of high anxiety and crying bouts and extreme irritability I asked for help. It wasn't as hard as trying to deal with everything and failing utterly. Tonight I begin taking a low dose of Prozac. I am going to walk out of 2020 and leave as much pain in the past as I can. I will walk into 2021 with hope in my heart and a plan for getting better. If you are struggling talk to me. I've been with you this whole time, fighting for purchase and footing. I will share whatever debris I am holding onto so you can keep your head above water too. Together is the only way we will survive. Cheers, friends. ❤ Jesi #Depression #MentalIllness #GettingHelp #Surviving https://www.instagram.com/p/CJcnMRGFRAr/?igshid=9vi7awjvarby

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We decided to go a little bit further than 2.23 miles. We talked about why were walking and color and why people hate. He noticed how many people we passed were white and how many were black or a different color. We talked about why it was important that we especially should pay attention to people of different colored skin and help them when they need help and stand up for them when they need us. And we talked about how unfair it is that black kids can't even walk down a street without people stopping them and asking them why they are there. We also talked about an event that happened to us last year where our privileged skin made it possible for us to experience a lesser judgement than if a black person had been in our place. We are white. We are privileged. We make a promise that we will use our privilege to stand behind and support and help those who are not allowed to stand up for themselves, who are persecuted for any reason people use hate to commit crimes against them, and for those who come after us we will pass along this promise. #IRunWithAhmaud #AhmaudArbery #JusticeForAhmaud (at Euless, Texas) https://www.instagram.com/p/B_8Ob9VHOE7/?igshid=1qla3nkr6aesm

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Yip and his brother, Elliott, visiting for Christmas #christmas #christmassurpise #secrets https://www.instagram.com/p/B6JT7EFHFJV/?igshid=toqdhvzvch0m

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Tornado's new hat... #pokemon #pikachu #HandmadeLove #handmade #Cute #BuggerToMakeThough https://www.instagram.com/p/B14p40Fnf-_/?igshid=hmzypcj3mdrs

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Mornings, am I right? #Dogs #dogsofinstagram #DogLife #DogMom #HeDoesntDoMornings https://www.instagram.com/p/B11ha4OHKav/?igshid=fivrgxzialbk

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#browncoatsunite #browncoatsforever #BigDamnHero #AmReading https://www.instagram.com/p/B0RQWPSH3r7/?igshid=xf2c1cradg7v

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Typically this spot is his and even the cats respect that. But for some reason Maisie decided to take advantage of his absence from it today. #SheNEVERGetsUpThere #FeelingSpry #DogLife #ShesAlmostTwiceHisSizeActually #SillyPups https://www.instagram.com/p/ByLMGrEgth5/?igshid=1t4z08545iy7e

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Dancing smoke current https://www.instagram.com/p/ByD4HyQgFpn/?igshid=11z9x2lt415lg

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Received my second backflow incense burner tonight! One for Mother's Day, one for my birthday (belatedly). So. Freaking. Cool. https://www.instagram.com/p/ByB8l7Zg-7V/?igshid=1ao3fchomsup3

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Penguin hats! https://www.instagram.com/p/Bx3GC6An1eX/?igshid=1r71awv5b5uv8

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You can always tell by their eyes how they feel. Kiddo was sent home early with a fever. But at least the penguin hat I made for his brother, and he has taken over, cheered him up. #SickKiddo #parenting #HandmadeLove #SaysItIsntItchy #win #PenguinsAreAwesome #JuiceIsTheBestThough https://www.instagram.com/p/Bx25munHYLK/?igshid=3ayrfee31vub

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Just received my (late) bday present. #GobSmacked #dragons #Backflow #IncenseBurner #Surprised #BirthdayPresentGoal https://www.instagram.com/p/BxqTkn9ni-6/?igshid=1rnwguelvcskd

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A little over a year ago I began a project because I was fed up with all of the accumulating socks missing from the laundry, which were not the cause of the machines. This was the solution I came up with courtesy of a similar idea I found on Pinterest. (It was a newspaper decoupage with "Single, Looking For Mate" painted on it.) This is my version. #organization #crafty #HarryPotter #magicalcommunity #NotAMuggle #TookAYearBecauseMyWandBrokeInADuel #WandRepairTakesFOREVER https://www.instagram.com/p/BxqCtEjHuLl/?igshid=trw9wcyz7w8s

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This is his "you're annoying me" face. #dogsofinstagram #DogLife #dogs #pets #petsofinstagram #dogmom https://www.instagram.com/p/BxAM8NHAyX4/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1n7gugbcjqzn8

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New poem: Captive Which plays more a part in the beginning of negative behavior? http://lunaticpoet.com/the-real-thieves/ #Parenting #negativenehaviour #juveniles #poetrymonth #Poeming #poetryisart #PoetryOfInstagram #PoetsOfInstagram #poetryisnotdead #poetrycommunity #poetryislife https://www.instagram.com/p/Bv2Jh8Fgwmn/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=6pn2dr80fjjg

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National Poetry Writing Month Day 4 prompt: to write about sadness in a simple way. Sadness is rarely ever simple. I wrote about trying to fight it, and failing. http://lunaticpoet.com/sad-songs-say-so-much/ #sadness #depression #grief #unhappiness #poetrychallenge #poetrymonth #PoetryOfInstagram #poetryisnotdead #Poeming #PoetsOfInstagram #poetryislife #poetrycommunity #poetrycommunityofinstagram #AmWriting #Writing #poetryisart https://www.instagram.com/p/Bv1VSAYA3b0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=16v7h8t6bgnox

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The love (and dependence) is mutual. #DogLife #rescuedog #adopteddog #lovethisgirl #MaisieGirl https://www.instagram.com/p/Bv0V0LGAxL3/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=3hq5nfeyhnv5