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When someone talks to me about the Artemis II launch I have to act calmly, but younger me wanted so badly to be an astronaut and leave this planet, even if it meant a lot of math, and pain, just to realize that no matter what I do, no matter what I learn, no matter where I go, and no matter who I meet, I have to work for what I want, and give up ‘never leaving earth’, and nothing ever was a given, and even if I get that opportunity, will people even see me as an astronaut? Will my mom still be proud of me?

#yeah this isn’t about being an astronaut #poetry #lit #poems #writing #transgender #trans ftm #sometimes I hate being like this

If you and I were both transferred into the bodies of sunflowers, I fear, conceivably due to the transformation, alternatively by my own undoing, I’d neglect and disregard the flower in your new name

#sunflower #poetry #lit #poems #writing #mlm #mlm yearning #symbolism

Icarus, Would you not?

If you had been kept in the dark your whole life, never knowing anything but fable of the outside world, never breathing it in and awing it and grasping at the dirt a part of it,

Would you not have flown to the most beautiful, brightest, bizarre thing you’ve laid your eyes on? Would it not have entranced you? Pulled you in? And in? And in. and in.

Would you not have let it hold you for the faintest moment, and worshipped the warmth it gave you, even if it burned?

Would you not have cherished every second of it, every fleeting, fiery moment as you fell farther and farther into the deep blue of the ocean, only to never come out again?

Would you not have risked it?

Would you risk feeling nothing at all in fear of feeling anything at all?

#icarus #poetry #lit #poems #writing #symbolism #greek mythology #the fall of icarus #love #take a chance #do it scared #mlm #lover boy #romantic

Like a dog

When we met I was like a dog for you

I would wait and scratch at your door

Begging for any scraps you threw out,

You kept me well fed for a long while

But it all only fueled my hunger more,

Every random pet to try and tame me

Each ‘hey boy, here’s enough food until next time’,

To be let into your pack

You even offered it, asked me,

if we were both cold,

and if we both really wanted the warmth,

would I want to come in?

But you always shut the door before I could reach my paw out

And I wanted to destroy the home you lived in

But I taught myself control

I’ve since wandered

And I’ve learned how to fend for myself

And you can try calling me back

Maybe a year ago, you could’ve taught me tricks I didn’t know

But I’m not obedient to you anymore

I won’t sit at your heel when you tell me to

I won’t come back if you call me

I don’t want inside your home anymore

I don’t want to wreck it

I’ll stay stray, you stay domesticated

#poetry #writing #mlm yearning #mlm #lit #poems #dog symbolism #symbolism #situationships #stray dogs

You don’t understand it.

I want you to understand it.

The want, the need.

The need.

To be loved out loud.

The need.

To be loved in front of everyone.

Disgust, contempt, resignation

splinters into my skin from lovers before

Was it love if they feared to be seen?

I want to brandish my own

hearts bundle of nerves worn heavy on my sleeves,

parallel being to the one fore me,

and find none of fickle.

I wish to flourish a garden with

tender care of touch and measures,

and exult the beauty of the acquisition.

Admiration, reverence, persistence

Yearning of bestowing flair unto my beloved

Love find me and treat me well

#poems #poetry #writing #lit #mlm #mlm yearning

You don’t make music but the most beautiful thing you’ve made is the way you play with heartstrings like a harp string

You sit by and watch and listen to the woes of someone that loved you

Do you feel the reverberations bouncing off your soul?

Do you?

Voting ended onMar 20

#poems #poetry #writing #lit #mlm #situationships #mlm yearning

Was it ever real? Was it real to you like it was real to me? Where did you put those feelings? Did you find closure? Will you spare some to me?

#poems #poetry #writing #lit #mlm #situationships

Do you remember me in the same way? In side glances and caught breaths? I can still feel your breath on the side of my neck. Nothing happened, yet your hands left imprints on my wrists and shoulder blades. How could they scar so much? How did they scar? Intimacy without sex is a profound confusion. The enticement. The aversion. Do you remember the things you’ve said to me? The things I said to you? Do you remember? Do you remember me? How does it feel? What does it feel like? Do you hate it as much as I do now? Did you always hate it? Tell me how you feel. For once, tell me how you feel.

Tell me how you feel?

(don’t)

(do not)

Voting ended onMar 20

#poetry #writing #lit #poems on tumblr #peculiarstars #do you remember #how does it feel #poems

I want to be good.

I can be good.

I am good.

#do you want too?

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