It’s kind of scary when you think about how almost everything inside you could change so instantaneously and unexpectedly. How the person you think you are and once knew, could suddenly take a 180 degrees turn. How you could wake up one day and decided that you’ve given up on things you once feel strong for and believed in so deeply. How you’ve given up on your goals and resigned to the fact that for someone as mediocre as you, the life you dislike would probably be what you’re fated for. How you think it’s impossible for you to be this negative in your outlook in life, or how you think it’s impossible to ever be tired of yourself, and yet look where you are today, these past weeks, these past months.
I’m not sure if it’s going to be a temporary…side-effect of returning home after having spent the most exciting months of my life, but I know that right now, at this moment, I’m a person I thought I could never become. I’m the person I never knew existed - especially just months ago. Probably the most appalling to me this very second is how even the internet, always playing the double agent of being my lover and best friend, can no longer make me feel better, lol, #what #even #fml
