the chain

[peniina-blog]

it didn’t matter how hard or how many times she scrubbed the back corner booth, the tabletop always remained inexplicably sticky. penina sighed, throwing the rag she had been using onto the table in defeat. the weather was heavy with an unforgiving humidity. condensation ran slowly down the walls despite the fact that the windows were thrown open in a desperate attempt to catch even the slightest breeze. the collar of her faded yellow shirt stuck to the back of her neck, perspiration causing tendrils of her hair to cling to her cheeks, the rest scraped back into a hasty ponytail. god, she hated the summer. the ding of the bell signalling the entrance of a customer caused her to sigh. “ take a seat, and i’ll get you a menu, “ she called, the well-rehearsed line tumbling from her mouth almost as a reflex action. 

[remicoxisafox]

“Gosh..I need to smoke” she thought to herself. Remi was finishing up her shift at buckley placing and organizing the new 15 copies the store just got of the brand new bee gees vinyl ‘you should be dancing / love so right’. This was her busiest shift in awhile, new music always got the store bumping, which excited her because she loves giving music suggestions but also stressed her out to no end. Excusing herself past customers she got to the bee gees bin and began placing the vinyls, she let out a small sigh feeling another customer standing quite close to her “This is the second round of these vinyls and they are bound to sell out just as quick as the first round, do you want one too?” she exclaimed without even turning around to look.

[peniina-blog]

penina had pushed open the door into buckley’s with a vague sense of dread - she knew it was going to be packed, but really, the sheer number of people in the small record store was just excessive. she had specifically waited to pick up the new beegee’s album until just before her shift in the hopes that she would catch the store at a quiet moment. it wasn’t that she particularly disliked crowds as she was attempting to avoid having to deal with people for as long as possible - her eight hour shift would be more than enough social interaction for one day. “ it’s a popular release, “ she pointed out with a shrug, leaning to pluck one of the freshly-laid out vinyl’s from remi’s newly-crafted display. “ i’m guessing you’ve already listened to it? “

[wordsnquotes]

I enjoy controlled loneliness. I like wandering around the city alone. I’m not afraid of coming back to an empty flat and lying down in an empty bed. I’m afraid of having no one to miss, of having no one to love.

Kuba Wojewódzki  (via mczarts)

[peniina-blog]

( zendaya / cisfemale ) did you catch penina fielding the other day? as always, she was being her usual unrelenting & stoic self, despite being twenty years old. i wonder if they’re still a waitress around here. it’s nothing but faint humming, fresh linen and heavy silences when it comes to them, isn’t it ?

hi hello there ! i’m sj and this is my g penina - nina to the regular folk of the world !

nina is a waitress at dorothy’s diner - she worked there part-time the whole way through high school and it just morphed into her full-time job once she had that degree in hand.

higher education literally never even crossed her mind - nina is someone who’s very caught up in the every day details of trying to get by, and honestly doesn’t really feel like she even has time to sit around crafting grand dreams for what her future might be like, because the future is vulnerable, and she doesn’t want her heart getting caught up in something that’s never actually going to happen anyway. 

so in other words penina is a huuuuge pessimist. prepare for the worst and hope for the mediocre kinda gal. 

that doesn’t mean she can’t support other people’s dreams, but she’s not the best person to come to if you want a smile and agree type of answer. she doesn’t fluff the truth, even if it might spare someone’s feelings to embellish a little. she won’t be brutal, but she will be brutally honest. 

she loves to sing - and it’s not that she’s some fantastic hidden superstar, she just loves music in general. learned to play piano on her grandma’s upright and never looked back. if you happen to stroll into the diner when its otherwise empty, you will definitely hear faint humming emanating from some corner. 

it’s just nina and her dad at home, who raised her on his own after her mom took off when she was two - and she always maintains it wasn’t all that traumatic for her given that at two, she barely even knew who the woman was. the person she’s closest to in the whole entire world is her dad - ride or die, and a complete daddy’s girl. 

she knows that her mom is somewhere in new orleans, but she has literally no interest in making any contact with her beyond the birthday card she receives every year. she knows her dad wouldn’t object to her finding out more about her mom, but she also feels like that would be something of a betrayal - to seek out someone who left him in the lurch like that. 

honestly she’s just - very reserved, very guarded, has never actually had someone be interested enough to make her open up so she just... never has?? 

aaaaaand that’s kind of it! i don’t have wanted connections because i’m a bag of trash buT hmu

[designedslut]

she loves hard because she knows how it feels to be loved so little