Techies Do It In the Dark

#brxkenbrxdy #gc #//hi there hiiii

In over your head on what?

Jesus Henry Christ.

You can wait a bit and if it does change you know I will be there right by your side. I won’t let you go through anything else alone, Penny. Okay we can do whatever you want. Video games and Netflix sounds awesome. Who do you want to invite? Val’s missed you loads. It’s going to be like the 12 days of Christmas but the 12 days of yay Penn’s come home let’s have fun.

Thanks Jax. I seriously don't want to. Oh... Dude, I don't even know. Like 90% of the people I know are gone or tied up in so much shit they probably can't. I can't get ahold of Jude, Nina's gone, I can't find Kenny, Icarus is MIA, Jake is laid up and Micki is focused on him. Brianna? I haven't even seen her since I got back, or Haylee. I don't know what's up with Heath, either. It's fucking frustrating having been gone. I need to send out like a bunch of texts now.

#gc #jaxonmiller

Jesus Henry Christ. [Private]

mbarchived1

I know. Jake doesn’t seem to get that, sweets are good for me and for the baby. Fuckin’ moron. Exactly! Glad someone gets it.

Sweets are good for everyone, let's be real here. He's dumb, don't pay attention to him.

#gc #bigbadbrenner

ldarchived1

Thank God! I need a drinking buddy. What’s your poison?

#//this is so old now i'm so sorry #gc #prima lenora

I'm a fan of rum, personally. Dark rum. Whatcha got?

Hospitality || Jacob/Penn IP

No, I didn’t. I thought I could handle this on my own. Micki didn’t need the stress— except she got it anyway, but that’s… That wasn’t my intent. [He looked up at Penn, wanting to hit him out of habit for frustrating him, but he was out of reach.] This isn’t your problem. It’s none of yours. It’s not your responsibility to take care of me.

Yeah. But the person you want to let help is him? [He moved back some, recognizing the look in his eye and not about to give him the opportunity.] Jake, I don't really think you get it. No, it's not our responsibility. It's not Micki's or mine or anybody's but yours. It's not my problem. But I care about you. You're important to me. That makes this important to me. I don't have to help you, but I want to. That's the whole reason I'm here, the reason I went to Pandora's before I came here, the reason I've been researching since I left. Someone I care about is having a problem and I want to understand it.

#notwrightinthemind #gc

ldarchived1

Casually drinking myself into oblivion while I do some paperwork. Anyone care to join me?

In the paperwork? Not so much. The drinking? Why not.

#gc #prima lenora

Hospitality || Jacob/Penn IP

I don’t know. I just know the last time I tried to get help on my own, I ended up freaking out instead and nearly killed myself in my car. I’m not… Handling this very well. [The admission of that killed him, but he knew it was true.] I don’t really know how to respond to that.

Well yeah, because you're a stubborn shit and you tried to do it on your own. Did you let anyone help you? Micki or anyone? [He runs his hands through his hair, stressed already.] No, you're not, but how well were you supposed to be expected to handle it? It's like life has been just shitting on you and won't stop. You made a bad choice, yeah, but it was a viable one. [He waves off that last, deciding to drop the topic of his father] Doesn't matter. Point is, if you feel like you need his help, then you'll get his help. I know that. But it's not your only option. Just because you're not with him doesn't mean you're on your own.

#gc #notwrightinthemind

Jesus Henry Christ.

I wouldn’t lose hope, buddy. I’m sure he still cares. Just give him a little bit of time and see what happens. In the mean time be really happy how excited everyone is to have you back. Oh god, well I’m glad she’s okay. Okay, enough bad stuff then we can focus on throwing you a welcome home party. That should put a smile on that face.

#//jfc jax i missed you ugh cutie #gc #jaxonmiller

I guess. I'll just... wait a bit. Yeah. I'm sure I can wait a bit just fine. If it changes, though, you know that it's your responsibility to eat ice cream and cookies and watch Pokemon with me, right? You know that. Yeah, she's totally fine. Right, yeah. I don't really do party-throwing, man. What goes into that? Can't we just invite over like five people and play video games all night or watch Netflix? That sounds like so much fun right now.

Jesus Henry Christ. [Private]

mbarchived1

Yeah, it would probably be worse if I was at home. Yeah, he’s my favorite too. Exactly! Thank you for understanding your purpose.

Oh, shit… yeah, I am.

I'll try to keep that happening. Happy moms are totally good for babies, you know. That's why it's important for you to eat a lot of cookies.

#bigbadbrenner #gc

Hospitality || Jacob/Penn IP

[Jake watched him at the corner of his eye.] I wish I could say that I was proud of you. I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel. My dad got me help when I was a kid for my bipolar disorder, and I got better when I was living with my aunt. He can help me again, but — I don’t know. It’s just been a long time since I’ve seen him.

#gc #notwrightinthemind #ip

I don't want you to be proud of me, man. Can he, though? I mean, I get that he can get you the help, but you can get the help too, if you want to get the help, then you can get it without him. If you want to let him help you, then you will do that. You do what you decide to do, Jacob, and you always have, and that's a good thing. If you decide you need help, you'll decide how to get it, and you'll get it. [He pauses, sighs, dragging a hand over his face] Not sure that's a bad thing. I know I shouldn't talk shit about your dad, but wow. You cannot possibly take after him.

Hospitality || Jacob/Penn IP

Well, I- I appreciate it. [He laid back down on the bed, starring up at the ceiling, still breathing a little heavily.] It’s alright. At least.. At least I have some warning, I guess.

Glad to help. [Carefully, he moves to a chair, like he's not sure of his welcome but pretty sure it's alright. He sits down, keeping a close eye on him.] Yeah. I would hate for you to just run into him. He's terrible, man. I seriously did not realize I could actually hate a person. I didn't think I had it in me. I was wrong.

Jesus Henry Christ.

I haven’t dude… but I’m sure if you get in touch with him he’ll resurface. You could tell he was crazy about you. I’m sure he’s just been missing you. Oh god, so was it a fall or something? Well still if you need anything or need to go back to see her you can always have my truck. We still need a celebration for your return though.

I sent him a text. I just... I mean, he'll get back to me when he gets back to me. I did fuck off for a month or so, so... Maybe. I mean, he might not care anymore. A month is a long time. Yeah, she sprained her neck. Couldn't drive or anything. Dragged me back home, because somehow, that was a great plan. Back, though, thank god. I don't need to go back to see her. She's fine and I spent a month trapped with her. I do not need to go back and see her. Yeah, we totally do. Something hella fun, please. I haven't had fun in a while.

#gc #jaxonmiller

Hospitality || Jacob/Penn IP

[Jake didn’t fight him over this; his fingers gripped into into Penn’s shirt, and, surprisingly, he listened to him, concentrating on his breathing. He tried to synchronize his with the other boy’s, and, eventually after a few minutes, the elevated beeping began to slow down. He let go of Penn’s shirt immediately after, his head lowering quickly.]…I don’t think I’ve ever stopped a panic attack so quickly before. Thanks, Penn.

[Keeping his breathing even was difficult until the beeping he seemed to be hyper aware of started to slow. He sighed, relaxing finally when Jacob let him go, his hand falling away] I used to get them when I was younger and thought I was about to get caught as a mutant. You're welcome. I'm sorry I set you off, though. I didn't realize...

Jesus Henry Christ.

Are things still going with Jude? No, they got engaged and then a few days later broke up cause of Noah. They fucked off separately and not heard a thing since, so I know as much as you. Oh god I’m so sorry, dude. If there’s anything at all I can do to help out, let me know.

#//me tooooo #//you can thank zzy lol #jaxonmiller #gc

I don't really... know. I haven't heard from him, but I only just got back today, so I dunno. Maybe he'll get back to me. Has he... Has he been around? I mean, like, have you, you know... Seen him at all? Is he doing okay? I see. Well that fucking sucks. Mom's better now. Needed help getting around while her neck healed, but she's doing a lot better. She's fine.

Hospitality || Jacob/Penn IP

[Jake flinched at Penn’s touch, but he did not shrug it off like he normally would have.] Don’t… Don’t tell me to calm down. I haven’t seen my dad since I was eight, and I’ve been a runaway since I was twelve. Then, despite my better judgement, I gave up the most important part of me to save his fucking life and he — I didn’t know a damn thing. No one contacted me. I didn’t know if they— I can’t breathe.

Jake, I'm telling you to calm down because I don't want your heart to give out, not because you don't have the right to freak the fuck out. Come here. [He grabs Jacob's hand and puts it on his chest, keeping his breathing even and forcing him to make eye contact] Breathe like me. Stop thinking about it for a minute, seriously. Focus on the way I'm breathing and copy it. Focus, Jake. This is important.

Hospitality || Jacob/Penn IP

I don’t — I don’t know. I had to take the cure to save him and my sister — I thought they had just killed them afterwards, anyway. I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel about this.

[He took another step forward, frowning and baffled and the rising pace in the beeping making him start to panic. Against his better judgement, he puts one hand on Jacob's shoulder] Me neither. I- Well, obviously, they didn't kill them. Jacob, calm down. Focus on your heart rate. You shouldn't be getting this worked up, I think. Also the nurses are gonna come in here.

Hospitality || Jacob/Penn IP

[Jake sat up almost immediately, ignoring how dizzy the sudden movement made him feel. He clenched his fingers within the sheets of his bed.] You — you what? You saw my — you saw my dad?

[Penn jumped, staring at him when he jerked upright and taking a step forward with his hands out as if to steady him, though he doesn't close enough distance to finish the motion.] Yeah? Is that bad? I didn't even know he was your dad until he told me. Was I not supposed to talk to him?