Trying to Make Something of Myself

Santana Lopez Hudson. 24. Married. “I don't mind living in a man's world, as long as I can be a woman in it.” If you don't know who's blog you're on by now, you should probably just click the home button because you don't deserve to be creeping on my life. And it's a great life, by the way. I'm livin' it up in LA with the hubs and my Callie Doll. Because I'm not down for any kinda shit anymore, I'mma need all you creepers to just keep it cool so I don't have to hurt you. Gracias.

[finnhudson-psu5]

Hey, sometimes she says she wants you to have another baby for her to play with. I just think if we have another girl some day, she’ll get super jealous and mad at us.

I guess I can wake up early tomorrow to make it for my girls again. It’s way better on the weekend because you don’t have to rush through it and can be lazy with it.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

So...what? If we happen to have a girl, you’re not gonna be happy because you think Callie won’t be either? 

Lazy with breakfast. Right. Because that’s what every person wants to be doing in the morning. And I swore we established a mandatory weekend morning sex rule or did we not? 

[finnhudson-psu5]

penn-state-tanalopez replied to your photo : Callie is so excited to give Santana her gifts,…

God I make cute kids.

I hope Callie isn’t pissed one day when we make another.

She was mad Mother’s Day was over today and you two couldn’t have breakfast in bed again.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

Have you met your daughter? 

Well, we could. Who says that has to be an only special holiday kinda thing? 

[penn-state-tanalopez]

TEXT || FINNTANA

Finn: Got it. My fingers will massage any and every where you want them.

Finn: I know you do. Invite her out here, show her how much better California is and she can do fashion stuff here. Or at least for a girls weekend

Santana: I don't know, Finn. She's really busy and stuff. And we're busy too. Things aren't as easy as they used to be.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

TEXT || FINNTANA

Finn: Complaining? Psh what would there be to complain about when I'm in the tub with my sexy wife?

Finn: But the ones with us and Callie are. I'm surprised Tina hasn't moved out here yet, she'd be the best babysitter. Is that bad to say?

Santana: Sore fingers aren't a thing tonight, got it?

SANTANA: Kinda. She's off doing her thing. Her and Mike are like, the power couple of New York or something. I miss her.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

TEXT || FINNTANA

Finn: You better not cause I need to take every chance I get to see you naked and kiss you. The mornings don't count.

Finn: Haha I know. It sort of makes me miss when we were still at penn state and living at our first place, she was so tiny and we would be up all night but all three of us still got to spend all day together being lazy.

Santana: Fine then. Tonight, it's on. And I better not here any complaining.

Santana: Penn state...let's not relive that. Not all those memories are good ones.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

TEXT || FINNTANA

Finn: Are we talking about a bath with me or just one by yourself? I know I could arrange both for you, but one would be a lot more relaxing with someone massaging you.

Finn: I didn't I swear. I turned it off for her to sprinkle the stuff in. She's just mad cause she says that's not really cooking.

Santana: I was planning on taking one by myself but if you're offering up a massage, I ain't gonna say no.

Santana: She's not dumb. If you're bullshitting her, she's gonna call you out on it. Don't forget who's daughter she is.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

TEXT || FINNTANA

Finn: Crap, you're right and now I feel like a bad dad. I just want to be able to do something nice for you. You have school, your internship and come home and have to be mom and wife. Maybe we can have a date night at home.

Finn: It taste like regular, non poisoned food. I only let her sprinkle the mix in and she's mad because she can't sit by the flame.

Santana: Finn, honestly, with all the crap we've got going on, the only thing I wanna do when I come home is soak in a hot bath and go to sleep. Obviously I can't do that but a girl can still dream.

Santana: You better not have had my kid by an open fire, Finn. I will fuck you up.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

TEXT || FINNTANA

Finn: I am not gonna accept that at all. We will one day find a babysitter for Callie that we trust and is like SuperNanny. I don't want a teenager inviting her boyfriend over when we leave to watch her or anyone that'll text the whole time. Then we can go out to dinner and rent a room for an hour. Or you know, car sex like old times.

Finn: Haha we're making tacos, nothing too crazy. She said she has to make something 'mexican' cause her abuela told her so. It's the only thing I really know I can do without messing it up.

Santana: But she's just a baby. We can't just leave her alone with a stranger.

Santana: It's still possible to get food poisoning. You taste it first.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

TEXT || FINNTANA

Finn: We're still young, it's just different because we have a kid. It'd be hard to find someone to watch her and explain why I'm only going out for an hour.

Finn: She was really good. She picked out somethings to 'make you dinner.' Don't worry, I helped and will do all the real cooking, but she's really excited to do this for you.

Santana: I think it's time we come to the conclusion that our sex life is completely trashed. This is a sad, sad day for the world.

Santana: If I get food poisoning from this, Hudson, I'm blaming you.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

TEXT || FINNTANA

Finn: I wish I could sneak up there to see you during breaks, pull you into the janitors closet just like we used to do when you were studying in the library. But don't wanna get you in trouble and am pretty hard to hide haha.

Finn: If it makes your day any better, Callie and I already went food shopping and got everything on your list.

Santana: We're not kids anymore, Finn. Random fuck dates aren't an option anymore.

Santana: Doesn't make it all better but some. Was she good?

[penn-state-tanalopez]

TEXT || FINNTANA

Finn: Hey babe, how's your day going?

Santana: Is that even a question? This internship is kicking my ass.

[finnhudson-psu5]

[finnhudson-psu5]

I just feel bad that I’m brushing too hard or pulling her hair too much. I just need you to show me a couple more times and really pay attention so that I can do a few more styles and she doesn’t have to yell at me. Haha I know, I could put a hat on her and she’d still be the cutest kid in the room. I tried once and she threw it out so, yeah never trying that again, but I want to make sure I get her really ready to bring her to see you at school. I know, babe. I don’t want to make things harder for either of us, especially you. We can wait til we’re really ready, like when you’re finished with school and try to figure it out to have the baby in the off season so I’m home for a few months to help you with everything.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

Just letting you know, you sound like a really big chick right now. Like, for real. You're talking to me about little girl hair and little girl hats and it's totally girly. Let's hope none of your football buddies are reading this or you'll totally get shit for it. I know if I was a barbarian-like man on a football team reading this crap, I would never let you live it down. But we can't just control things like that, Finn. Which is why the condoms are needed. You actually think I like having to stop myself in the middle of getting my mack on to put a condom on you? Let's be real. I'd fuck you bareback all day long but accidents do happen and I don't wanna have to deal with one as big as a baby right now. 

[finnhudson-psu5]

[finnhudson-psu5]

Haha hey you win at a lot of other things, I have to take the titles I can get. She always lets me know that I don’t do her hair like you do. You have to teach me this weekend some more things with her hair cause we want to come visit you this week when you have lunch. I don’t think you want to show our perfect kid off in that weird bun thing that I try and fail at. What? I’d never be smart enough to draw up a plan to get you pregnant. You know when you get your uh, thing and timing and stuff, I don’t. Plus you make me wear condoms almost all the time!

[penn-state-tanalopez]

I think I'm just gonna teach her how to do her own hair since you've obviously got the daddy gene that prevents you from ever doing it right. And you're lucky our kid is cute enough that she can pull off that bun as good as she does. If she was a goofy looking kid, we would have some problems. I know, I just--we couldn't do a baby right now, Finn. We barely have enough time to spend with Cal, another baby would literally kill us. 

[finnhudson-psu5]

[finnhudson-psu5]

Don’t worry, I make sure she knows every day you go to class the reason you have to. She thinks you taking over the world is a lot cooler than football. Plus you’re home before she has to go to bed so that makes her happy. Haha I have a few other title’s, like I can lift her up the highest and on my shoulders. I know you want to wait til after you’re done school, so I won’t try to push you…too much for another till then.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

That's cheating since you're taller than me. I'm sure if I was as tall as a skyscraper, she'd much rather have me boost her up. For some strange reason, I don't believe you. I have a feeling you're concocting some plan in that head of yours to get me pregnant and I don't like it. Don't forget that I have the power to withhold sex from you, Huddy, so you better not pull anything.

[finnhudson-psu5]

[finnhudson-psu5]

I don’t want to have to bride her for her love. I gotta come up with a way to make our days fun without having to do that. She does say I eat Chicken Fingers with her way better than you do. So I totally win when it comes to that. Haha I know that, I just didn’t think she knew that this early in her life. One day we’ll have a boy that’s as handsome as me.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

No don't do that either because with her brilliant mind she'll probably figure out a way to pin this on me and then she'll hate me forever. Just keep doing your dad thing that you do and we'll be good. Alright, alright, you can have the chicken finger eater title and I'll just take the title for everything else. Fair deal. One day. Not today. But one day.

[finnhudson-psu5]

[finnhudson-psu5]

Haha I did not bribe her. I just want to make it up to her for all those times I had to be away for football. You’re right though, but I think she also sees how crazy I am about you. So she gets that from me too. Today some old lady asked her how she’s so pretty and she said ‘cause of my mommy’. I gotta admit, that one bruised my ego.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

Technically, that's still bribing her since she gets all these cool stuff and gets to do whatever she wants. It's bribing, Finn. Don't be jealous that I'm the one in this marriage who's got the stronger genes. Our child is beautiful for the simple fact that she takes after me. Just deal with it because it ain't changing any time soon. 

[finnhudson-psu5]

[finnhudson-psu5]

Psh she doesn’t like you more. I asked her and she said ‘both’. That might have been because I took her out to get chicken fingers and bought her a fake dog, but still, she didn’t pick you right away.

[penn-state-tanalopez]

But I bet if you were to take away all the things you bribed her with, her first and only answer would be 'momma'. She's a mommy's girl through and through and she obviously gets that from you since you still call your mom three times a week.