I'm sorry, I cannot cry for you

Your suffering is yours and yours alone. Indie OC inspired by Judge Eyes as portrayed by Kuroki. Dark themes, slice of life.

[penumbralma]

penumbralma – Low activity, semi-selective blog following the life of the little sister of a now deceased serial killer, bearing the burden of clairvoyance towards the supernatural and the weight of both grief and resentment towards the brothers she never really got to know.

As portrayed by Kuroki || Semi-literate || Judge Eyes + fandomless || OCs + crossovers || Searching for connections and affiliates || Dividers by saradika-graphics.

[penumbralma]

spoilers for s.g.3

The Hide and Seek game in sq.uid g.me 3 would probably awaken something in Mitsuko, if she were to be one of the knife holders.

[nuitdhiverasa]

Nana Komatsu,, more

[nowadayz]

THE WORLD OF KANAKO 渇き。 2014, dir. Tetsuya Nakashima

[goyurim-deactivated20260506]

Lee Jun young as Han Su gang in Brave Citizen (용감한 시민) 2023

[sindorimstation]

nana ❞ (more)

[notmorbid]

mouth.

dialogue prompts from mouth: stories by puloma ghosh.

you've been alone a long time.

____ is always watching you.

you're so lucky. you can be anything.

there is no forever.

it's beautiful, the way you fall.

people weren't always afraid of me.

if i disappeared, would anybody bother to search for me?

we have to accept the logic of the world we were given, and learn to live in it.

you don't smell like anyone else.

pleasure is another form of taking.

i don't live anywhere.

i want to die here.

i did something i shouldn't have last night.

will you tell me something, before you go?

i don't think ____ is coming home.

everything and nothing can look the same.

i have no idea what to do with you.

ghosts are just memories.

i should have been kinder to you.

why are you asking me such american questions?

this house is bad luck.

i thought it was just a story.

it's good to stay careful.

i keep seeing ____ everywhere.

it's been a long time since you've been home.

this place gives me a bad feeling.

don't be afraid. you know me.

you don't have to miss me. i'll stay with you.

everything you try to hold is sharp.

do something. make it stop.

you shouldn't be walking around.

kids like you worry me.

i keep forgetting things.

hurry home. it's getting dark.

i thought we were happy.

don't you ever want to go somewhere else?

loving has many configurations.

what will you do when you run out of _____?

i can drive you wherever you need.

i've tried my best to be like you, but i'm not.

we're happy, right?

what have you done to me?

everyone feels uneasy around a person they can never truly know.

of course it's not true, but isn't it fun?

the best lies are half-truths.

you're not the first person to ask.

i don't have time for your bullshit today.

i've run out of people who take me seriously.

i don't know if 'love' is even the right word.

i thought you'd be stupid enough to come.

be careful with words that aren't yours.

i have the book, if you want to read it.

i don't 'have' to do anything.

don't hate me for this.

i don't do this with anyone.

i'm more comfortable on my own.

you're allowed to be happy.

none of this is real, to begin with.

i didn't even know there was an underground party scene in _____.

i'm too tired and broke to fall in love.

there's nothing worse than being scared alone.

why did you come looking for me?

it's not the same for you, is it?

i can wait until morning to hate myself for this.

you're not human. i don't know what you are.

i don't exist. i can do whatever i want.

i thought you'd tell me everything, eventually.

there's nothing to tell. nothing you'd want to know.

is there a difference between fear and worship?

you brought me to life.

karaoke is when we're most human.

you can't choose the things you'll remember. the important things will find you.

____ doesn't know about you.

what are you afraid of?

you have to be afraid to live.

i'm sorry i never said goodbye.

this house is too big for us.

our planet is really strange.

you heard, then.

things were always fun with you.

good or bad doesn't matter anymore.

you've hardly looked at me all day.

can't you act like you want to be my mother? just for today?

are you listening? have you ever heard me?

you were never mine.

[warxandxplastics]

"I got here by accident. How did you get here?"

The Surgeon looked around. "Ugh, I think I'm supposed to be here." He tilted his head, studying the other with a curious intensity. "By choice. I've calculated enough time on my schedule for this." He looked at his prestine watch before looking back up and extending his hand; "Dr. Remington. Hendrix." He squinted a little. "You can call me Remi. Which is a choice."

"So, tell me," he said, "what does one do when they find themselves somewhere entirely unexpected?"

[penumbralma]

She is hesitant when the hand is extended to her. For some reason, the way he words things, the confidence contained, the way he even looks makes her feel uneasy. Despite that, she accepts his hand with her own, only slightly firm in her shaking.

"Mitsuko..." Her last name, she doesn't know if she should share it – she had gained enough problems due to it as it is. But she does so, anyway, again. "Mitsuko Kuroiwa."

She swallows dry. "It's nice to meet you, doctor." That was the safest way to address him, she thought. It was a choice, he said, to call him by a nickname, and she thought maybe she shouldn't take that choice just yet.

"I suppose you either try to see why you're there or... back out." That last part should've been her safest bet, too. "Someone led me here. But I don’t know what it meant. Should I have met you, maybe? Or, maybe my coworkers were making a cruel joke. A model going to see a doctor such as yourself..."

She shakes her head, lowering it. "Should you have met me? Are you waiting for someone here?"

[penumbralma]

LIKE this for memes! Let me know for which muse if you're a multi!

[atsev]

Daniela Garza for Mirror Palais

[penumbralma]

The flavor of your soul:

lavender

oh moon child, restless sleeper, tell me what it's like to dream? you float along the margins of reality, picking up the pieces of fallen memories to sculpt into your own realm. you are searching, but your tongue is quiet, quiet, quiet. open your mouth and sing my dear, silence only does you good for so long. and here you planted roots in the darkness, where not even the moon can reach your leaves. there is such a thing as being too practical, for you sail your ship on perpetually calm waters, and never have you spotted land. your mind has wings, uncage them! allow yourself to dream, you are not too far gone. there is no such thing! trust in yourself dear.

[ohisms]

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐂𝐔𝐋𝐓 𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐒 . ( a collection of horror - based dialogue prompts . adjust phrasing as necessary . mature themes present . )

you'll never get what you want .

we need to stay together . no 'splitting up' bullshit .

nobody ever prepared me for this .

so you've just been lying to me this entire time ?

there's too much blood , i can't stop it .

this is over when i say it's over .

[ name ] , be careful . i've already lost enough people that i care about .

i never should have trusted you .

this is getting really out of hand , okay ?

i feel like we're not alone .

revenge is the best medicine !

put your head on straight , this isn't over yet .

maybe we should ... y'know , check it out ?

run . run and don't stop .

i thought i saw something ... i - i must be going crazy .

you couldn't pay me to go down there .

the cops are on their way .

would you rather stay here and die ?!

there's no such thing as [ ghosts / demons ] . it's made-up .

you aren't going anywhere .

i'm putting you out of your misery .

i know you think you're untouchable , but they will kill us .

you shouldn't have touched that .

we aren't going to make it out of here , are we ?

why are you following me ?

there has to be a medical kit here , somewhere .

i'll go with you . strength in numbers , right ?

don't move ... a fucking muscle .

fuck , the door is locked from the other side .

don't get ... dead , okay ?

that was the only [ bullet / round / flare ] we had .

did you really think it would be that easy ?

we've come too far , we can't turn around now .

put down the [ weapon ] . please .

come on , help me barricade the door .

[ name ] , is that ... blood ?

haven't you seen a horror movie ? the blonde always dies .

it was you ? YOU did this ?!

you are gonna fucking pay .

i'm going to give you ten seconds . nine , eight ...

i want you to admit what you did .

hey , look at me -- it's not real . it's not real .

do you think they're watching us right now ?

we're in this together . no one gets left behind .

let them go ... please , just let them go .

oh my god , what the hell was that ?!

you know i'm capable of this .

i had to ... i had no choice .

you don't have the guts .

this is fucked up , this is so fucked up .

what we're dealing with isn't even human .

you need to hide . find somewhere & don't come out .

stop ! don't touch that . we don't know what it is .

i've done bad things to good people .

if they catch us , they will kill us .

why are you covered in blood ?

i can't ... i can't feel my -

[ name ] is dead . i saw it happen .

what , you're gonna kill me ? i don't believe you .

there is an evil in you . i see it .

this shit only happens to people in horror movies .

forget about me , just save them .

what's one reason i shouldn't kill you right now ?

you aren't supposed to be here .

please don't . i'm begging you .

are you scared ?

whatever happens , don't let go of my hand .

[ name ] , this isn't you .

well , what the fuck are we supposed to do ?!

get out of my house before i call the cops .

you're going to regret that .

there's that smile ... i'm glad it's the last thing i'll see .

if we make it out of here , tonight will haunt me forever .

[zegalba]

Nana Komatsu for Harper’s Bazaar Japan (2023) Photography: Leslie Zhang

[moved-thcrealheroes]

CUE THE SUDDEN SOUND OF THUNDER RUMBLING outside Hughie's window, his head quickly snapping towards that direction- eyes widening, eyebrows shooting up almost touching his hairline. Clinging onto his phone. He feels like he's in a HORROR MOVIE. He and Mitsuko are the main characters who have to deal with whatever hell is awaiting them outside. Settling on his couch- it's going to be a long night. When his phone lights up to let him know that Mitsuko texted him back- reading her messages, and he could have sworn he ran out of melatonin. Note to self, buy some once this is all over with.

[ TEXT -> MITSUKO ] [ sent ] - Easier said than done. 😥 Also, remind me to buy some once I can leave my apartment. Just in case.

[ TEXT -> MITSUKO ] [ sent ] - I think I would most definitely believe you. I mean... I did do everything you asked me to do, that's got to tell you just how much I trust your words.

[ TEXT -> MITSUKO ] [ sent ] - Oh okay, phew! Well, thank God for that!

[ TEXT -> MITSUKO ] [ sent ] - I promise....

Calls for him ? Someone- what is this someone ? Or is it more of a something that is out there ? When he goes to send another text- it's when it began... the knocking on the door, a whimper muffled... a cry. "Hello-" A broken voice, wobbly and unsettling, is on the other side of his door, he doesn't move- holds his breath for a second. White as a ghost.

[ TEXT -> MITSUKO ] [ sent ] - Someone is here.

[penumbralma]

Mitsuko usually can put up with nights like these; lightning and thunder, rain, encroaching darkness carrying more horrors than it lets on... She was supposed to be a veteran, to be used to the presence of otherworldly things that only lightly traced at her, tugged her in or out of reality...

This was different. This was dire.

And it only worsened now because he cared for that boy from beyond the phone. Of all the moments in her life to care for someone else other than family, why had it been now, when she was most unstable? When the things outside were going haywire? Despite the bad news of no melatonin for the other, she is grateful that the message even arrived, bringing her some comfort.

Hughie was still inside. Alive.

[ TEXT -> Hyuukun ] I'll remind you, I promise. I can buy you some, too.

She catches herself smiling like an idiot as she reads of Hughie's trust towards her. She reads it over and over before she catches wind of it and forces herself to drag her attention at texting him back, keeping him occupied if she could.

The next message makes her skin crawl, she notices the lights flicker as she replies.

[ TEXT -> Hyuukun ] Hughie, don't open the door.

Wait... She rereads the messages she just sent and her heart sinks. Agitated, she stands from her bed, staring at her screen that reads: Hughie, open the door.

"No, that's—" Mitsuko quietly curses at herself. She was so sure texts should've been safe enough and yet...

[ TEXT -> Hyuukun ] Hughie do not.

[ TEXT -> Hyuukun ] The person outside is not to be trusted.

The glitch on the screen shakes her. She hits the phone with her hand.

[ TEXT -> Hyuukun ] Remember what I said before. Follow that. My phone is troubled. Are you still in?

And a knock on the door, furious, but familiar, stops her on her tracks of writing another message. Suddenly, the world drowns, because she knows who it is.

"Imouto..." The voice whispers, distorted and raspy, still familiar. It knocks again. This time, it voices yet another familiar tone, reminiscent of someone else. "Imouto-chan~..."

She feels lightheaded, her defenses down, her thoughts as distorted as the voice outside. She should know better, but... Her first instinct is to run to the door and open. The only anchor stopping her is the open messages app with Hughie's name glowing on it, pulling her back just enough to be able to write again.

[ TEXT -> Hyuukun ] My brother is here.

[ TEXT -> Hyuukun ] Hughie, my dead brother is here. Mitsuru is here. He is at the door.

[ TEXT -> Hyuukun ] I don't want him out there.

[moved-thcrealheroes]

[ TEXT -> MITSUKO ] [ sent ] - Guess we're just a bunch of fuck ups.

[ TEXT -> MITSUKO ] [ sent ] - You're kidding? You've been a fan this entire time? Who would have thought? But hey, I appreciate that.

[ TEXT -> MITSUKO ] [ sent ] - Never thought about it that way, guess I let the fame get to me at some point-, couldn't see clearly in the good I did. That and I was trying to make a better life for myself and my family. The desperation in trying to stay in the team and not get kicked out by some other speedster. Why I did what I did...

[ TEXT -> MITSUKO ] [ sent ] - 😂 Nah nah, you gotta get me a burger now. You made it sound so damn good, but like a greasy burger from one of those hidden gems kind of places. Not from Vought-a-burger, that place is such shit.

[penumbralma]

[ TEXT -> Rejisan ] That's a good way to put it.

[ TEXT -> Rejisan ] Of course! Im just really good at hiding it. My agency doesn't really want us fawning over Supes.

[ TEXT -> Rejisan ] I get it. Desperation. It's something I'm very familiar with, somehow. It makes us erratic, nonsensical. Suddenly, that's all we think about. But you're still a hero, and you can still be a hero.

[ TEXT -> Rejisan ] 😆 Honestly, I could go for some greasy burgers myself. There's this joint close to my home, it really hits the spot. I'll get you a really good one from there. Oh! And fries, we can't miss those. Extra salt or am I going overboard?

[ TEXT -> Rejisan ] Vought-a-burger, though, you've had? You probably guessed but my agency practically prohibited that from us. It's like they don't want us to live – every product is Vought product now, there's no way we'll be able to bypass all of that.

[ TEXT -> Rejisan ] Shit, they'd kill me if they knew I'm even texting you. Screw them, though.

[ TEXT -> Rejisan ] Greasy burgers 🍔 are approaching. I'm on my way, hold on for a bit, yeah?

[speakingparts]

渇き。 The World of Kanako Tetsuya Nakashima, 2014

[ayuppears]

Nanao Arai in Siren (2015)