Too old for my bullshit

I'm dealing with myself. 20yo with disordered eating and really over it.

[aliceinwondercloset]

[matepiedodman-blog]

[mcmyrkytys]

Cute and dAiNtY things caused by eating disorders !!! 😍😭😭💕💕💕💕

Feeling like ur hands are tied together behind ur back when looking at something delicious

Out. Of. Breath. All. The. Time.

W h e n U W a l k i n g

Ur legs are full of ugly bruises

Throwing up from drinking so much water

The envy of looking at ur friends having fun and eating candy without being guilty

If u “get caught” no one is going to care how u feel they only care about if eating and ur weight

Skin peeling of ur face because its so dry

Never getting good pics bc ur hands are shaking so hard all the time

People think that u have cancer

😎❤️❤️❤️❤️

[ojibwa]

[heavyweightheart]

A not-at-all-comprehensive list of possibilities for communicating distress around body image that are not the hurtful & nonsensical “I feel fat”:

I am afraid of taking up space

I feel exposed

I feel unsafe

I don’t feel heard

I feel rejected

I feel like I’m coming out of my skin

I feel the need to escape [my body, this room, this situation]

I don’t want to be here right now

I am experiencing overwhelming shame

I am afraid of not meeting people’s standards

I feel grief/shame that x aspect of my body is stigmatized

I keep hearing other people’s judgments of my body in my head

My judgments of my body are so loud right now

My eating disorder is being so cruel

I’m afraid of my hunger

I feel out of control

I feel that I’ve failed to do the “right” behaviors

I am feeling unable to trust my body

I feel grief, anger, etc.

I need to cry, yell, etc.

I’m afraid I’m unlovable 

I fear that I’m “bad” and my body must be “bad” too

I am angry at/afraid of my body for being the site of my trauma

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[oliviafitmomof3]

[lecheblue-deactivated20140806]

[we-d-i-e-alone]

[vividspark]

[t00nt0wn]

[m41410]

[magicbonesjones]

Rhodotus Palmatus.

[alliescalories]

ack let’s not encourage other people to smoke cigs pls

[ana-mytinydiary]

[theatsymbol-deactivated20210220]

ur lonely cuz u are manipulative and weird its pretty simple

[80sanime]