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being born a woman truly feels like being born with a target on your head, chest and groin. the cards are stacked against you at birth and you’re expected to suck it up and just live like you aren’t scared of being raped everyday, like you aren’t in constant emotional or physical pain and like you don’t mind the stupid fucking jokes people around you make. you are always seen as less than a man, less funny, less hardworking and less intelligent. for what. because you were born. because you were born, you will be seen as a human incubator by the governments that rule our stupid fucking planet. because you were born you will not be believed when you say you’re in pain. because you were born you will be expected to stay quiet and cute and silent in the face of the giant machine that crushes your very soul from the moment you are made to realize you are not like the boys you grew up with. the boys that were your friends until they too are made to realize that they were born ahead. your body will never fully be your own. you will be used and penetrated and you will feel like shit all the time. you will have no fucking bodily autonomy. if you want to get a hysterectomy they’ll always ask you what your husband wants. not you. the man in your life. you will be seen only in relation to the men in your life, not as a real individual with hopes and dreams and stupid fucking aspirations. you’re someone’s sister, mother, daughter or wife. never just someone. and if you ever dare to mention these truths that all women know, you will be burnt at the stake as a result. you’re emotional and too much and seeing things that aren’t there. but trust me when i say that they are. every single woman feels it. i’ve felt it since i was 10 and my mother taught me what to do if a man tried to rape me. my brother never got that talk. i was instilled with fear from the moment i could think. birth control is put on women because ‘it feels better’ without the condom. and the slight headaches and acne men got were too many side effects. so you get to risk cancer and blood clots and suicidal thoughts all so the man gets to have a better time with your body. and you don’t even get to fucking finish. because it’s all centered around him of course! he won’t even remember you were a part of the experience. you are just a hole to him. you are just an object to this entire stupid fucking world.
you were born as less than and that’s your stupid fucking birthright.
There are literally no correct paths to take. There's no way out of it unscathed.
Give in, take the meds, pretend to be okay with it, give men "what they want" and continue? Whore. Stupid bitch. Easy. Slut. Worthless.
Keep your distance, dress "modestly" (even though there is no such thing, another concept to control and degrade women), and be quiet? Prude. Playing hard to get. Virgin idiot. No experience = no attractiveness. Worthless.
Reject men completely, fight the patriarchy, fight for your rights, for your human existence god damn it? Woke feminist. Can't get some so pretends to hate it. Loud tucking bitch. Fridge friend. Worthless.
And the list goes on and on and on. This is done purposefully to always, always, make you feel worthless. Useless. There are no correct paths and so no possible way to actually be worth something ; actually be someone.
It's a game we've lost from the start and they're making us keep going because it's amusing, who will come up with what to try and be respected. It's a giant circus and we're the main show.
psychiatry is just a giant circle jerk of people feeling sorry for themselves and devils shoving drugs down their throats. the people who are deemed as being unfit for society and existence in group settings are sedated into compliance by the disgusting oozing pus filled machine that we have let our society degenerate into. we were never clean and the people that we have become proves this. we are the dirty needles in the gutters and we are the ripped stupid plastic baggies you find in your pocket after a night out. there is no escape from the deep unending void of filth that covers our organs and drapes across our eyes.
being so staunchly anti generative ai while everyone around you is "i used chatgpt" and "i asked grok" and google search is useless and every company is implementing ai and every single celeb is taking ai money and partnering with ai is like... it's so jarring. why can't you see the harm like i can? why are you so lazy? why are we making society this stupid? can we please stop? it's killing people does that not matter to you?
it's kind of astounding how much faith people have in psychiatry nowadays. approximately every 20 years since psychiatry was invented psychiatrists have come out with a new announcement that everything their profession has ever done was accidentally torture but they've totally stopped being morally bankrupt monsters now and have finally found a way to treat psychotic people that isn't torture so we can all trust them forever now.
"oh we're sorry about beating people to death to drive out demons, we've invented a wonderful operation that will cure your problems and can be done by any wandering yahoo with an icepick!"
"oh we're sorry about giving people permanent brain damage, we've invented a wonderful machine that shocks your brain back into working right!"
"oh we're sorry that was also permanent brain damage we've invented some wonderful pills that can act as a less harmful chemical lobotomy!"
"oh those pills made the entire rest of your body stop working sorry we have new ones that won't do that."
"oh we're sorry those new pills don't do jack shit for your brain while also still giving you tardive dyskinesia. we decided to revisit the old electrocution cure and we swear it works for real and doesn't use enough electricity to give you permanent brain damage anymore allegedly."
next up: "if you guys are still listening to us at this point i think we can all finally admit you don't care if we torture psychotic people, so don't even worry about it."
Some of my trauma is literally over 18 years old like it’s legally an adult but it won’t move the fuck out of my head??? Get a job and pay some rent buddy.