honesty.
okay so i’ve been doing a lot of thinking, and i got a couple of new requests over the past few days so i thought it’s only fair that i come clear. from the very beginning when i first started this blog i struggled at staying consistent, i’d make a couple of posts and disappear for a month or so and the cycle was never ending.
for some reason even when i disappeared i kept gaining notes and followers, and although i never really had a chance to talk to any of my followers and make friendships like other blogs do i’m so thankful for all the people who’ve read anything i’ve posted. but that’s not what this post is about.
previously during the time i’d disappear and not post i’d usually get inspired when i received a request and that would prompt me to come back even if the requests were few and far in between, but now i just stare at the requests in my ask box and i have no inspiration and i can’t bring myself to do them.
the biggest problem is this isn’t a writers block or anything of the sort, in fact i’ve been able to complete an entire series for a different group and i’m working on another one, it’s just recently i haven’t been feeling inspired to write for bts. i’m not sure why or what happened to make me feel like this but now i’m caught between a rock and a hard place.
i don’t want to just abandon this blog and it’s making me feel terrible that i’m letting down everyone who requested, but i also don’t want to force myself to do these requests and have them not only be terrible but lead me to burning myself out as well.
i’m not really sure what the future of this blog is. i don’t want to make any hasty decisions and nor do i want to do anything that i’ll be unhappy with. but i wanted to be honest about the situation and why i haven’t completed any of the requests i received.