Peter Parker

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[peternumberone]

muse : Peter Parker fandom : Marvel (MCU, Insomniac’s Spiderman are primary influences, plus headcanons) faceclaim : Tom Holland mobile links : rules , about , verses , headcanons mun : Bas , she/they (they preferred), 29 , CST , @findablog ( sideblog hub that this blog is connected to ) contact : ask box, IMs ( no first ooc interactions here ), disc. ( for friends only ) trigger warnings: This blog will discuss topics of death, PTSD, bullying, hurt, genetic mutation, amnesia, sexual abuse of a child and various other triggers. I will try to tag things as they come up, but these are things you can expect. If it is in any peter parker media it may come up

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[kidovna]

Found family, but it’s just you in the multiverse.

[rosmaryne]

Marvel’s Spider-Man ➤ Main Menu

[rosmaryne]

Marvel’s Spider-Man ➤ Favorite Fast Travel Loading Screens [Remake]

[peternumberone]

ooc: with how the mcu handled peter, no way home had to happen in order to allow spiderman to be his own hero and peter to be his own person

[t-lostinworlds]

TOM HOLLAND Behind the Scenes of Spider-Man: No Way Home

[peternumberone]

“Come on Peter. Come on Spider-Man. Come on Spider-Man. Come on Spider-Man!”   ©

[peternumberone]

dxctoroctavius​:

He hadn’t wanted to bring this up, but it didn’t seem like the young man would pay attention to the difference in what they were saying.

Shaking his head, Otto looked away before asking, “And do you think that is what your aunt wanted? For you to simply survive and not live yourself? Believe me, they are very different things.”

An empty existence compared to one filled with colour and sensation. Listlessness versus purpose. Gods, did Otto know the difference… “I am not asking you to become wholly selfish, dear boy. I am merely suggesting you might spare a thought for your own life once in a while. If not for yourself, then for others.”

At the mention of his aunt, his demeanor changed. It got dark. He got dark. He still wasn’t over it. He still hadn’t fully processed it. So he did not appreciate this man bringing her into this. May was never supposed to be part of it, but then she was, and she was his biggest support, which may be selling Ned and MJ a bit short, but she was May. “I think I know more of what she wanted, than you ever could,” he stated, nearly snapping at him, in a way that was so uncharacteristic of him. And he seemed to catch himself as the words exited his mouth

“Maybe I am living for myself,” he stated, the darkness leaving his chest puffing up a little, because he didn’t want to admit that there was probably truth to what the doctor was saying. “I think I would know, who knows you better than yourself,” he said his voice getting slightly higher as he tried to lighten the situation to make up for what he said without apologizing for his little outburst because he wasn’t necessarily sorry.

He took a deep breath, and it almost seemed like he was trying to swallow down tears. “When I did that last, I got hit by a train and then accused for murder, I can balance it, and I will, its the only option,” he stated matter of factly. Because that whole trip had been him relaxing, he wasn’t supposed to be Spider-Man. And it got him no where. He could not just stop being something that was part of him.

[peternumberone]

ooc: pride icon is here, low effort but its all i got. briar’s amazing dash icons will resume after pride month

[peternumberone]

ooc: i need a peter pride icon... my peter is bi... halp

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐝, 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  you  know  that  dynamic  of  the  emotionally  closed  off  one  &  the  kind  one  they  have  a  soft  spot  for?  yeah,  that’s  the  vibe.  )

said from the lone wolf.

❛ you think you know me, but the truth is, you don’t. ❜

❛ going home isn’t an option anymore. ❜

❛ i’m fine. there’s nothing for you to worry about. ❜ 

❛ do you wish i was different? ❜ 

❛ i just, i don’t want anything bad to happen to you. ❜ 

❛ you deserve better than what you’ve got. ❜

❛ i guess we both lost something we were fond of. ❜ 

❛ i’m not leaving you out here alone. ❜ 

❛ you don’t have to keep me company, i’m fine by myself. ❜ 

❛ coming here to see you is the only place i could go. ❜

❛ i’m afraid of losing you, okay? ❜ 

❛ i know you probably hate me right now, and i get it. ❜

❛ what is with your weird fascination with me? ❜ 

❛ yeah, you keep on telling yourself that bullshit. ❜ 

❛ i didn’t mean to hurt your feelings, i just have a lot on my plate. ❜ 

❛ you’re lucky you got away with only a scratch. ❜ 

❛ if i could be a different person, i promise you, i would be. ❜

❛ people like us don’t get to decide when we’re done. ❜

❛ i’ve never had anything good happen to me when i trusted others. ❜

❛ you won’t survive out there. they tear all good things apart. ❜

❛ i don’t know what’s the truth or what’s a lie anymore. ❜ 

❛ you got guts, i’ll give you that. ❜ 

❛ the more you know, the shorter your life will be. ❜ 

❛ for the first time in years, i felt something that i thought had been lost to me. ❜ 

❛ what you think you’re going through is nothing to what i have been through. ❜ 

said from the soft spot. 

❛ you’re not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜

❛ how is it that you’re never scared? ❜

❛ you think i’m weak because i’m not like you. ❜

❛ you wanted to be left alone, right? ❜ 

❛ how do you make the pain go away? ❜

❛ you shouldn’t smoke, you know. ❜

❛ destroy what is destroying you. ❜

❛ i hope you find the peace you’re searching for. ❜

❛ you know my door is always open to you. ❜

❛ i look at you and my heart breaks because all i see is loneliness. ❜

❛ you’re avoiding the subject and you know it. what are you hiding from me? ❜ 

❛ you’re not at war anymore, you can come home. ❜

❛ it feels like you’ve been avoiding me. ❜

❛ what are you so afraid of? ❜

❛ you shouldn’t be out here by yourself. ❜ 

❛ why do you care? you could have just walked away. ❜ 

❛ i know you. how else do you think i found you so easily? ❜

❛ if it was the other way around, would you have come back for me? ❜ 

❛ i just thought you’d like some company. ❜ 

❛ are you jealous? want me all to yourself, do you? ❜

❛ i knew you had a heart. ❜ 

❛ can you look at me? please? ❜

❛ i don’t think i’ve ever seen you smile. ❜

❛ if you won’t take care of yourself, then who will? ❜

❛ you have something beautiful inside of you. it’s hard for some people to tell, but it’s there. ❜

[soulprompts]

𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭𝐲 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬 𝐩𝐭. 𝟏

i’ve made emotional ones before but also, angst?? bon appetit!

“ i can’t do this alone… “

“ i can’t do this without you. “

“ nothing is worth losing you. “

“ i can’t lose you! not again! “

“ i don’t wanna lose you! “

“ i love you… “

“ i never should’ve dragged you into this. “

“ you’re not alone, [NAME]… you never were. “

“ if something happened to you… that would be because of me. and i can’t have that. “

“ …did you know about this? “ “ this is all my fault… “

“ i/we/you lost… “

“ you won’t win. “ “ this path you’re on… it’s gonna get you killed. you know that, though; don’t you? “

“ i can’t stop. “

“ you would tell me if something was wrong. wouldn’t you? “

“ it’s like you’re not really here; even when you are. “

“ don’t you get it?! if anything happens to you, i… i don’t know what i’d do! “

“ you have no idea how important you are to me, and i’m tired of waiting for you to figure it out, and i sure as hell won’t wait to announce it over your reckless ass’ grave! “

“ no! i’m not leaving without you! “

“ i can’t do this anymore… “

“ you don’t even know me. “

“ what have you done?! “

“ you’re shaking… “

“ i’ve… made some mistakes. “

“ you are nothing to me. “

“ you were never nothing to me… “

“ stop it. enough of this self-sacrificing bullshit! stop acting like you have nobody who loves you! you have me! so no! you don’t get to be a martyr. not today! we can figure out a different plan… “

“ i would’ve done anything for you… “

“ i’d risk everything and anything for you. “

“ i’m not a good person. “

“ please don’t look at me like that… “

“ i believed in you! “

“ we can’t lose… “

“ what?! what am i supposed to do?! please! tell me, what the hell am i supposed to do?! “

“ please, just go… i’m not the kind of person anyone needs to be around right now. “

“ what happened to you? huh? what happened to you to make you this way? “

“ they’re coming for you. right? that’s why you’re pushing me away like an idiot? because you don’t want me getting hurt? “

“ nothing’s going to be as good as it was before. “

“ you lied to me! “

“ i didn’t mean for any of this to happen! “

“ i can’t trust you anymore… “

“ i know it’s selfish. god knows, ever since we met, i’ve been the reason behind every threat and danger that’s come your way. but… i honestly can’t say that i’d change a second of it. “

“ it’s been an honour knowing you. “

“ there’s nobody else i can turn to. only you. “

“ i don’t trust anybody else. not the way i trust you. “

“ we have no choice… “

“ why?! why are you helping me?! “

“ it’s too late. there’s nothing more we can do… “

“ please don’t go… don’t leave me. “

“ you are everything to me. okay? EVERYTHING. i can’t lose you… “

“ you deserve better than this… better than me… “

“ i thought i could give you a better life. instead, i’m the reason it’s gotten worse… i’m so sorry. “

[peternumberone]

dxctoroctavius​:

The doctor listened in silence for a moment, face set stoic and only slightly betraying the thoughts and conclusions whirring in his head. Commendable? Yes, the boy was commendable. But still so driven by his heart more than his head.

“You forget. The people managed before Spider-Man showed up. I am sure they would manage after too. If you are ignoring any little guy, Peter, it is yourself! Particularly if you are indeed catching buildings.” He furrowed his brow. “No wonder you didn’t seem all that fazed by a cantankerous scientist throwing cars at you…” Was now the time for jokes? Probably not. But what Otto had intellect, he lacked in social understanding. “I think, perhaps, that building was your sign, dear boy. You are lucky to have survived, so survive. Don’t wait until something worse happens and you are not so lucky.”

He clenched his jaw, at the words. He didn’t understand. How could he, he didn’t know this world. Sure people managed but they shouldn’t have to. He looked down and then to the doctor, the building wasn’t the worst, well it was probably tied with the train incident, but now did not seem to be the time to bring that. In fact no one really knew all those details. “If I can stop something from happening, if I know something is happening, and I don’t do anything about it, its on me. So I’m going to do what I can to stop it. That includes getting a building off me, Dr. Octavius.” He wanted to give more context, but he refrained. He didn’t know the doctor, he barely revealed what went on to people who did know him. He protected them that way.

He shook his head, it almost was as if his age was showing through. But it was. He was eighteen. He was allowed to be a kid. He had to grow up early on because of his life, which if anything was similar about him and the other Peter’s then perhaps through some for of osmosis or something similar Doctor Octavius understood and knew. “I’ve been surviving a long time, I think I can help others do the same so maybe they can just live.”

[peternumberone]

“Come on Peter. Come on Spider-Man. Come on Spider-Man. Come on Spider-Man!”   ©

[peternumberone]

dxctoroctavius​:

.

He had to commend the boy’s boundless optimism, even though Otto was quite sure that it would one day be used against him. If it hadn’t already. Truth be told, the doctor didn’t know much about this world’s Spider-Man, though he wore his lessons heavily upon his shoulders. Much like Otto’s own Spider-Man, he supposed.

“Doctor Octavius,” Otto corrected Peter firmly. “And I’m afraid such knowledge doesn’t come from intellect but experience. Your loved ones will always be a target, Peter. In my universe, Peter did a much better job of hiding his identity, and yet his enemies still managed to leverage his friends and family. Here? You? The world knows who you are. It’s too late to change that. It’s too late to rescue Spider-Man. Perhaps it would be best to retire the vigilante life before someone gets hurt…”

He gave a nod, “Right, of course, my bad, Doctor.” He looked down, and away from the doctor as he thought about the words that the Doctor told him. And he just could not accept it. He couldn’t. How could he? That meant giving up and Peter Parker did not give up.

It wasn’t too late, he would make it work. He absolutely would make it work, he just had to start thinking outside of the box. “If I retire, there isn’t someone to take my place, and I can’t let that happen. I can’t ignore the little guy,” He said looking back at Doctor Octavius with a determined look.

 “You know,” he said, with a swallow, squaring up being a bit more plucky than before, “I had a building dropped on me, thought I was gonna die, if I can get through that, then its definitely not to late for this.” He said, remembering homecoming and the horrors of what happened that night, and how he had not told anyone everything. He couldn’t.

[peternumberone]

ooc: the thor teaser... looked boring... sorry 😬

[peternumberone]

“Come on Peter. Come on Spider-Man. Come on Spider-Man. Come on Spider-Man!”   ©