hello (again, depending if you saw me in my old accounts) tumblr! my name is beowulf, and i use hy/hym and ey/em pronouns, respectively in preference. i am a xenic boygirl gaybian (who’s also aroace), and i am neurodivergent and nonhuman. yes, i am one of those “scary contradictory queers with weird genders and pronouns” that those exclusionists warn you about, i get it.
this account is mostly about my art and personal talk + mental health stuff. i draw my ocs a lot and rarely draw fanart or participate in art trends, which is not my intent on being here. i wanted to give myself a safe space to share both of my creations and issues, so if you have a problem with that, scram. i also like astronomy (my special interest) and am currently interested in jfashion.
before you see whatever the hell is in here, just know that my stuff might have some talk about bullying, dermatillomania, and maybe even suicidal ideation (both past and present, but mostly in the past), which all will be tagged as their specific tw. i do interact with menhera content so i guess that also should be here. i’m also very sensitive and anxious so please be gentle when interacting.
i am fine with tags and reblogs or whatever but please do not dm me, especially if we don’t know each other, i will most likely be dry if you do so. my social energy is mostly directed to my group of weird kids and english teachers, not some online stranger that i knew for a few seconds. i have low empathy and sympathy, sometimes apathy if i don’t like you. i have no dni, just don’t be a bigot on my blog, okay? more stuff under the cut… please read…
here is some more stuff, basically most are a recap of what i said but more in depth.
what i post:
i mostly make oc art! it has been what i have been doing for about 5 years by now. i have a lot of ocs ranging to normal humans to basically gods, and i cherish them a lot (also why i am still surviving life lol). i also write, mostly character stories but also personal writing as well. i also compose but that’s a rare one. this account is not intended to be an art account, though, as i will also post personal stuff as well. mostly about my day-to-day life and also my struggles. it’s like a diary of some sort.
personal boundaries:
the only people who probably care about my art are like three of my friends, my social used to teach english but teaches social teacher who also happens to be my friend of 3 ish years, and a science teacher named daphcar whom i met through my social teacher and my only source of contact is her email. i’m not that much of a social person when i’m with strangers, and would often not interact in public spaces. i like my conversations one-on-one, as they make me the most comfortable. i give all of my social energy to my friends, and would sometimes act dry if i am uninterested. although you can ask to be my friend, but theres a chance i’ll be dry. do not dm me unless if it’s really important. do not tag my posts as “kin/id/me” or whatever, i really do not care. do not use my personal art (oc art is fine unless stated otherwise). do not steal, trace, copy, use for ai training, or use my art without authorization from me. do not use my art for commercial purposes. art not for usw will be tagged “not for use”.
trigger warnings/heads up:
this blog will contain mentions of mental health, ableism, anxiety attacks, bullying, dermatillomania, sh, suicidal ideation, and like other stuff about my ocs that i will state in the tags. if you do not wish to view anything about these topics, i suggest muting the tags. i am prone to anxiety attacks and will overthink easily. please be gentle when interacting and interact with care. i don’t usually share this side of me to anyone so be nice please.
having anxiety sucks especially with topics of death bc another part of me would literally think “don’t think that it might happen” and it fuels my anxiety even more.
anxiety has been… bad. but i am coping… at least. maybe. like yeah texting your friend asking if they are dead for more than 2 times per day is not normal but my mind likes it and it lowkey helps coping, especially when they answer.
