Good Times Ahead

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[pforpatrickk]

So anyways back to the point, this year yes I feel some sort of emotion. I could t figure out what it was for a long time, until holy ship came along. These new group of friends we found. I have no clue how ducking nice they are. Like none of us felt uncomfortably around him or any of this h0’ids. With is very very rare.

While at the Justin Martin set. Watching him smile at the crowd while djing whatever be fckin wants be at the time puts a giant smile on my face. For 3 hours. Ideally, but whenever you’d like to leave on your own 🙏🏽

It just felt very pure to watch J Mart do what he lov3/ and just take advantage of his platform and invite a handful of djs. That dnb changed my life man hands down

[pforpatrickk]

Idk who reads this. But I’m drunk and I’m gonna not correct this tough draft. So here we go

I’m very aware I’m in a. Noticed-comedown bc of lost holy ship. Like I prepared for how horrible this comedown. This wi@@ be. Lol wasn’t expecting g the typing to be super ducked either but whatever.

Like j was telling my friend. I feel like this wave of emotion. Isn’t the same as the last couple of years. Yea j stated crying heavy while packing y up for the flight j. 4 hours. But I knew and tried to prepare for how harsh this comedown would be.

I will admit..I die go q but overboqre on how Lucy to take & how many days. Don’t want to talk about it bc that’s not the poi y of this post. But damn I wish none of my friends have to go thrh the intensity kg a comedown. Yeah I went thu. Almost told myself to admit myself for being crazy just to feel better. Just a small heads up!!!!!!

BUT BACK TO THE PONT OF THIS POIBT

This year’s holy shit qas absolutely tucking outstanding, not sure why it came lit this way but my speciation was that we’ve all been waiting for this trip for at least a couple years. No lineup. No update. No anythingz figured it’s not gonna be anyone bc of how steep Imagine etc are rn, Io thanks.

But for some reason Justin Martin’s renegade set really changed my outlook on life. The fact that he was smiling and enjoying tf out of his set with no expectations or anything holding him back was very impactful. To me it just shows me that you could always turn back to your roots and appreciate everything going on. Even the small comments you can very with you forever. There’s always room to learn

[pforpatrickk]

My coworker at my PD spot randomly saw me tonight at a bar and gave me high praises on front of my friends lol. Kiddo or not that was really cool for her to do.

[pforpatrickk]

I became a legitimate addict and it’s fuckin scary to think about. Gotta hit rock bottom to realize what you’ve become. Only way from here is up I guess...right?

[pforpatrickk]

This comedown along with the events occurring during got me feeling really depressed and alone

[pforpatrickk]

I have become so mentally fucking tired from the past few months

[pforpatrickk]

Depression + anxiety = incredibly draining on the mind and body

[pforpatrickk]

Just gotta tell yourself that there are people everywhere that are going through the same thing as you are to get through it. You’re never alone

[pforpatrickk]

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Mind and body is definitely not feeling right. Or is out of sync. Need to really detox or something idk

[pforpatrickk]

Comedown speaking. I just want to be around my favorite people 24/7 so I don’t need to feel alone 24/7

[pforpatrickk]

Hi tumblr. Quick update. My depression is back again. And not the “I did so many drugs & drank I miss festival life” depression. It’s the “there’s so much real life shit going on in my life that I’m starting to struggle on my own/midlife crisis” kind of depression that I had before I found Respiratory School. Honestly I still don’t know what to do. Feels like the deepest hole I’ve ever been in. What I do know is that I need to get out of this and work on myself, push myself harder & get out of this. K bye everyone back to being fake happy on twitter.

[pforpatrickk]

I’m lost

[pforpatrickk]

Feel like tonight actually made things feel worse. Probably one of the hardest truths to accept in my life. I got myself in this situation tho so there’s no one to blame but myself

[pforpatrickk]

Lol. Can’t believe my mind pulled this one. Think I️ need to distance myself from everything and find myself this upcoming year. Some enlightenment shit. Or maybe just a friend I️ can openly talk to about these things

[pforpatrickk]

Yup & there’s the end of I­­t

[pforpatrickk]

I️ guess I️ did do all of this to myself. Let’s see how I­­t plays out

[pforpatrickk]

LIB

Really cool hanging out & getting to know the older crew on my own. Shoutout Tung & lejina for letting me stay with them that weekend.