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Dreamers vs Realists

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Why It Never Worked Out

-- Because I was restless and he was a narcissist. Because he wanted to see himself in me, And I wanted to be anything but that. Because he wanted reassurance, And I didn't have it, Didn't need it, And I can't give what I don't have. Because he would always need to ask, And Spontaneity was my middle name. Because he wanted all our stuff in his house in place, And I didn't want to be one of them. Because he wants to be too attached, And I've always been a free spirit. Because he loved too much, And I can't let him love for the both of us.

-Escapist

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Apat na Kapanahunan ng Ating Kasawian

Sapagkat Hindi sapat Ang kulog at kidlat Sa pagsindak At pagkagulat Na sa aki'y Sumiwalat.

Sapagkat Di kailanman Matatangay at malilimutan Ng ilang libong patak--- Ng luha o ulan--- Ang iyong mga sugat Na sa puso ko'y iniwan.

Sapagkat Hindi wasto Ang aking Napagtanto: Tadhana'y mapaglaro, at Katapusan na ito--- Kailangang magpaalam, Hindi na pala tayo.

Sapagkat Ang lungkot At dibdibang poot Na sa aking pagkatao'y Unti-unting Nanunuot: Kaamoy ng kamiseta Na iyong isinuot At kalasa ng halik Ng iyong paglimot.

-Apollonia

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I've always thought that loving someone was like riding a bike. You never completely forget it or unlearn it, no matter how long it has been since you have stopped.

That was the argument I would always use for my internal debates. That part of me never won, but I never bothered to think of the reason why I always lost.

Then it just clicked.

The last time I rode a bike was when I was 8. I have never tried to ride it again not because I forgot how, I was riding it one day when I hit something or it hit me. . . I can't even recall what it was, but I got injured pretty bad, it left more than a physical scar. After that, I was too afraid to try it again.

That was us.

Do you remember how it happened? I don't.

All I recall was it was more destructive than it was constructive. Resentment turned our tongues into sledgehammers while our careless pride and anger-powered minds ran and smashed our glass hearts, until glass turned to pieces and pieces to dust.

We fell out of love and onto reality, inevitably, like rain on concrete.

Every time I tried, we tried, to make it work, something broke. And I have gotten to the point where I don't think I have any more parts left to break.

It had dragged on for too long and fear held our necks in place, cautiously preventing us from taking  a glance back.

I got used to a life that never required me to ride a bike. And you got used to a life that doesn't require me for it to keep going.

-Escapist

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JUST a Dream

I stood where I was even though everyone else ran to their place. I din't know where to go. I swear I knew at that moment I was screwed. Suddenly you were beside me. You smiled like you usually do when you see me. I din't have to say it but I guess you saw the panic and the fear in my eyes. "You'll be fine." You said that like it was the only thing certain in this world. I just smiled weakly in return. You placed your hand on my waist- not in the uncomfortable way- and you led me to take a walk. We weren't usually this touchy but I din't complain. I needed to feel reassured and you made me feel that way. We walked and we talked and I knew people were staring but for the first time, I din't care what other people thought. For the first time, I did what would make me happy. And for the first time in a long time, I was happy.

- P+1B

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"I am going to kiss you senseless. I will render you speechless. Until those pretty little things quiver. Until all they can do is beg me for more. And everyone you will kiss after me, will never feel the same. They will never give you chills. Never make the butterflies inside of you restless. Never make your toes curl. Never make your skin hot. Never make your mind go blank. I am going to kiss you senseless. I will make it your undoing."

-Escapist

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Trust Issues

The truth is, I'm not alone because I'm intolerable. I'm alone because I chose to be. It was my decision, that I chose self preservation over being loved. Because no matter how many times I was hurt before this, I know that when I love, I give my all. When I gave my all, I lost everything. I lost myself. And it terrifies me that my heart is willing to love again, even when it knows the consequences.

-Escapist

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They said the best way to forget about someone is to turn them into literature. But as I finished the hundredth song I wrote about him, about us, I fell more in love than before. Not just with the person he was, but the person I became when we were together.

Escapist

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Summer

Summer will never be the same for me Summer is the lemon scent of your messy short hair It is the awkward smile on your cherry lips It is the simple honesty from your enigmatic lips For me, summer is no longer a season Summer is your memory in my winter heart You are my summer, my blossoming May flower

-Rafael Jude M. Salvador

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I Only Love You

I love you but you do not know and I will never tell for you would just be sad and you might go away because I only love you and you only love him.

-Rafael Jude M. Salvador

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Always You

Today I saw the sky..but I wasn't outside. Today I touched soft lilies but I was just lying on my bed. Today I heard the breeze. It was calm and reassuring, but I never left my room. Today I saw the whole world without leaving my home. It was you. It always have been. You are my home. With you, I already have the world under my touch, under my gaze. I am far richer than anyone. 

-Escapist

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I try to picture me without you but I can't 'Cause we could be immortals

Immortals, Fall Out Boy

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The truth is I have fallen deeply for you and I do not know what to do about this love that’ll never reach you for my frail heart is too scared to break the thin thread that’s connecting us I would rather be suffocated by untold feelings and continue to just be a friend to you than become a girl you used to know

-Iya

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I saw you by the window, you saw me walk by; I never looked back, and I still ask myself why.

Refresh

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Reality Check

I've never told anyone this, but sometimes I'd sing our song over and over. I'd close my eyes and feel every damn word until it's etched in my heart like a chisel to marble. I'd sing but imagine his voice, which I know so well, sing the words. And then I'd cry because each word hit me like a bitch slap to my f*cking heart. Love. Gone. Never. Ever. You. Me. Together. It f*cking hurts. Like getting sucker punched every time but instead of avoiding it like a normal person would, I just stand there and take it. Because I deserved it. Maybe. At least that's what I think. I probably did for being so freaking happy that something had to take me back to earth to get a reality check.

-Escapist

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Only you know the real you, So why let them define you?

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I am sure no one can love me the way you do. But I am more certain no one can hurt me the way you do