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poems and scrawlings by the wimpiest kid on the IP silentbaka

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in the last few months ive really started to enjoy life.. yey

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Can't keep my head in the sand if I'd like my own bespoke bridal business... Let's get inspired in France with my love

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seeing ibby’s nan for the second time has made me think so much about how much i miss mine.

english tea in china cups, floral printed skirts and blouses, pink sponge hair rollers, sneaky squeezes of perfume from antique glass bottles, colourful nail varnish, two-arm hugs, royal blue knitted cardigans and ceramic ornaments (that i’m not supposed to play with, but always did).

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i’m no longer insecure when it comes to love;  i don’t think i’ve ever had the luxury to feel this way and i don’t want anything to ruin this..

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it's two thousand and sixteen

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always

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i haven't physically seen my friends since the festival weekend away (start of september), we haven't actually spoken since the middle of october either which is kinda poopie.. -this is definately the part that no one tells you about when you move away

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graduating from university was cool but missing family and friends isn't. new experiences feat. interesting people

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it's been just over three months now and im realising that moving to london has been the best and worst thing ever lol.. but i'm sailing so it's cool

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don't cry, do not cry..

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i miss writing here so much, but for so many reasons it's not the best place for me to turn to anymore. which is horrible because my heart fucking aches

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i wish I had someone who I could talk to

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i’m invisible upon the tide of your love. you are a storm, and i guess.. i’m the sea. you’d never notice me, small and insignificant beneath your hue

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i didnt even know what a pattern was when i started university, i just knew i enjoyed designing costumes and big dresses…

i’ve made 3 bespoke bridal dresses in under a month..

i can make bespoke clothing as well as historcally accurate clothing.                 my craftsmanship also covers corsetry and costumes, no matter what size or shape a person may be..

i’ve never received or been able to ask for reliable support                                  i’m proud of me, if you don’t care for me, please do not pretend like you do

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i don’t particularly care about being loved widely, i have no want for popularity. however, what i do want is to be loved and cared for deeply..

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sometimes i'm scared to really want things, incase they dissappear

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perfect day-off: tea. eggs (done over easy). crossword puzzle. shower. farmers market. tea. finish crossword puzzle. nap. catching up on TV shows i like. playing with alfie, my kitten. drawing or painting. bath. netflix. decaf tea. sleep.