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[jayjohnshenanigans]

Pretend Nothing's Wrong (Surrounded by Souvenirs) by Jump_Pilot

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[physicistot1868]

Finally finished my first event fic! It's a week late from the prompt week but it's done! I hope I captured the spooky vibes I was going for.

[gamelpar]

jason & damian fic recs

i really love these two together so much so here's some fic recs to prove it

** = fanfics where jason & damian meet in the loa

Destined For Family Life After All by @sohotthateveryonedied

“This is gonna be fine,” Jason says, mostly to himself. “No problem. It’s just…raising a kid. Easy peasy.” It sounded so much simpler when Talia said it. (Takes place in the Death in the Family movie directly after Talia handed baby Damian over to Jason to raise.)

He's Alive (I Didn't Know He'd Died) by Civilized_muppets **

Jason felt like they were forgetting to tell Damian something, that they were sending him into the mouth of the hellhole that was Gotham City without all the information. He didn't think it was a small thing either, he felt like it was something big, something that could make or break Damian's chances of success integrating with the Bats.

The Long Road Home by @beesbiteandwillowrites **

The first time Jason held Damian in his arms, the green abated and he knew he had never loved anyone else so fiercely before. The thing about love is that it is so rarely enough. --- Aka: Jason didn’t come home because Talia threw a baby at him and told him to run.

Across the Sands by Lulu_Rhythm **

Jason Todd wakes up every morning in a desert compound. Trapped. Empty. Alone. He doesn't remember much, but it doesn't matter, because one thing is for certain. He has an infant to protect.

wake up when you're ready (no body, no grave) by artofflorescence **

“Dying means I go somewhere else.” “You are lying to me. I will inform Richard that you are doing this–” “Somewhere safe. That’s all. I get the feeling that I’ve been safe, for just a moment.” (immortal jason)

Safe House by @lurkinglurkerwholurks

The safe house was supposed to be empty. It was not. So Damian rides out a storm with some unexpected company.

Red by @carf-writes **

"On Damian’s fourth birthday, his mother brought him a gift. He had never had a present before.”

cicatrix by @spiritsglade

Red Hood is injured in the field. Robin notices.

no burden that will not float away by @redbelles

Jason, Damian, and the quiet shelter of unexpected family.

Ages 12 & Up by @motleyfam

The real reason that Damian always refuses painkillers is that he cannot swallow a pill.

Fractured Moonlight by @d-xs **

Damian takes in a broken bird.

Bet on it by @lysical

Even Damian could admit that his older siblings occasionally had their uses. — "I need your assistance," Damian said, voice low and tense. "No," Jason replied, and hung up.

sweetness and light by badacts

jason and damian rescue and takes care of a dog

prodigal by @punkrockhades **

Dick liked to think he had a pretty good handle on the whole ‘big brother’ thing by now, even if Tim still saw sleep as optional and Damian still got a little stabby when a hug lasted too long. But then Damian’s other big brother comes to town, mysterious and red-helmeted and oddly familiar, and seems to want nothing to do with the Bats sans Damian. Damian is strangely close-lipped about his other brother's past, but Dick is determined to find out more about the Red Hood - he could always use more little brothers, anyway!

Lost Boys by @galaxymagitech

After Talia throws Jason into the Lazarus Pit, Ra's is furious. So, Talia takes Damian and runs. Damian is curious about the boy who inspired his mother to betray his grandfather—the boy who may just be his brother.

All Grumpy on the Northern Front by @audreycritter

Jason was just trying to follow a lead. But one lead led to another and now he's having the stupidest mistake of a week. At least there might be a silver lining. Who knew the best part of his week would end up being the Demonbird?

Change the End by @autumnhobbit

"I'm sorry, Damian. I'm so sorry," he sobs, and when Damian reaches one of those small, thin hands up towards him he ducks down and carefully curls his hand beneath Damian's head and neck, hides his tears in Damian's messy hair. He can feel the boy's tiny form shake with weak sobs beneath him, and he wishes he could fix this. But he'd never been good at that when his pain-in-the-ass of a family were still alive, and unsurprisingly, he's not gotten any better at it now that they're dead.

To Soothe an Ache by @preciousthingsareprecious

Damian's never had a migraine before. It's a good thing Jason knows how to help.

Jason and the Three Terrors by @cdelphiki **

One moment, Jason was peacefully sleeping, perfectly content with his life with the League of Assassins. Okay, so maybe not content content, but he wasn't unhappy, either. Then Talia woke him up at 2 am, threw three children at him, and told him to get them to America and far away from Ra's al Ghul. What the fuck. The last thing he wanted was to see Bruce. But with three brats relying on him and no Talia, there weren't many options for sanctuary. He just didn't expect the kids to grow on him so much in two short weeks. (jason todd damian wayne & athanasia al ghul & mara al ghul)

oh, just hangin' out by mikkal

Jason doesn't remember agreeing to imitate a dead butterfly, but here he is.

Are We Living In The Darkness (Do We Listen To The Light) by @yuzukimist **

Sometimes, one decision can change everything. (Or: Jason decides to return to Gotham not for revenge, but to give Damian a chance at a better life away from the League of Assassins.)

For a Good Paws by @renecdote

The one where Damian and Jason do some minor illegal things to stop other illegal things from happening. Oh, and rescue some puppies.

031. Knife by @atasteforsuicidal

jason takes a knife for damian

Two Sides by a_silly_gander **

“His name is Jason Todd.” Damian waits for her to explain the significance, or for his mind to tell him. He knows of no great fighter with that name, of no great ally or foe from his lessons with Sensei on League history. "He was the Batman's son. He was Robin." "A brother?" Damian asks. (Or, Damian meets Jason while Talia is taking care of him, post-resurrection but pre-Lazarus pit.)

The Better To See You With by @fishfingersandjellybabies

The wolf comes across a little red riding hood, and Jason realizes that maybe not all was what it seemed with Damian Wayne. (AU in which Jason is temporarily a werewolf)

Lithic paths by Aaren

Sometimes, being a good brother meant listening to your sibling's troubles and offering comfort afterwards as they bared their souls to you. Sometimes though, it meant dragging them kicking and screaming through the mud and stopping ill-advised bear adoptions from being a thing. (Jason and Damian backpacking in Canada.)

Second Death by @hotdadslade

ten years after rhato 25, jason wakes up for the second time in a lazarus pit

Ensemble Performance by lowflyingfruit

Damian has a deep, dark secret he needs kept from Grayson, his father, and most of all Drake, at all costs: he has, quite unwillingly, been volunteered for a part in his school's annual musical. As a grouchy dinosaur. This is now Jason's problem. Or his blackmail opportunity. Whichever.

Bang by @lurkinglurkerwholurks

“I think I have made a tactical error.” Jason’s assumptions staggered, then abruptly took a nosedive. “Robin?” (jason races against a time bomb to protect damian) followed by With a Whimper

Nightmares by @sohotthateveryonedied

Damian is awoken from yet another nightmare about his death, and Jason decides to step up and comfort his stubborn brother.

countdown by @envysparkler

Red Hood and Robin are exploring an abandoned construction site when they come across a bomb with a too-short timer.

Under the Wings of a Garygole by @dragonflyxparodies

Gotham's not all that different from the League. They don't talk about mental health there, either.

dark sarcasm in the classroom by @punkrockhades **

Dick is trying his best to be patient with Damian, but the kid keeps insulting Dick's long-dead little brother. Dick just can't understand why Damian is so callous towards poor Jason's memory, especially since his youngest brother had never even met the second Robin before he died. Turns out Damian might not have met Jason before he died, but after was a different story.

OUR HAPPY TO BE TIME. by @damianbugs

Damian goes to therapy. Jason becomes a big brother and rebuilds some bridges, all in good time.

Solace In the Strangest Place by @fishfingersandjellybabies

“I can’t find him.” Dick Grayson gasped, as soon as Jason accepted the transmission. “Hood – Jay – Robin’s gone.”

Big Brother Big Brother by @bloggerspam **

explores the brotherly relationship between Damian and Jason, tracing all the way back to their days at the LoA. Damian POV, Mute+Pre-pit!Jason.

Don't Let Go by @skalidra

Damian and Jason don't get paired to work together that often, but when they do work together it's always at least semi-hostile, in one way or another. However, that doesn't mean that when there's an accident on one of the missions, Jason's just going to let the brat die. Whatever else they are, they're still family.

Aftermath by Muddell **

The Batcomputer has case files for everything the Batfamily encounters. Everything includes Jason's death.

The Snap by @incorrectbatfam

Prompt: Who would get snapped by Thanos?

Carved Skins by @beesbiteandwillowrites **

“I have done extensive research on the effects of the pit—” “Congratulations,” Jason sneered. “I’m sure your research is far superior compared to my personal experience with being submerged in Ra’s nasty bathwater and living with the effects for years to come. Please go on and tell me again how I have no idea what the limits of my own body are because you are apparently an expert on everything.”

Go Big or Go - No, Not Boom by BleuSarcelle

(Or the one where Jason and Damian willingly decide to be stuck together during a gala and their chilled evening of throwing crab bites on strangers' hair is interrupted by unwanted bombs. Which would be fine, if Damian priorities were the same as Jason's.)

Lost and Found by only2braincellsavailable **

Talia told them to run. So a catatonic Jason brought Damian to the streets he used to know so well.

baby hotline (please hold me close to you) by TheWitchBoy **

"I doubt a revenantial child soldier would be willing to make another child soldier."

Hello Pain, My Old Friend by TimDrakeIsMyPatronus

In which Jason has chronic pain, teaches the youth about Jane Austen, and learns he has something in common with his littlest brother.

Shadows of the Neon Lights by @fishfingersandjellybabies

He didn’t know what was more surprising - that someone else had come after him, or that it was Jason Todd, of all people, trying to stop him from killing.

bad boys bad boys (whatcha gonna dooo) ♫ by @drakefeathers

a Jason and Damian as Batman and Robin AU!! featuring a bunch of graffiti, a rival dynamic duo, and Cat Jason (a cat named Jason).

make a wish (or two) by orphan_account

"You, Damian-whatever-your-middle-name-is, need my help?" (Damian's plans to parent trap Bruce and Talia are anything but foolproof. Jason agrees anyway.)

First Gear by nanami

damian teaches jason to drive

Primary by @nokomiss

Jason stumbles across Damian surrounded by glitter glue, pipe cleaners and just so many primary colors in the midst of a school project gone wrong. Turns out Jason doesn't end up regretting his offer to help out.

Fly By Night by @lysical

Damian is thirteen. Sometimes he even acts like it. "This is an injustice," were the last words Damian had spoken to his father all day.

[prophicc]

study

[ceescedasticity]

A thing fanwriters sometimes do that drives me bananas:

(I'm not going to claim it's objectively wrong, but it drives me bananas.)

Alice and Bob are characters in a series of some kind.

In one episode/chapter/whatever, Alice acts contrary to her usual behavior and kills Bob's hamster for no apparent reason.

Bob responds by screaming at Alice and throwing her phone out the window.

The incident is never referred to again and has no apparent impact on their relationship in future episodes/chapters/whatever.

(In fact this drives me bananas by itself.)

I do not mind fanwriters saying "it made no sense for Alice to do this, it's stupid and completely out of character, I'm going to say it didn't happen".

I do mind when they say this and then condemn Bob on the grounds of him screaming at Alice and throwing her phone.

[ceescedasticity]

The problem with Batfamily fic is that canon is riddled with senseless hamster murder.

[nighthawkes]

I must sleep. Sleep is the mind-healer. Sleep is the big-life that brings total ability to fucking do anything. I will face my bed. I will permit the blankie to pass over me and snores to pass through me. And when sleep has gone past I will turn the outer eye to greet the new morning. When the sleep has gone there will be everything. Energy and will to live will remain.

[the-professor-squid]

What the hell is Jason's Age: Jason's Probable Age Mentally, Physically, and Chronologically

I reread Batman: Under the Hood and Lost Days and, at first, Winick states that Jason:

- Was resurrected after six months of being dead and so was brought back to life sometime in late October or early November (15 years and 8 months old physically (or 14 years and 8 months old when he died, depends on what you believe); about 16 years and 2 months chronologically)

- Then spent one year in coma (about 16 years and 8 months old physically; about 17 years and four months old chronologically)

- Then after waking up from the coma, spent a year homeless (about 17 years and 8 months old physically; about 18 years and 4 months old chronologically),

- until Talia found him and kept him for another year until she tossed him into the Lazarus pit (about 18 years and 8 months old physically; about 19 years and 4 months old chronologically)

- And in a few months he somehow got good enough to take over Gotham in 5 weeks and fight Batman???? (So still 19/20 chronologically and physically but about 16 years old mentally)

I can see why Winick changed his timeline in Lost Days because how

So then in Lost Days:

- He was resurrected after six months (15 years and 8 months old physically; about 16 years and 9 months chronologically)

- In a coma for a undetermined amount of time so probably about a year as in the previous timeline (about 16 years and 8 months physically; about 17 years and 4 months chronologically)

- On the streets for 5 months as stated by Talia in issue 1 (about 17 years and 3 months old physically; about 17 years and 9 months old chronologically)

- Then spends "well over a year" with Talia so I say about 14 to 15 months? And then get dunked in the Lazarus pit (about 18 years and 6 months physically; about 19 years and 2 months chronologically, but only 15 years and 8 months mentally because he doesn't remember anything from between his death and the Lazarus pit

- And so because Batman Annual #25 was retconned by Winick's for Lost Days timeline, and Jason trained for about one year (I think, I'm not very sure how long he trained for), Jason Todd was mentally 16 or 17, physically about 19 and about 20 years old chronologically during the events of Under the Hood

[peigslayers]

obsessed with stories where you can never go home

[peigslayers]

you can never go home because you fell asleep for a thousand years and when you woke up and returned there, your society had changed, your house had fallen and all of your friends were dead. you can never go home because you made a choice and were shattered into pieces and your home was destroyed in your wake. you can never go home because someone took you and changed you against your will and although your home is the same, the person who belonged there is dead. you can never go home because you committed a crime and your family expelled you and even as they extend a hand of reconciliation, you will never forgive them. you can never go home because your home was a person and someone murdered her and now you drift and grieve to the point of insanity. you can never go home because you never knew your sister but she gave you every opportunity you have and now she's dead and your parents see nothing but her in your eyes.

[depsidase]

[oliveden]

"hua cheng is so jealous and possessive -" WRONG. that guy would watch xie lian date someone else and ask xie lian every day what his day was like and how the date was and it would literally kill him (for 19th time) to hear about it but he'd still ask because he likes seeing xie lian be happy.

if hua cheng ever dated anyone else (not that he would) xie lian would 100% arrange for a mysterious accident to happen. xie lian got jealous over ghost fire's beloved and wu ming's beloved and san lang's beloved and hua cheng's beloved despite the fact that it's literally. i have no words. you know what i mean.

[hazzymayy]

F1 au

[bvckbiter]

“is this character good or bad” “is this ship unproblematic or not” “is this arc deserving of redemption or not” girl…

[reineydraws]

changing up my art blog's banner and palette bc jason todd 💖 based on this post!

[queergremlinsstuff]

I was reading reviews of All Systems Red (Book 1 of the Murderbot Diaries book series), and I think lots of people went into this book with a certain *vision* of what it would be. Then we have some people who disliked the book/story; and others who, although they liked it, didn't feel it was "up to the hype".

It made me think, if it's a case of just the book not landing with these people. Or of unmanaged expectations put into it. I went into the story without even *knowing* there *was* a hype. I mean, I literally started the series because of the audiobook narrator. And since the beginning of it, I had the feeling that the real story *wasn't* about the happenings around Murderbot. All of that was background filling for a character development-driven story. And that obviously wasn't going to be "solved" in the first book, since people don't just stop evolving, because one Adventure™️ (or, in this case, job) they had is over.

It might be that before ever getting into audiobooks, my favorite method of entertainment (besides reading) was audio dramas. And I got used to a different kind of pace in storytelling. So maybe that's the reason that listening to this story hit so well with me, because the pace is similar. I finished the first book and instantly had the second start. It felt familiar. To me, it didn't feel at all like "the story ended" in the first book. Or that the first book had a "weak ending", because the first book's objective (as far as I see) was to introduce us to the character and give his journey a beginning. And it did it, while also giving us background characters who are interesting, complex, feel very real, and a nice (surprisingly) action-packed short story.

I don't know where I was going with this. It was just an observation I saw with most reviews that were on the "disliked" or "liked but..." territory.

My actual review on Fable, or past the line if anyone wants to read it.

All Systems Red - Martha Wells (Review)

I will start by admitting I went into this book (and this series) completely blind. I know there's a TV show because some friends were talking about it on Discord, where someone mentioned "the audiobooks are really good, they are narrated by Kevin Free from Welcome to Night Vale". I really wasn't paying attention to the conversation until I read "Kevin Free". And the only thing I took from it was "He has narrated audiobooks, I need to find them ASAP".

I saw that this book was only 3+ some hours long and dived into it. And what a trip!

Kevin does, as always, an extremely good job at voice acting, and the story was a novel experience for me. I don't read much science fiction. I like it well enough in movies and TV shows (even though I don't watch all that many), but sci-fi books just never managed to grip my attention long enough to actually finish any I tried to start. This time though, it really sucked me into it. I honestly had to pause my listening of the second book, to come here update that I had finished the first!

"Murderbot" as the protagonist calls itself, is a very relatable character for me. Every one of its thoughts, its feelings, its perpetual perplexity at the humans' behaviors when they try to include it in their group. Even its aversion to interaction and its tendency to avoid emotional responses and situations it doesn't know, or want, to deal with by burying itself in its preferred entertainment media, and *avoid* everything. It all hit very close to home for me. I know the trope of casting characters with autistic and/or other neurodivergencies traits as non-human is a double-edged sword, but in the case of this book, I think it was well done.

It's a really well-written book, and all the characters are very fleshed out and feel real. Since the audiobook was so short I will guess that the actual book is probably small, so I would absolutely recommend it for people like me, who aren't really used to reading sci-fi, for people who do like sci-fi and read it usually, and for those who are maybe looking for a very cool reading about how it feels sometimes to be autistic in a neurotypical society.

This is also one of the very few books that I found being written in 1st person *adds* to the reader's experience of the story, instead of constantly thinking "that would have been better in 3rd person".

[mara-was-naomi]

‘This is also one of the very few books that I found being written in 1st person *adds* to the reader's experience of the story, instead of constantly thinking "that would have been better in 3rd person".’

Yes, absolutely this. That’s something that doesn’t come across as well in the tv show (I won’t go “the book is better!” but they’re significantly different experiences). The fact that we see everything from Murderbot’s perspective means we don’t know much about the humans at first; we don’t know if they’re to be trusted or relied on, they don’t have individual characteristics or personalities that Murderbot even cares about at first, and it also isn’t judging or evaluating them by human standards - but by how they interact or not with it (sometimes not is preferable).

It still never gets great at knowing human ages, for example. We literally never find out exactly how old most of the characters are even throughout the books. It has access to tons of data but has thrown some of it out or doesn’t care and doesn’t data mine it like the Company would so it just doesn’t know basic things a human would know about other people. It knows what normal data from them is like and when something is wrong just by heart rate and respiration and stuff but it doesn’t always know what facial expressions mean.

And these are things that are impossible to avoid conveying in a different format. If we had it in 3rd person, or especially when we see actors on TV, we as humans interpret a lot of what isn’t told to us - things that Murderbot just doesn’t know or understand itself. I really like that in the book the alienating but sometimes good experience of being, well, not human, a different life form, comes across so clearly.

[queergremlinsstuff]

Artificial Condition, The Murderbot Diaries Book 2 - Martha Wells (Review)

Rate: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ (5 stars)

This should have been called The Experience of Making Friends 😂🖤👏🏻

I loved it. Honestly, given my extensive gushing on the review I wrote earlier for the previous book of this series, I feel this is a bit redundant, but also necessary to emphasize how much of a RELATABLE character Murderbot is.

We see a LOT of personal growth in this book. I do think, now that I have experienced the first two audiobooks, that this series should NOT be judged by its individual books alone, but by the complete series as a whole. This is NOT a series of books where you'll get a rich and super complex story in each book, because The Story (overall) is Murderbot's Journey. And I think fewer people would be disappointed in this series, if they took it a "Each Book Is An Episode" sort of approach to it.

There is a story in each book, like a "monster of the week" situation, that helps Murderbot navigate its own personal journey and the Actual Plot. Or meta plot. Or however people call it.

I personally love this way of storytelling. We have short stories that further the plot while being entertaining, we get lots of character development and it's also easier to digest the whole Story.

I think some people would take more enjoyment reading this series, if it were all one volume and each book were divided as Part I, Part II, and so on. Probably.

[queergremlinsstuff]

Exit Strategy, The Murderbot Diaries Book 4 - Martha Wells (Review)

Rating: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ (5 Stars)

(It's past 3 am and I couldn't stop until I finished, now I desperately need sleep. If I don't make sense, that's the reason why.)

If the last book left me speechless and drowning in too many emotions to make a proper review, this one gripped me by the shoulders and kept me constantly aware and expectant for the next twist.

This was, so far (I think), the most action-packed book of the series. Also the darkest. Lots of angst. Lots of growth. Murderbot evolution is a delightful thing to experience, especially for those of us who identify with this sense of otherness that the character constantly expresses feeling.

It doesn't want to be human, it is content with the way it perceives and interacts with the world. Even though we can see through its decisions on important moments, it doesn't want to actually just watch the world without being a part of it. So far it is very clear that Murderbot *wants* to participate in the world, in society, and interact with humans on its own terms. What it fears is that humans will want to change it, will want it to *be* human, just because it can *look* human. And it definitely has no desire to be human.

It is, again, a very accurate description of the feeling a lot of autistic and other neurodivergent folks have, living in a neurotypical society that wishes for us to be neurotypical. And then admonishes us when we turn reclusive.

This book held a lot more tension and darkness than the other books. And we can see the tone shifting as Murderbot evolves and learns more about the world and itself. It was, again, an incredible journey. And I have to, one more time, recommend Kevin Free's narration of the audiobook (possibly even over the ebook, or physical copy of the book), because the acting and shifts in tone of the reading really help the reader to not just see, but *understand* this amazing saga.

[fellshish]

I don’t know which author needs to hear this right now but even if you never update your wip i would never regret reading it a time of joy is never wasted

[rohirric-hunter]

"Fantasy authors don't know how long a thousand years is!!!!!! Knock a zewo off the end!!!!!!!111!!!1" Did you know that it's never too late to learn whimsy and joy

[rohirric-hunter]

And it's doubly ridiculous when people apply it to Lord of the Rings. Sure, a lot of fantasy does it for the Vibes -- which is a perfectly valid reason to do it that does not invite any criticism actually -- but in LotR there is a specific reason why Gondor has existed for four thousand years and hasn't had an industrial revolution and it's because Tolkien was extremely aware of and actively making a point about the large scale ecological harm brought about by large scale industry and technological progress for the sake of progress. Most of Tolkien's cultures are in a position where they could have kickstarted an industrial revolution whenever, but never did because they value trees and rivers and nature and natural beauty more than the small advantages granted by wide-scale production. And they did keep developing and advancing in some ways. Gondor canonically has a cure for cancer. Like Gondor's medical science is so much more advanced than IRL medical science. They didn't stop developing, they just developed differently and with different values. You know who's having an industrial revolution? Saruman. Discussion questions: what do we think Professor Tolkien's opinion on the industrial revolution is? Do we think that most of his cultures not having had one was perhaps an intentional choice driven by one of the core themes of his work? Are we going to examine at all our own preconceived notions that an industrial revolution is some kind of inevitable natural occurence, like puberty but for society?