Real talk though...
the way I interacted with some people... one person in particular was very... hmm... how do I say this? parasocial? I think the older I got the more I realized how right they were. I was in a very vulnerable spot, lacking the maternal affection that a person needed in order to develop properly. The relationship that I was in at the time was also VERY toxic. There was no real emotional connection that developed from it and as a result I clung onto unhealthy habits and things that were just not for me.
I'm not even sure if they remember me, or if they still post on this website at all. It's been years and I have no clue if they've been keeping an eye on my blog at all. But that doesn't matter. It was a chapter that closed, and will probably remain closed unless they decide to reach out.
