mom:''Your gonna water,right?
me in thoughts: ahhgggg,shurrup,tho your wright,lol,you know the saying, happy mom happy life.simple,lol
me:(silently), johh,aiyehh boss,sorry,not today,its literally thee end of the day,its 6pm, i had plans of spending the whole hour surfing for some thing nice to watch on netflix,sorry buh today the plants aint getting no war(t)err..
thoughts about an hour later: So your really not gonna water knowing your the best self guilt trapper n to add to it you cant lie for nada n lastly those plants gone be dry tommorow when yo mama gon come take a peek,mmhhh,HeKtIk!
me: argues with my thoughts for at least 15min( outloud since i was alone), then we agreed on me jus puting a lil water to make em wet small small(lol sorry the wet part word is wierd,lol).... cool time was jus after 6:45, so an excuse come up," huh!, no that number isnt divisible by 5,lets wait for 55 past,plus its not much its its jus making it wet small small"... 6:55, " why go now,jus wait for 7pm,i mean its jus 5 mins.....
at 7,i go start making wet small small, halfway thru the garden i start guilt trapping myself...
fast forward i ended up watering as i should've from the begin (not an error jus read my begin as begin,ohhkay:) n it took about 45 minutes ( crying imojis ^19)
I am still hurting and i'm not fine,i mean i'm in recovery,i spent th e time after i watered regretting the houur wasted contemplating whether i should water or not,as if it was a choice,ahggg...
BaSiCaLLy MoRaL oF tHe StOrY iSsSsSsSssss! Listen to your motherrr guysss,LISSSSTENNNN!!
I have a lot of personal feelings on this art i jus typed starting with how long it is since i dislike long meh things n thats exactly what this is,lol(not fully tho,jus small small), buh this is long enough already dont wanna waste moree of your time...:)