Just another depressed girl

Girl • 16 • !Tw!

[tobacconist]

vine tarot

by ‘holly sweet’ on redbubble

five feet apart cus theyre not gay

oh my god they were roommates 

i wont hesitate, bitch

THE POWER OF CHRIST COMPELLS YOU

its wednesday my dudes

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a potato flew around my room

i have the power of god AND anime on my side

MY POOP IS COMING

~got a red dress on tonight, dancing in the dark in the pale moonlight~

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(’take on me’ opening notes)

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[yeah-asbestos]

YESS

[mcarcanageek-deactivated2022052]

I NEED TO SEE THE OTHERS 😂

[picotonico]

Me waiting for my parents to go to bed so I can cook smth without being judged 🙂🔫

[picotonico]

Mood

[picotonico]

Diese nervöse Energie, bei der man exakt weiß, das man sie nur durch eine Sache loswerden kann

[skinnyyoudont]

If ur gonna be scrolling tumblr for hours practicing ur self destructive, disordered habits at least put a face mask on hoe drink some water light a candle... shit dude u deserve it ily

[picotonico]

That’s the shit

[picotonico]

!TW!

Hatred

I hate myself.

Not the kind of hatred where you have some days disliking your body and try to hide in big clothes. Not the kind of hatred where you don’t like a trait on yourself or being uncomfortable with your behaviour partially.

It’s the kind of hatred where you can’t even touch yourself, let alone look in the mirror. I can’t stand myself 24/7, the fact that I‘m to weak to change it irritates me even more. I literally can’t touch anything below my boobs because I am so disgusted with what I feel. That’s the kind of hatred I feel.

I hate mirrors.

Not the kind of hatred where you don’t want your friends to make pics of you because you know they’ll definitely not look good. Not the kind of hatred where you look in the mirror and think something along the lines of „Bad hairday“/„Today I should use some make-up“/„Definitely not my day today“…

It’s the kind of hatred where you see yourself in the mirror and immediately start to think about all the things you dislike in what you see. The kind of hatred where you almost tear up, because god damn it’s so exhausting to hate yourself like that. The risk to catch a glimpse of myself in one of them is to high to stand any mirror in my room at all. I tense up every time I see one of them, not wanting to see a picture of myself the rest of the day, being haunted by it. That’s the kind of hatred I feel.

[picotonico]

One of the worst feelings in the world is seeing your best friend flirting with your crush

[larissapanda]

[sad-cold-bitch]

[picotonico]

i need you

[depression-healthy-carrier]

I’m used to being left out, I’m used to being forgotten about, I’m used to being ignored, I’m used to getting the blame, so don’t feel bad if you do any of these things to me. I’ve learned to keep my expectations low. So none of these things hurt anymore

[picotonico]

Just want to faint away

[picotonico]

Es wird immer schlimmer, ich sinke immer tiefer in der Spirale. Ich möchte Menschen davon erzählen, so gerne! Aber wie soll ich mir Hilfe suchen, wenn ich Angst habe, sie zu enttäuschen?

[picotonico]

Mit jedem Wort fühlt man sich unwichtiger. Selbst die Worte und Entscheidungen eines Psychologen ziehen einen runter...

[picotonico]

Ich hasse sie. Sie alle. Sie meinen zu wissen, was mir hilft und was mich runterzieht. Sie haben keine Ahnung! Sie haben verdammt nochmal keine Ahnung! Was bitte gibt ihnen das Recht über mein Leben zu bestimmen? Das Wort “Erziehungsberechtigter”?! Sie sollen mich einfach in Frieden lassen.

[realityoftrauma-deactivated2018]

We’re just children, we shouldn’t be feeling this way. So why do I feel like this.

[picotonico]

You have no idea, how much I hate myself

[picotonico]

Der Scheiß wird immer tiefer