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January 3, 2022

正解なんてわからない。

目先のことだけではなく、長期的に会社のためにと言われても、その決断が正しかったかは誰が、いつわかるのだろうか。将来のことで悩むのであれば、私は目の前の人ときちんと向き合っていきたい。

May 4, 2021

あなたの夢を見た。好きというより、憧れだった人。ずっと片思いしていた人。たまに、あなたは私の夢に出てくる。

叶わなかった恋を思い出させる。あなたはもう結婚してしまったので、連絡するのも…

ね。ダメだよね。

だからあまり連絡しないようにしているの。話したいけど。

そんななか、あなたは夢に出てきた。変わらずのかっこよさで。変わらず輝いていて。ずるいな。やっぱり好きなんだね。

でもね、私気づいたの。あなたが夢に出てくる時って私が弱っている時で、また一歩踏み出そうと思う時で、後押ししてくれるような、そんなメッセージなんだと思う。私はあなたのためにずっと輝く人でいたいから。いつかあなたにまた出会う時があれば、輝いている人でいたいから。あなたに写る私は絶対輝いていたい。

だから、頑張るよ、私。輝く人になるために。

いつもありがとう。

2021年のテーマ

暮らしを整える

October 18, 2020

If I can be be completely honest, I don’t think I have the mental strength to continue. I don’t know how much longer I can last, if I can continue until she returns in January. I don’t know what the process is for you to start the process of finding someone else, but I hope you can start it soon. Because here is my sign that I don’t think I can last any longer.

You have been so kind, and the work we do has been my dream, but depsite it all, despite everything, I cannot feel like I belong. I feel isolated and alone in this large place that keeps moving forward when I don’t want to. When I want to stay here and rest, everyone else just keeps moving, and I can’t keep up. I just can’t. I don’t know if there’s anything that can be done to fill this deep, growing, and painful hole in my chest.

I’ve tried to ask myself why I cannot overcome this feeling of dread and heaviness to move forward, like I’m constantly moving through heavy heavy mud. I know the reason lies within myself and I hope to discover this, and maybe I need help. I cannot find a place to be happy, a place I feel free to be “me.”

#personal

August 8, 2020

あ、納得。今大殺界なんだって。

占いを100%信じるのはよくないかもだけど、

今の気持ちに「理由」みたいなものを付けれてほっとする。

一時的なものだと信じれる。

今はそっと充電タイム。

July 10, 2020

One of those days when I feel physically and mentally drained. I long for a place where I can put everything done and just watch the clouds drift by. What is it that I’m missing? What do I need to do to feel purpose in my life? I don’t want to work and I don’t want to do anything. I want to sit in a house surrounded by green and people. Not lots of people like in a busy city but a community of people I can trust. 田舎みたいなところ。When you talk to people you love, you feel this warmth take over your heart, and I don’t feel that today. I’m cold and combative and sensitive. I withdraw into my own shell, and hurt people in ways I don’t intend to. I lash out when I should just stay quiet. I don’t know what’s wrong. I wish I knew how to fix it. But this is just a phase, one of those monthly bumps. I hope it passes soon. But I return to this image of a faraway place, surrounded by greenery, a farm, a modest home, and people I love. People who give me purpose to live. People who make me laugh.

#personal #W1F

lilpieceofmyworld

Barcelona

#ikitai

July 2, 2019

I thought about it; I even wrote the e-mail, but I couldn’t do it. I just have to wait. I should wait until tomorrow. And if I need to provide a decision by today, then I have to let it go. Remember what you promised to yourself in the beginning. 譲れないものは何だった？そこにはあるの？やりたいことに繋がるの？

When you think about it, the answer should be clear. What are you afraid of. Look out for yourself. Take the path, in which you can envision your happiness.

#personal

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purplebuddhaquotes

Patience is the key, because when the right time comes, it will be very beautiful and totally worth the wait.

(via purplebuddhaquotes)

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by katherinedorrington

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miyuki-arashi

arashianeel

As members grow older, you eat out together less & less. That usually happens to any group.

Sho: No. We just went together yesterday… It’s not like that we need to have something to talk about with each other… We just continued eating in silence like old married couple. #嵐

/Well, not with Arashi. :) Jun even wants it to be a rule that they should be doing that once every 2 months. 🌈

#arashi #i hope this never changes