diabolical narcoleptic

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you desired my attention but denied my affection

Mumford & Sons

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April, deemed the cruel-est month

She has done no wrong

It is Us who perceive her as so

An enemy built

a Common Struggle

We are far more brutal than she

More well-versed in the 

Art of Cruelty.

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death exists not as the opposite but as a part of life

Haruki Murakami 

I started Norwegian Wood about a week ago, as just “break book”. I’m only 9% into it, according to my Kindle. still trying to understand the plot yadayada, but this quote quite stuck w me. 

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He who learns must suffer. And even in our sleep pain that cannot forget falls drop by drop upon the heart, and in our own despair, against our will, comes wisdom to us by the awful grace of God.

Aeschylus

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10:59 pm monday 05/10/21

well. it’s 11 now. and as i’ve sat at this godforsaken desk procrastinating on finishing this polar to cartesian and vice versa math hw, i thought about things that i can do and have been doing consistently. one of those things (the list is very short, i assure u dear reader) is my fascination with poems and quotes (this statement was not a a result of my innate desire to become a manic pixie dream girl/pickme girl/quiRKy girl/not like the other girls girl-- at least, i think i’ve been doing it since before any real outside *read INTERNET* influence). 

so. in order to create this illusion of being put together for myself, i’ve decided that i’m going to find and post a poem/quote every day. the message doesn’t necessarily matter, though i’m sure ill spend more time than i should searching for the “perfect” pack of words to describe whatever aNGsTy teenage emotion i feel is unique to me, as i whine to myself and whoever i decide to earrape about how difficult life is and correlate it to some deep philosophical ideas or whatnot. 

tldr; posting relatable poem/quote every day. enjoy <3

“The World Is Too Much With Us” 

by William Wordsworth (man was practically made to become a writer. cmon. wordsworth?) 

The world is too much with us; late and soon, Getting and spending, we lay waste our powers;— Little we see in Nature that is ours; We have given our hearts away, a sordid boon! This Sea that bares her bosom to the moon; The winds that will be howling at all hours, And are up-gathered now like sleeping flowers; For this, for everything, we are out of tune; It moves us not. Great God! I’d rather be A Pagan suckled in a creed outworn; So might I, standing on this pleasant lea, Have glimpses that would make me less forlorn; Have sight of Proteus rising from the sea; Or hear old Triton blow his wreathèd horn.

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preppy, but make it creamy <3

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single serve vanilla protein cake

recipe by @eattherainbow_za on ig/tiktok

macros

entire cake including icing!

calories: 251 

24.2g protein

19.2g carbs

8g fat

dry ingredients

plain flour (20g)

vanilla whey protein powder (20g)

baking soda (1/4 tsp)

granulated sweetener of choice (15g | erythritol)

salt (1/4 tsp)

wet ingredients

melted coconut oil (5g)

vinegar (1/2 tsp) don’t skip

1/2 tsp vanilla essence

fat free yogurt (33g)

sweetener drops (optional)

1/4 cups water or milk (60 ml) 

directions

add the dry ingredients to a large bowl and combine well.

in a separate bowl, mix the wet ingredients together. 

add the two together and whisk until just combined. 

pour into a cake tin 

bake at 180°C/350°F for 15-18 minutes. 

icing

fat free cottage cheese or low fat cream cheese or greek yogurt (25g)

vanilla whey protein (5g)

liquid/granulated sweetener (optional)

food coloring