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The Universe has a Bad Memory

Hello my sugarplums. Today I will be talking about 1) my manifestation successes 2) how i did it 3) new revelations & concepts to see manifesting through

I manifested: - a new phone (the exact one I wanted) - holiday - all A's in my classes (this one was insane, I had doubts it wouldn't happen lmao) - parents being less strict - people treating me with respect - getting money - being more personable/social - people liking me more - crushes msging me - feeling safe/ feeling calm - passing my driving test easily and quickly - actual confidence and feeling good in my skin What I did: - Told myself it was easy - Realized I am the only one thinking in my head -> Meaning: nobody can dictate or sway my reality unless I let them - I SPOKE IT INTO EXISTENCE! Robotically affirming any chance I got. - Remember thoughts = affirmations (dont overcomplicate it) - Kept affirming in my head no matter what. Great for when you want to self regulate emotions. When I'm mad or angry or upset or anything, instead of focusing on that, I move all of my attention to just saying it over and over again (like a stim). Eventually, the emotion passes, but your awareness has shifted.

Extraaaa Methods:

- Used music to imagine scenarios I wanted (SO GOOD FOR SELF CONCEPT) (For me imagining is better for self concept.)- you DO NOT NEED TO IMPRESS ANYONE, EXCEPT FOR YOU!! if you impress you, the 3d will automatically follow. - I am not a fan of saying things to someone's face or like saying it in the 3d (when it hasnt manifested yet), because for me personally it feels inauthentic. Even though Erik said to do this, I realized this specific part was not for me, as it makes me confused. Soooo, I began to realize it is literally just me and my mind, and I dont have to force the 3d by what I say, or what I do, but only through my mind (only through my thoughts). Especially with religious parents, I didn't want to try to say things I don't ever need to say. New revelations & Concepts - I read this book called the Universe has a Bad Memory So interesting, it really shifted my perspective, and made me understand memory, perspective, perception, suffering etc. through a very neutral, scientific lens. (Let me know if you want a longer, separate post on this...) - I was out with my friend at the mall, and she was noticing things which I never would have looked at or cared about. It really struck me, we were in the same place, at the same time but we had different focuses/ beliefs/ perceptions. Meaning, that you are not anyone else, you have your own mind, your own body, your own perception, you are the one in charge. - I wanted someone to say something specific, and I affirmed for them to say it then, but they didn't so I automatically just forgot. Legit, five hours later, they said it, and even better than I thought they would. Timing does not really matter. I have so much more I want to share with you guys. I have some alchemy tips too, and like slightly weird tricks with manifestation. Lmk what you guys want, that will be my next post. With Love, Meow Girl

descent-of-a-queen

[The Aishi Curse + Very Detailed Headcanons about Ayano]

I’ve always been a big fan of Ayano Aishi’s inability to feel emotions and the Aishi curse. However not a lot of people share that sentiment which I get bc it can be seen as a major plot hole bc an Aishi is framed to feel utterly nothing so it feels strange to see them care, to do something that yields nothing for them.

Like how Ayano felt pity for her father and acting like a perfect and normal girl. Ayano acting normal and fitting in. Which means she can to some extent feel something. Sure, you can argue that she’s doing so to lead an easier life but it contradicts things. She shouldn’t care, she shouldn’t care about those things bc that’s the point. If she didn’t care at all, she wouldn’t be doing all this, she would simply go through the motions, bc she should have no reason to live or do anything. However I still like it and it just needs more touch ups.

I basically made an AU, where it’s more innocent Reverse Harem with basically Ayano fitting the lead heroine role. Having more hobbies, interests, personality, but retains her illness however to some extent she can feel things. Like somethings can evoke something in her. I wanted to flesh her out into a heroine rather than a heartless killer. Oh, btw Ryoba is dead lol and there’s some other major changes.

I won’t be discussing the AU here, this is mostly headcanons to make Ayano in general more “hashtag relatable”. I jest, but it’s basically about odd quirks she’s developed over the years to give her more depth. If you guys wanna know about the AU just say and I’ll share it.

Headcanons:

Ayano feels nothing, so there exists a void in her that she notices and focuses on whenever she is not doing anything. She can’t put it into words but it leaves her more empty than she already is when she’s not doing anything.

Due to this, Ayano does not like doing nothing. Constantly on the move and focusing on different, picking up new hobbies constantly so she isn’t left alone with the void that eats her from the inside.

TL:DR; will literally do anything then be stuck doing nothing.

She is often taken advantage by her peers especially in group projects, bc she’s “helpful”. Since these helpful acts are mostly for her. She doesn’t really mind, but her friends, often Midori take the work and shove it back to the people who ask her.

She uses schedules and planners, organizes everything which makes her seem responsible and meticulous. Often seen as a busybody by her peers; her father, adults, and friends worry about her health when they see her planner.

When there’s the inevitable moment where she’s stuck doing nothing, she will start fidgeting. She’ll mess with anything within reach, tap her shoes, snap her fingers, drum her fingers, basically anything to keep her occupied.

She acts normal. Though she doesn’t pretend to be angry since she finds the task unnecessary and can cause unnecessary rifts in relationships therefore loses all her progress; some people think she’s just very patient and some people find in unnerving how she doesn’t even get annoyed or irritated at literally anything.

She cannot cry, however she can cry if something gets into her eye or if she’s under too much pain. She’ll basically only cry due to physical pain, but nothing emotional.

Ayano blends fairly well into school and in social situations, but she’ll still face things she doesn’t quite understand. She often shrugs them off and adapts in situations, she goes to search about it later. She understands what’s polite and what’s rude but she might say something insensitive, brutally honest, from time to time.

Ayano although cannot feel emotions sadness, anger, disgust, disappointment. It doesn’t mean her body doesn’t have natural reactions and reflexes. Although there’s some minute differences between hers and an average person’s.

Like she has a flight or fight response but fear, panic, shock, etc does not register into her head and expressions. But her mind and body does register that she could be in potential danger and so her protects her. An example would be is if you tried to scare her, if she recognizes you are a danger to her, there’s a chance she will punch you.

Her body still functions as it should, tho she has no emotions. Like if she runs her heart rate will shoot up. A feeling she actually likes. If she does not sleep, her body and mind will function like a person with no sleep.

She’s an adrenaline junkie. You can’t change my mind.

She likes spicy food. The hotter, the better. I mostly say this bc spicy food releases these hormones that make you happy, but really she likes how her body reacts to it. The painful spice that makes her heart race.

Coffee as always gives her that energized feeling.

Ayano is an avid fan of romance from music, books, movies, plays, shows to even historical irl love stories. She absolutely adores them. It’s like an overpowered drug to her, it what’s connects her to her roots as an Aishi. She’s addicted to the feeling of consuming all things romantic.

Smiles will unconsciously grace her lips, the warmth glowing from her cheeks and the fluttering of her heart.

There will literally be moments where she has to stop and start pacing to calm down. She’s trapped in a trance when she gets too into it that she would full on lose her sense of time and ignore her body’s needs.

It’s basically a small taste to what she’ll feel when she meets the one.

Bc of romance she’s basically idealized romance. Already hooked on the idea of getting married and having kids. Having a fairy tale happily ever after. Feeling like what she reads and consumes will be like real life but better.

She doesn’t understand why people feel the need to hide certain emotions. Although Ayano doesn’t feel nor fully understands the complexity of emotions, she’ll try to coax and encourage them to show it to her.

She finds it mesmerizing but also there exist that tiny, miniscule thing inside her that hurts whenever she sees people hiding it.

faiiie

my fav irrational shifting tips

1. type out an entire storytime as if you just shifted

seriously, go into detail about your time there. what did you do, who did u see, as if you were JUST there. like ur about to send this storytime to ur friends. i swear everytime i do this i feel SO capable because i'm speaking about it as an actual experience, not something i'm constantly longing for/out of my reach.

2. act like you've already shifted various times

counter your doubts with it. eg "what if i don't shift tonight?" "ive already shifted before.. what's stopping me now?"

3. be so fucking delusional (this one is important)

as an avid manifestor/loa follower, being delusional is THE way to getting what you want. believe you are a master shifter. believe you are already in your dr. believe you control your reality. believe whatever the fuck you want and say fuck you to the logic that tries to debunk it. your brain doesn't know shit and will believe whatever you tell it, and soon the 3d will follow. and if you have a hard time believing at first(as we all do), fake it till you make it. pretend and persist, it never fails.

as always, take everything i say with a grain of salt. your shifting journey is personal to you and only you.

happy shifting my loves

dividers: @angeliicide

m1ssive

how i hypnotize myself to shift

it's finals season for me, which naturally means i'm doing everything but studying. so, today, when i was taking a study break, i was suddenly struck by an idea: what if i just hypnotized myself to shift? if it works in movies, it might as well work in real life!

i pulled up a hypnosis spiral video, muted it, put on my noise canceling headphones, and just watched it. for 30 minutes, i sat there and did nothing but watch the spiral on my screen, sometimes crossing my eyes, sometimes spacing out, sometimes really focusing on the center, and through it all, i just kept doing shifting robotic affirmations, like "i can shift on command," "i trust in my ability to shift," "i am a master shifter," etc.

the first 15 minutes honestly just flew by as i kept affirming, i thought it'd been at most 5 minutes, but when i checked, triple that time had already passed. around that mark, i started to get really bored, so i just doubled down on my affirmations, still watching my screen ceaselessly.

around 5 minutes later (20 minutes into just watching the hypnosis video on my screen in silence), my brain began to feel muffled? i don't even know how else to describe it, it just sort of began to feel uncomfortable, and then it went really quiet, and all i could hear were my affirmations in my head.

when those 30 minutes were up, i felt like i'd been in such a trance, i got a little bit startled, even. i'm not sure if it's because of the visual stimulus, but it was easier to completely focus on my affirmations without getting distracted or having my thoughts drift, so if you sometimes struggle with focusing on robotic affirming and you have some time to spare, i definitely recommend this! i might start doing it every night before bed when i'm already sleepy :)

happy shifting!!

alpinecherub

To summarize: how to shift + loa + divinity is fake + answer to "why can't I shift" PART 1

When you strip away the quantum buzzwords, shifting is about redefining your sensory data. Right now, your brain is locked onto this reality because its reacting to what your eyes see and what your hands touch. To shift, you have to make your Dr more "real" to your awareness than the room you are currently sitting in.

Pick one specific sensation, just one. Thats the logic between "wr scent" or "script that a song will play when you shift" advices. It could be easy things like lavender, chocolate or your favorite perfume and as for sounds it could be sea waves, phone ringing or like I said , a song.

Force the 3d to match this. As you lie there, tell yourself "the reason I feel this bed under me is because it's my Dr bed." If you hear a car outside, it’s a car outside your Dr house. Youu are reinterpreting your current environment until your brain accepts the new context.

So many of you are done with loa, but usually, that’s because people use it as a magic spell. In reality, its a mental filter. If you wake up and think "dammit, im still here," you have just successfully manifested being here. Wake up and decide "im currently in my dr, but my vision hasn't fully rendered yet. I’m just going about my morning until the 3d catches up." It removes the frantic energy. You arent a seeker anymore, you know this reality is fleeting and temporary.

The biggest irony of shifting is that the more desperate you are to leave, the more you anchor yourself to the reality you’re trying to escape. Desperation is a massive tether to your cr. Think of it like this; if youre trying to fall asleep, and you stare at your eyelids and scream at your brain to SLEEP NOW, you will stay awake all night. Shifting requires that same letting go that falling asleep does.

Youve seen behind the curtain, you know the "one life, then dust" narrative is a scam and once you know that, you can't exactly go back to being a normal person. Treat this reality like a pre rcorded video. If you’re watching a movie and the main character is in jail, you don't panicking thinking you are in jail. You know you're the one sitting in the theater. When you wake up here, look at your walls and think "cute. Nice projection. But I know where I actually am." Do not let the 3d have the final word on your identity.

If you feel anxious version of yourself rising up, check these three things:

- Am I seeking proof? (If yes, you're acting like a mortal, when you're pure awareness and SHOULDN'T hand your power to anyone or anything else.)

- Am I waiting for a shift to happen? (If yes, you're placing the power outside yourself.)

- Am I defining myself by my current surroundings? (If yes, you're letting the 3d tell you youre bounded by this reality's rules instead of the pure awareness).

levitonin

Haven't you had enough of gojo satoru ?

strawberryfloofs

i love the idea of like, a whole group of regressors chillin in headspace with each other! like a daycare room ran by some cgs n lots of activities for all regressors to enjoy! from soft n simple books to more complex ones- ooh and then think of the little arts n crafts tables!! making silly lil animals w googly eyes. anddd storytime in a circle! maybe even singin silly songs together and movie days!! snacktime with cut fruit, macaroni, chimken nuggies, all that stuffs!! I just REALLY wanna play n be tiny with someone else!! its so funnn- might be projectin cuz i didnt ever have playdates BUT IMAGINE!!

puppyplushies

yearning to be in a soft comfy bed or beanbag with my cg … playing with my stim toys while we watch my favorite shows/movies in the background… maybe later when im a little tired we watch slime videos on cg’s phone and i pick out which ones i really like in attempts to persuade my cg to get them hehe… nd then a little later we snuggle up with all my stuffies for a nap… ⭐️

liminalnoa

Pink babyre moodboard

dog-with-a-job

💤curled up in bed with all my blankies and my binkie watching my mobile spin as i fall asleep

oceantoyz

ixilagoonixi

thinking about a caregiver who’s also disabled themself and is able to understand how I feel.

-a caregiver who understands my flare ups are spontaneous, and could last from five minutes to five hours with months or minutes in between the next one

-a caregiver who assures me it’s okay if I choose to use or not use my cane/compression sleeves, but gently reminds my stubborn brain that i’m still their baby either way

-a caregiver who carries/holds me when both my knees flare at the same time, settling me on their hip and tucking my head under their chin, listening to the soothing rhythm of their pulse under my ear

-a caregiver who’s more than willing to turn up the heating/air conditioning if my flare ups are temp/weather based, snuggling with me under heated blankets or sitting by a box fan till my joints feel less numb or stiff.

-a caregiver who lets me (playfully) stick my cold hands/feet on them when we cuddle, or at any point in the day to steal their body heat.

-a caregiver who gently gathers me into their lap and lets me fuss, whispering extra quietly or being silent as they wipe away my tears of overstimulation and frustration, knowing when I need help but that i’m stubbornly not asking for it.

-a caregiver who’s more than willing to make a side dish of one of my few safe foods for me as a backup meal, and is ready to triple check for me that any meat they cooked is safe to consume/isn’t undercooked, or is a vegan substitute.

-a caregiver who understands my paranoias, and is happy to sit outside the shower with me to guard me from monsters.

-a caregiver who’s letting me decorate their cane/crutches/aids and playing nurse for them on lower spoon days, or cuddles with me on days where were both

SAFE FOR WORK INTERACTION ONLY - PRO/COM/DARKSHIP, NSFW, ETC DNI !!!

babaytoru

i feel like little gojo would be very clingy as a result of how he was separated from his parents at a young age…. he never wants to be left alone and will just cling onto his cg nonstop

babaytoru

Hai Ugh ! i cant stand tumblr cropping … ummmmmmmm babay satoru i don’t like these much but Idc 😅 im drawn out i drew a lot before i acc got 2 this .. ill provide better some other time