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Learning the unforced rhythms of Grace

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2 August 2026

What do you really want?

In my 20s, I wanted a husband, four children, be a SAHM. Then, that was my goal in life.

Now, as at today, this point in time, I want my heartache to stop. I want to be with that person.

The process of grieving —

letting and watching your cherished hopes, and dreams burn up into ashes. It seems like nothing is left.

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When the way seems hopeless

When the wait is long, Your will be done

Even in my trouble, even when I'm wronged

Your will be done

[Pre Chorus]

When oceans roar beyond control

I will not drown, I will not drown

When this charted course no longer holds

I will not doubt, You'll lead me out

[Chorus]

Your ways are higher than mine,

So take control

And Your thoughts are greater than mine,

I'm letting go

When I don't understand,

When it's out of my hands

Your will be done

[Verse 2]

When the world is chaos

When the truth is bent, Your will be done

In my failed compassion,

When this heart condemns, Your will be

done

[Chorus]

Your ways are higher than mine,

So take control

And Your thoughts are greater than mine,

I'm letting go

When I don't understand,

When it's out of my hands

Your will be done

When I don't understand

When it's out of my hands, Your will be

done

[Verse 3]

Whether drought or famine,

Whether tears or song, Your will be done

When my days have ended,

Though I've yet to see, Your will be done

Yes, Your will be done

Your will be done

July 31, 2026

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July 31

Skillful Guidance

He guided them by the skillfulness of his hands — Ps 78:72

When you are doubtful as to your course, submit your judgment absolutely to the Spirit of God, and ask Him to shut against you every door but the right one…

Meanwhile keep on as you are, and consider the absence of indication to be the indication of God’s will that you are on His track…As you go down the long corridor, you will find that He has preceded you, and locked many doors which you would fain have entered; but be sure that beyond these there is one which He has left unlocked. Open it and enter, and you will find yourself face to face with a bend of the river of opportunity, broader and deeper than anything you had dared to imagine in your sunniest dreams. Launch forth upon it; it conducts to the open sea.

God guides us, often by circumstances. At one moment the way may seem utterly blocked; and then shortly afterward some trivial incident occurs, which might not seem much to others, but which to the keen eye of faith speaks volumes. Sometimes these things are repeated in various ways, in answer to prayer. They are not haphazard results of chance, but the opening up of circumstances in the direction in which we would walk. And they begin to multiply as we advance toward our goal, just as the lights do as we near a populous town, when darting through the land by night express. —F. B. Meyer

If you go to Him to be guided, He will guide you; but He will not comfort your distrust or half-trust of Him by showing you the chart of all His purposes concerning you. He will show you only into a way where, if you go cheerfully and trustfully forward, He will show you on still farther. —Horace Bushnell

As moves my fragile bark across the storm-swept sea,

Great waves beat o’er her side, as north wind blows;

Deep in the darkness hid lie threat’ning rocks and shoals;

But all of these, and more, my Pilot knows.

Sometimes when dark the night, and every light gone out,

I wonder to what port my frail ship goes;

Still though the night be long, and restless all my hours,

My distant goal, I’m sure, my Pilot knows.

—Thomas Curtis Clark

Streams In The Desert : July 31

When you are doubtful as to your course, submit your judgment absolutely to the Spirit of God, and ask Him to shut against you every door bu

Streams In The Desert - July 31

Public domain content taken from Streams in the Desert by Mrs. Charles Cowman.

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Streams In The Desert - July 16, 2026

Public domain content taken from Streams in the Desert by Mrs. Charles Cowman.

Whatever the Cost

'Because thou hast done this thing, and hast not withheld thy son, thine only son...I will multiply thy seed as the stars of the heaven;...because thou hast obeyed my voice — Gen 22:16-18

And from that day to this, men have been learning that when, at God’s voice, they surrender up to Him the one thing above all else that was dearest to their very hearts, that same thing is returned to them by Him a thousand times over. Abraham gives up his one and only son, at God’s call, and with this disappear all his hopes for the boy’s life and manhood, and for a noble family bearing his name. But the boy is restored, the family becomes as the stars and sands in number, and out of it, in the fullness of time, appears Jesus Christ.

That is just the way God meets every real sacrifice of every child of His. We surrender all and accept poverty; and He sends wealth. We renounce a rich field of service; He sends us a richer one than we had dared to dream of. We give up all our cherished hopes, and die unto self; He sends us the life more abundant, and tingling joy. And the crown of it all is our Jesus Christ. For we can never know the fullness of the life that is in Christ until we have made Abraham’s supreme sacrifice. The earthly founder of the family of Christ must commence by losing himself and his only son, just as the Heavenly Founder of that family did. We cannot be members of that family with the full privileges and joys of membership upon any other basis. —C. G. Trumbull

We sometimes seem to forget that what God takes He takes in fire; and that the only way to the resurrection life and the ascension mount is the way of the garden, the cross, and the grave.

Think not, O soul of man, that Abraham’s was a unique and solitary experience. It is simply a specimen and pattern of God’s dealings with all souls who are prepared to obey Him at whatever cost. After thou hast patiently endured, thou shalt receive the promise. The moment of supreme sacrifice shall be the moment of supreme and rapturous blessing. God’s river, which is full of water, shall burst its banks, and pour upon thee a tide of wealth and grace. There is nothing, indeed, which God will not do for a man who dares to step out upon what seems to be the mist; though as he puts down his foot he finds a rock beneath him. —F. B. Meyer

Streams In The Desert : July 16

And from that day to this, men have been learning that when, at God’s voice, they surrender up to Him the one thing above all else that was

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I thought I had held it lightly with open hands. Only to realise my heart had clung on tighter than I thought.

Thank You for loving me enough to work with me on this.

I submit once again to You.

You love best. You know best.

Thank You

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26 July 2026

“When Israel went out from Egypt, the house of Jacob from a people of strange language, Judah became his sanctuary, Israel his dominion. The sea looked and fled; Jordan turned back. The mountains skipped like rams, the hills like lambs. What ails you, O sea, that you flee? O Jordan, that you turn back? O mountains, that you skip like rams? O hills, like lambs? Tremble, O earth, at the presence of the Lord, at the presence of the God of Jacob, who turns the rock into a pool of water, the flint into a spring of water.”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭114‬:‭1‬-‭8‬ ‭ESV‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/59/psa.114.1-8.ESV

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19 July 2026

Don’t be so quick to comment.

LORD

Please help me to hold my peace.

Please help me to hold my tongue.

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18 July 2026

Foundational thinking lays bare all of our assumptions so that we may discover those assumptions that are false and often lethal. Foundational thinking cares about the difference between truth and falsehood because it cares about good and evil. The ancient maxim still applies: “ The unexamined life is not worth living.” To any serious thinker, and especially to the professing Christian, an unexamined life is not an option.

- R. C. Sproul, The Consequences of Ideas

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Streams In The Desert - July 16, 2026

Public domain content taken from Streams in the Desert by Mrs. Charles Cowman.

Whatever the Cost

'Because thou hast done this thing, and hast not withheld thy son, thine only son...I will multiply thy seed as the stars of the heaven;...because thou hast obeyed my voice — Gen 22:16-18

And from that day to this, men have been learning that when, at God’s voice, they surrender up to Him the one thing above all else that was dearest to their very hearts, that same thing is returned to them by Him a thousand times over. Abraham gives up his one and only son, at God’s call, and with this disappear all his hopes for the boy’s life and manhood, and for a noble family bearing his name. But the boy is restored, the family becomes as the stars and sands in number, and out of it, in the fullness of time, appears Jesus Christ.

That is just the way God meets every real sacrifice of every child of His. We surrender all and accept poverty; and He sends wealth. We renounce a rich field of service; He sends us a richer one than we had dared to dream of. We give up all our cherished hopes, and die unto self; He sends us the life more abundant, and tingling joy. And the crown of it all is our Jesus Christ. For we can never know the fullness of the life that is in Christ until we have made Abraham’s supreme sacrifice. The earthly founder of the family of Christ must commence by losing himself and his only son, just as the Heavenly Founder of that family did. We cannot be members of that family with the full privileges and joys of membership upon any other basis. —C. G. Trumbull

We sometimes seem to forget that what God takes He takes in fire; and that the only way to the resurrection life and the ascension mount is the way of the garden, the cross, and the grave.

Think not, O soul of man, that Abraham’s was a unique and solitary experience. It is simply a specimen and pattern of God’s dealings with all souls who are prepared to obey Him at whatever cost. After thou hast patiently endured, thou shalt receive the promise. The moment of supreme sacrifice shall be the moment of supreme and rapturous blessing. God’s river, which is full of water, shall burst its banks, and pour upon thee a tide of wealth and grace. There is nothing, indeed, which God will not do for a man who dares to step out upon what seems to be the mist; though as he puts down his foot he finds a rock beneath him. —F. B. Meyer

Streams In The Desert : July 16

And from that day to this, men have been learning that when, at God’s voice, they surrender up to Him the one thing above all else that was

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14 July 2026

“Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever!

Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, whom he has redeemed from trouble and gathered in from the lands, from the east and from the west, from the north and from the south.

Some wandered in desert wastes, finding no way to a city to dwell in; hungry and thirsty, their soul fainted within them.

Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress.

He led them by a straight way till they reached a city to dwell in.

Let them thank the Lord for his steadfast love, for his wondrous works to the children of man!

For he satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things.”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭107‬:‭1‬-‭9‬ ‭ESV‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/59/psa.107.1-9.ESV

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11 July 2026

He is always on time. Trust Him.

Waiting is always a test. - Pastor Rick Warren

Romans 8:24-28

“For in this hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience. Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭24‬-‭28‬ ‭ESV‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/59/rom.8.24-28.ESV

“We were given this hope when we were saved. (If we already have something, we don’t need to hope for it. But if we look forward to something we don’t yet have, we must wait patiently and confidently.) And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will. And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭24‬-‭28‬ ‭NLT‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/116/rom.8.24-28.NLT

“All around us we observe a pregnant creation. The difficult times of pain throughout the world are simply birth pangs. But it’s not only around us; it’s within us. The Spirit of God is arousing us within. We’re also feeling the birth pangs. These sterile and barren bodies of ours are yearning for full deliverance. That is why waiting does not diminish us, any more than waiting diminishes a pregnant mother. We are enlarged in the waiting. We, of course, don’t see what is enlarging us. But the longer we wait, the larger we become, and the more joyful our expectancy. Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭22‬-‭28‬ ‭MSG‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/97/rom.8.22-28.MSG

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7 July 2026

“God settles the solitary in a home; he leads out the prisoners to prosperity, but the rebellious dwell in a parched land.”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭68‬:‭6‬ ‭ESV‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/59/psa.68.6.ESV

“From the rising of the sun to its setting, the name of the Lord is to be praised! He gives the barren woman a home, making her the joyous mother of children. Praise the Lord!”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭113‬:‭3‬, ‭9‬ ‭ESV‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/59/psa.113.3-9.ESV

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2 July 2026, 8:56 AM

Remember to bend the knee.

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18 June 2026

Abba Father, please give me resources, and great wealth

That I can be generous with whoever, whatever that You are generous with

Help me to be a good steward of all You have given me

Thank You!

In Jesus’ Name

Amen

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16 June 2026

Thy will be done

In my life

On earth, as it is in heaven.

I hear the sound of the abundance of rain.

Teach me, help me, to be ready to catch it all and more LORD.

Thank You!

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3 June 2026

“But David said to Abishai, “Do not destroy him, for who can put out his hand against the Lord’s anointed and be guiltless?” And David said, “As the Lord lives, the Lord will strike him, or his day will come to die, or he will go down into battle and perish. The Lord forbid that I should put out my hand against the Lord’s anointed. But take now the spear that is at his head and the jar of water, and let us go.””

‭‭1 Samuel‬ ‭26‬:‭9‬-‭11‬ ‭ESV‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/59/1sa.26.9-11.ESV

“So Jesus came out, wearing the crown of thorns and the purple robe. Pilate said to them, “Behold the man!””

‭‭John‬ ‭19‬:‭5‬ ‭ESV‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/59/jhn.19.5.ESV

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30 May 2026

“One of the young men answered, “Behold, I have seen a son of Jesse the Bethlehemite, who is skillful in playing, a man of valor, a man of war, prudent in speech, and a man of good presence, and the Lord is with him.””

‭‭1 Samuel‬ ‭16‬:‭18‬ ‭ESV‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/59/1sa.16.18.ESV