Thank you so much for checking in. I wasn't doing terribly before this break I've been on, if you will, but I'm even better now. I've become more intentional about how I'm spending my time and thinking more about the future I want to cultivate for myself. If I may, I'll use your ask to present a candid glimpse into my life for others who may be interested as well...
Writing fanfiction was once something that took up a considerable portion of my free time because I enjoyed it, and because I wanted to put out stories I felt good about.
With that being said, I was doing a lot of "showing up" in fictional worlds, but I wasn't being as intentional about my own life. A similar pattern extended into my broader social media habits—always scrolling and feeling a false sense of involvement and progress because of my perceived proximity to the exciting and inspiring things I was viewing through a screen.
Art and creativity are everything to me, and there's irrefutable beauty in being able to enjoy and relate to films, TV, the lives of others, etc. In my case, however, there was an imbalance. I've since been finding said balance and learning how to show up in my own life so I can, in turn, be a better writer, observer, and participant in the world around me.
I've been contemplating a potential return to the fanfiction space. Certain themes don't resonate with me anymore, but I'd be happy to move forward and explore those that do.
If you've read this far, you owe it to yourself to create a life you love and respect even if you have to fight through distractions, uncertainty, and the limitations you've placed on yourself in your head. I believe anything is possible if you can envision it and put action behind it. Hold fast to your values and boldly go.
I refuse to be passive about my life. Fear, doubt, and procrastination have already stolen enough from me. I made this account 5 years ago when I was 19, and the quote I've had as my blog title has held up ever since:
Genuine question: why do you only speak about American politics and the bad stuff that happens here, but never the good?
Because what good is really happening? Your president was heavily involved in a child sex ring, ice is murdering and raping innocent people, trump is bombing Iran I mean why would I, when all of this is going on be like, “oh well, at least some good is happening!”