Glow

practicing alcoholic

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i love how my blog is just sad, horny and suicidal

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i hate when people in your life only want to shit talk.

I’ve been feeling down lately and oversharing on my friends only story because idk what else to do lol. i just have a lot and nothing going on at the same time and i just want to go back to school.

So i posted on my story i was gonna go to my local grocery store and pick up some things to make a shirley temple. Then followed up the post with a pinterest aesthetic post of my drink and then me talking about how i’m at a low point right now.

i wake up to a story reply and this chick replies to my second story asking why tf would i go to that grocery store, her ex’s mom works there, and then asks if i have heard from her ex at all.

i don’t talk to DDN at all. He’s a dick, he makes me uncomfortable, and for a long period of time was weirdly obsessed with me. I don’t keep in contact with any of his friends, i have him blocked on everything, i want nothing to do with this guy. I’ve also told her this on multiple different occasions yet she always fucking asks. She’s currently in a new relationship and she still vague posts and talks about DDN. It’s clear she isn’t over him and now is with this new guy and is still obsessing over her ex.

like when she reached out to me a year ago in the peak of her breakup i tried to be a good friend. I was going through my own break up so i understood how she was feeling, i knew the guy and used to be close friends with him so i understood what was going on. I literally drove an hour out to go visit her one day because it sounded like she needed a pick me up. we are both artists so i brought my sketchbook and ipad and said we could hangout and draw together.

nah all Lee wanted to do was talk about DDN. I realized after being there for an hour that she didn’t actually care about being my friend, she just wanted to make DDN jealous through me.

I kept my distance especially after she said she was gonna get back together with him. I reached out once during december because my sister had spotted DDN at the movies with Lee’s old friend so i sent it to her as a joke only to get a whole ass lore dump. Andy and I went out to visit during our winter break which we both regretted and i honestly haven’t spoken to her since.

I muted her on instagram and i’m honestly so close to just blocking her too. Like she’ll tag me in her story about shit related to DDN, i think lee thinks me and DDN dated which NEVER HAPPENED because the shit she’ll tag me in is like “toxic ex” bullshit.

Please never tag me in that shit, i don’t want to be apart of that.

Then the only time she messages me is asking for updates about him. Like i don’t keep up with DDN at all. I don’t even know if he still lives around here.

I literally said to her:

“i don’t keep up with DDN at all. He disrespected me and i blocked him. he doesn’t ever cross my mind and i don’t even want to waste my energy or time on him. like in all seriousness he could die and i would have no idea”

and she just left me on seen.

STOP ASKING ME ABOUT DDN BC BEING REMINDED OF HIS EXISTENCE RUINS MY DAY

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anyone want to talk fnaf 2 movie?

so somehow i’ve been able to stay spoiler free for about 8 months. I originally was going to watch it in theaters when it first released but it was during the middle of my finals and then i was packing up to go home for break. by the time i was settled in and free, it was already out of theaters and all of my friends had seen it already.

awesome.

then i just forgot about it. i stayed so spoiler free i forgot about the movie until today. It was released on netflix so i decided to check it out.

and holy shit it was bad.

The pacing of the movie was horrible and all the different subplots going on sucked. Like in the beginning it seemed like a direct follow up from the first movie. makes sense for a sequel, here’s the main crew a couple months or years later (who knows.)

you then see abby’s school life and how she’s doing. we meet some random ass kid who gets enough screen time where you think he’s gonna be relevant but he’s not. Like why the fuck did he matter??

Then you got michael afton. Idk why i thought he was gonna be hot, hella fucking disappointed to see he was not. like i’m sorry this is the guy that got his little brother killed? like he looks like a loser, i would bully this guy. idk i think if you’re gonna be a dick to your little brother and be this bully character i was expecting u to be hot not some twinky chump. His character sucks, hardcore. Like it bothers me how they wrote him, it bothers me how this entire movie just tells you what’s going on instead of show not tell. like why does everything need to be spelled out. Why couldn’t michael afton have a cooler reveal? He instead shows up in the first 20 minutes and is like “My name is Michael 😛”

You know who was sexy? Henry Emily. Fine asf. I think his character being introduced here makes sense since we are talking about his daughter, i just think the way they went about it sucked. Like idk i would have never had guess that was gonna happen. Like the order of events in this really bothers me. I feel like we jump around a lot, and the concept of time is kind of confusing. Like the science fair. Don’t get why that teacher was such a dick, i feel like the science fair wasn’t that important but whatever. Mike drops abby off and it’s still daylight out, he tells her he’ll be back really quick, goes and visits Henry, they talk for like 2 minutes, and then now it’s night time and he’s at the other freddy location. Like what the fuck dude how much time actually passed. Like why is it so late and what kind of school science fair goes on past 6pm.

Mike and Vanessa i feel like have been dumbed down. Every conversation between them feels stupid. i get that Vanessa has some crazy ass trauma, like she’s been through a lot and i can’t imagine what that’s like. but you would think after you pretty much trauma bond with mike and then you guys continue to stay in eachothers life, even possibly hinting at a relationship, wouldn’t you have opened up a bit more. explain more of what’s going on with your life, what things have been like for you, if there’s any other important information mike and his sister should know about??

Like mike’s decision at the very end makes sense but this all could have probably been avoided if they just spoke more??? Like unpack some shit guys what the fuck.

i also hate how nothing in this movie actually feels scary. there’s no real tension, there’s no actual stakes. i’m not worried for the characters or anything, they all in the end get saved. And whatever happens to vanessa in the end didn’t even phase me. like obviously 3rd movie hint, and then the credit teaser duh. but i’m not even that interested in watching it.

Also like what happened to vanessa in the end?? Like she’s now possessed by the puppet but they also used the music box to put charlotte to sleep. So like, what now, what was all that about??

and also who tf is vanessa supposed to be. Like we saw Baby in the movie, big thing is elizabeth afton (who i’m guessing is also vanessa) gets scooped by baby and the whole remnant thing. then there’s vanessa from security breach that movie vanessa resembles more. So like what the fuck is going on?

i know movie and game lore are different but like isn’t it also technically a retelling of the games… so sorta same lore?? Like im so fucking confused and i need a matpat break down video desperately.

god i miss matpat so much

anyway ass movie leaving me with more questions than answers.

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THE ORIGINAL SIN

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I'm afraid of stupid ass motherfuckers

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there’s a lot of parallels between baptism and my suicide attempt

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i wish i was in marble hornets. like my life would be miserable but Tim Wright would be there so that’s cool

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i think i actually need to die

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when its one of those nights and its so.m bad neither you or your cat can sleep

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there’s so many friendships i wish never ended in my life. i’ve met so many amazing and cool people and now im not even in contact with them.

There’s some friendships that had to end bc they were just not recoverable, then there were some that should have never ended.

Like i think about my friend A all the time. We are still friends, nothing like how we were before though. She had been my best friend since 5th grade. We had been through so much together. we grew up together. Almost every friday we would hangout after school, order pizza, ride scooters around her neighborhood or play video games. In the summer we would have bonfires, in the winter we’d watch movies.

We survived covid together, we literally won the “dynamic duo” award on a discord server back in 2021. Then highschool started and she started dating this guy which had started the shift in our relationship. She only wanted to talk about him, most of the times telling me she hated him or all these bad things about him. And I made the mistake of saying that i didn’t like him bc i wanted the best for her and this guy didn’t seem good enough.

if you don’t like him why stay with him? i didn’t understand it.

we eventually stopped being friends a year into my own relationship. She stopped talking to me and started talking to our mutual friend Sam. Sam was then playing messenger telling me A was saying all this shit behind my back. A was then getting upset that when my ex boyfriend was visiting i didn’t invite her out to do things. It became a mess.

In the end we stopped being friends because of boys and all drama sam stirred up. We became friendly again in our senior year but our relationship was never the same. She was my bestfriend, someone i couldn’t imagine not being in my life, now we barely talk.

i miss her a lot

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pork soda but instead of an ex partner it’s about me and an old friend of mine who was literally my platonic soulmate.

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instead of

“maybe jamaica rum, maybe some jonnie dub”

it’s panning between a dominos box and a papa john’s box bc that’s the two places her parents would order from every friday

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pork soda but instead of an ex partner it’s about me and an old friend of mine who was literally my platonic soulmate.

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i wish my parents were still borderline alcoholics. like why have a liquor cabinet with no booze

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i don’t like how it’s easier for my dad to call me when it’s related to money than calling to say he loves me

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it’s a friday night,and you’re home alone wishing you were back at school

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i had such a good dream. I had just won a nascar race and at the finish line i had been ejected out of my seat and car, flew through another finish line and on the other side was bad bunny. And me and bad bunny were talking and we hugged as he told me he believed in me and that i am capable of anything i put my mind to.

i told him he was my hero (which is news to me. i love bad bunny but i guess subconsciously he’s my hero) and then i had to leave a little later bc i still needed to shower and get ready for tomorrow’s race.

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