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i love how my blog is just sad, horny and suicidal
a little fun fact about me is i have masturbated to the entirety of the weezer blue album
I think only of dying
my daily affirmations š
⢠Nothing in this life matters
⢠You amount to nothing
⢠No one loves you
⢠You will die alone
⢠Your soul holds no value
⢠Your death will be meaningless
i told my therapist that all summer iāve had genuine suicidal thoughts and i told her the only reason im still alive is because of Powder.
she didnāt take me seriously
i had such a horrid vision of my future. if it happens i have no one in my life to take Powder. she would all that would be left of me, and no one would care
god i see so much of myself in Nicole from Letters From Sixteen
maybe therapy on ādaddy daughter dayā was a bad idea
what a waste of an afternoon.
putting my phone on dnd at a movie theater even tho my socials and text messages are drier than a grandmaās pussy
canāt wait for my single dorm! i get to lay in bed butt ass naked and not be worried about someone walking in on me!!
i think my aunt knew i was in the car driving to pick up a bigger canvas and that i was lying that i even started her painting
i hate when people in your life only want to shit talk.
Iāve been feeling down lately and oversharing on my friends only story because idk what else to do lol. i just have a lot and nothing going on at the same time and i just want to go back to school.
So i posted on my story i was gonna go to my local grocery store and pick up some things to make a shirley temple. Then followed up the post with a pinterest aesthetic post of my drink and then me talking about how iām at a low point right now.
i wake up to a story reply and this chick replies to my second story asking why tf would i go to that grocery store, her exās mom works there, and then asks if i have heard from her ex at all.
i donāt talk to DDN at all. Heās a dick, he makes me uncomfortable, and for a long period of time was weirdly obsessed with me. I donāt keep in contact with any of his friends, i have him blocked on everything, i want nothing to do with this guy. Iāve also told her this on multiple different occasions yet she always fucking asks. Sheās currently in a new relationship and she still vague posts and talks about DDN. Itās clear she isnāt over him and now is with this new guy and is still obsessing over her ex.
like when she reached out to me a year ago in the peak of her breakup i tried to be a good friend. I was going through my own break up so i understood how she was feeling, i knew the guy and used to be close friends with him so i understood what was going on. I literally drove an hour out to go visit her one day because it sounded like she needed a pick me up. we are both artists so i brought my sketchbook and ipad and said we could hangout and draw together.
nah all Lee wanted to do was talk about DDN. I realized after being there for an hour that she didnāt actually care about being my friend, she just wanted to make DDN jealous through me.
I kept my distance especially after she said she was gonna get back together with him. I reached out once during december because my sister had spotted DDN at the movies with Leeās old friend so i sent it to her as a joke only to get a whole ass lore dump. Andy and I went out to visit during our winter break which we both regretted and i honestly havenāt spoken to her since.
I muted her on instagram and iām honestly so close to just blocking her too. Like sheāll tag me in her story about shit related to DDN, i think lee thinks me and DDN dated which NEVER HAPPENED because the shit sheāll tag me in is like ātoxic exā bullshit.
Please never tag me in that shit, i donāt want to be apart of that.
Then the only time she messages me is asking for updates about him. Like i donāt keep up with DDN at all. I donāt even know if he still lives around here.
I literally said to her:
āi donāt keep up with DDN at all. He disrespected me and i blocked him. he doesnāt ever cross my mind and i donāt even want to waste my energy or time on him. like in all seriousness he could die and i would have no ideaā
and she just left me on seen.
STOP ASKING ME ABOUT DDN BC BEING REMINDED OF HIS EXISTENCE RUINS MY DAY
anyone want to talk fnaf 2 movie?
so somehow iāve been able to stay spoiler free for about 8 months. I originally was going to watch it in theaters when it first released but it was during the middle of my finals and then i was packing up to go home for break. by the time i was settled in and free, it was already out of theaters and all of my friends had seen it already.
awesome.
then i just forgot about it. i stayed so spoiler free i forgot about the movie until today. It was released on netflix so i decided to check it out.
and holy shit it was bad.
The pacing of the movie was horrible and all the different subplots going on sucked. Like in the beginning it seemed like a direct follow up from the first movie. makes sense for a sequel, hereās the main crew a couple months or years later (who knows.)
you then see abbyās school life and how sheās doing. we meet some random ass kid who gets enough screen time where you think heās gonna be relevant but heās not. Like why the fuck did he matter??
Then you got michael afton. Idk why i thought he was gonna be hot, hella fucking disappointed to see he was not. like iām sorry this is the guy that got his little brother killed? like he looks like a loser, i would bully this guy. idk i think if youāre gonna be a dick to your little brother and be this bully character i was expecting u to be hot not some twinky chump. His character sucks, hardcore. Like it bothers me how they wrote him, it bothers me how this entire movie just tells you whatās going on instead of show not tell. like why does everything need to be spelled out. Why couldnāt michael afton have a cooler reveal? He instead shows up in the first 20 minutes and is like āMy name is Michael šā
You know who was sexy? Henry Emily. Fine asf. I think his character being introduced here makes sense since we are talking about his daughter, i just think the way they went about it sucked. Like idk i would have never had guess that was gonna happen. Like the order of events in this really bothers me. I feel like we jump around a lot, and the concept of time is kind of confusing. Like the science fair. Donāt get why that teacher was such a dick, i feel like the science fair wasnāt that important but whatever. Mike drops abby off and itās still daylight out, he tells her heāll be back really quick, goes and visits Henry, they talk for like 2 minutes, and then now itās night time and heās at the other freddy location. Like what the fuck dude how much time actually passed. Like why is it so late and what kind of school science fair goes on past 6pm.
Mike and Vanessa i feel like have been dumbed down. Every conversation between them feels stupid. i get that Vanessa has some crazy ass trauma, like sheās been through a lot and i canāt imagine what thatās like. but you would think after you pretty much trauma bond with mike and then you guys continue to stay in eachothers life, even possibly hinting at a relationship, wouldnāt you have opened up a bit more. explain more of whatās going on with your life, what things have been like for you, if thereās any other important information mike and his sister should know about??
Like mikeās decision at the very end makes sense but this all could have probably been avoided if they just spoke more??? Like unpack some shit guys what the fuck.
i also hate how nothing in this movie actually feels scary. thereās no real tension, thereās no actual stakes. iām not worried for the characters or anything, they all in the end get saved. And whatever happens to vanessa in the end didnāt even phase me. like obviously 3rd movie hint, and then the credit teaser duh. but iām not even that interested in watching it.
Also like what happened to vanessa in the end?? Like sheās now possessed by the puppet but they also used the music box to put charlotte to sleep. So like, what now, what was all that about??
and also who tf is vanessa supposed to be. Like we saw Baby in the movie, big thing is elizabeth afton (who iām guessing is also vanessa) gets scooped by baby and the whole remnant thing. then thereās vanessa from security breach that movie vanessa resembles more. So like what the fuck is going on?ļæ¼
i know movie and game lore are different but like isnāt it also technically a retelling of the games⦠so sorta same lore?? Like im so fucking confused and i need a matpat break down video desperately.
god i miss matpat so much
anyway ass movie leaving me with more questions than answers.
THE ORIGINAL SIN
I'm afraid of stupid ass motherfuckers
thereās a lot of parallels between baptism and my suicide attempt