The idea that people have to be diagnosed first for mental illness to be taken seriously is so cruel. Imagine a cancer patient hearing, "snap out of it" or "it's all in your head" or "you're acting so dramatic" for showing symptoms before get diagnosed. We don't brush it off for physical illness, then why do the same when it comes to mental illness? Yes, it's true that just having symptoms doesn't mean someone actually has cancer. But at the same time, it also doesn't mean they don't have it. Nothing is certain before diagnosis.
And I'm writing this from a country where people don't go to a doctor until they are dying. Most of the time, the reason is poverty. I lost my father because his illness had been diagnosed very late. He endured for a long time alone and only decided to go to the doctor when he couldn't bear it anymore. And here people think seeing psychiatrist for mental illness is a luxury because... well, you can guess the reason. I heard my friend saying (who is a university graduate with a science background) "depression isn't real", what can you expect from other people?
Actually people don't even take physical health seriously here. I remember having hemoglobin count 7 point something (I can't recall the exact figure but it was 7 point something) and yet the doctor didn't prescribe me any sort of supplements or at least suggest a balanced diet. I used to faint and feel short of breath. I used to turn blue and couldn't breathe during a simple task like bathing. Then my uncle (who is also a doctor) examined me and prescribed iron supplements and only then I felt a little better. Then I visited another doctor while still on iron supplements and my hemoglobin count was still low (around 8). But the doctor didn't even bother to listen to my problems.
Anyway, I think I moved away from the original point too far. Diagnosed or not, kindness and compassion don't cost a penny. Just because your relative was diagnosed with 'X' doesn't mean you can dismiss the person showing similar symptoms because they aren't diagnosed yet.
I'm not feeling like taking a 5 hours bus journey to attend an exam and start working right from the next day at all. I'm feeling like visiting a doctor and sleep for 24 hours straight. 😣
She's been sick for a week, but can she take a break? No. She must continue studying for another job exam and keep working to survive.
Why does she even try to vent here? Does anyone care? No. Eventually, everyone gets tired of her and tries to avoid her—except maybe her brother, who's probably never going to give up on his sister.
Did she demand too much? No. She just wanted to fix her broken teeth, improve her mental health, and repair her house. Maybe she also wanted a water pump of her own so she wouldn't have to suffer from water scarcity anymore while her neighbors waste water right before her eyes.
All she wanted was peace, and she can't even have that. She doesn't want expensive clothes, fancy food, a private car, or a big house. She just wants to make her family proud. She's content with the two T-shirts she wears interchangeably every day.
She just wants a break from all this chaos and the freedom to draw to her heart's content.
She cries when someone posts about how their father cares for them. She doesn't even have her father. Is she jealous of them? No. She just wishes she could have spent a little more time with her father. She never even got the chance to save her father's number on her phone.
She feels desperate to seek therapy when she sees others doing it, but she can't afford it. She can't even afford treatment for her physical health. She was diagnosed with anemia a long time ago, and she feels short of breath and dizzy all the time, but that still doesn't give her an excuse to take a break from everything.
Nobody ever tells her she's strong for having come this far despite all the odds. That's the only thing she ever needed to hear. But people aren't there for her, even when they promised they would be.
But she doesn't care anymore. She's only waiting for death to take her permanently so she can finally find peace.
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