" 'God sees all of your ugliness,' my mother says, 'and loves you despite.'
'Is that supposed to make me feel loved?' I reply, 'I am still ugly, he is still God.'
My name is Angel, I am a headmate in a mindset of 4, including myself. My role in the mindset is memory keeper. My role also largely encompasses emotions we keep hidden (for us that would be sadness, grief and guilt.) More about me, I am not particularly attracted to people at all, but the attraction I do have is entirely romantic. I don't align with any gender, but I do align with certain pronouns, those being they/it/he/angel.
Nearly cried twice today. The world was really begging me to front I swear! #1, me and my mom went to my grandfather's house and I went on my (now deceased) grandmother's room and just. Sat there. Observing, noticing, feeling my feelings. Then I went outside and it is a beautiful summer day. Like it feels like a movie flashback of summer. It's so perfect #2 We went to a church thrift and guess the what? two old ladies pulled out a guitar and started playing + singing. Nearly cried right in front of an old lady checking us out..
Nearly cried twice today. The world was really begging me to front I swear! #1, me and my mom went to my grandfather's house and I went on my (now deceased) grandmother's room and just. Sat there. Observing, noticing, feeling my feelings. Then I went outside and it is a beautiful summer day. Like it feels like a movie flashback of summer. It's so perfect #2 We went to a church thrift and guess the what? two old ladies pulled out a guitar and started playing + singing. Nearly cried right in front of an old lady checking us out..
I dont mean to rant on a random post but I absolutely love hearing about creatures going to their habitats and shifting, I think its so cool and awesome and I just feel so positive towards it for some reason 🥹🤍
Fawn is very similar to our host except she is a lot softer. We have been able to tell she was there for a long, long time. She loves animals and nature, especially bugs. She has brown, wavy hair with deer antlers, ears and tail. The best way to describe her role is vulnerability keeper. One could also describe her as a kindness/softness keeper.
Angel
@placeholder-notbound
it/they/he ~~ angelkin
Angel, like Fawn, is our oldest identified headmate. We associate them with our past, specifically the graveyard our grandmother is buried, our grandparents house and the park near it. Their role is memory & repressed emotion keeper. They are graceful and tend to mope. The way they present themself changes, sometimes they're a cute chibi-esc angel statue, sometimes they're a worn, blackened, weeping statue.
Churro
@show-sparkle-dog
she/they mostly, he/xe also ~~ sparkledogkin
Churro has been present since 5th grade for us, but we only identified xem this year. They love scene and Gyaru fashion, they are definitely the most fashionable headmate! ( ˊωˋ ) He is our most outspoken and loud headmate, they create a balance we desperately need. Her role is incredibly difficult to boil down into one word, so I will explain it as quickly as I can. Churro says what the other headmates struggle with saying, for better or worse.
Pavor
@whatyoushouldfear
It/they/he ~~ Not-deerkin
Pavor is complex and almost entirely indescribable. I apologize if I can't explain well. Pavor is very protective of us. It often refuses to let people in and HATES vulnerability. It lashes out when it senses annoyance within us. Pavor wants to keep us safe and not in a bad position.
Mother
-no account-
She/her ~~ Human
Mother comforts us when we're distressed or upset. She has many nicknames for us, some of the most common being love, my love, or baby. She treats us all as her children, despite some headmates resistance. She likes to bake, dance and she likes to do our nails!
A
@qwertyisfucked
They/she/any ~~ Human
A is our host, they use our birth name, but for privacy reasons, we call her A. We also call them Qwerty, Soul, etc, but those aren't real names, they're more just usernames (I know, it's confusing.) She is a big geek, she has a lot of interests, especially in media. Our current hyperfixation is Creepypasta!
sources: unknown // unknown // maplepecanpastry on tumblr // ashmanathletics on tiktok // i saw the tv glow (2024) // pray for me by kendrick lamar // unknown // what are you waiting for? by derald cannon jr. // unknown // unknown // drunk drivers/killer whales by car seat headrest // polekingrasputin on instagram
on waiting / on saving yourself
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