*Fixes skirt and shifts to cross her legs* Good. Fine. I mean, not a lot of time has gone by, but things are sailing smoothly. It's been good to be back home. I'm more comfortable and that makes me able to be more open and free, like I used to be - like I love being and I think that it's been appreciated. *Blushes a little bit and giggles, thinking of how great things have been with Sam*
2. What have you been doing since the show ended?
Working on my relationships. Becoming comfortable in my skin around the people that I've been knowing and rebuilding my friendships.
3. How have you been adjusting to normal life after being on a hit show?
*Waves a hand, and gives a toothless grin* My life has been wonderful. I love it. My friends now understand things about me that they didn't understand before. They know things that I was never comfortable with telling them and we can now talk about these things. Girls that I don't know follow me on Facebook and tell me how much of an inspiration I am to them because they have some kind of affliction or scars or something about themselves that they thought that they had to hide until they saw the difference in me between hiding and coming out and that's been the biggest thing.
4. How has your relationship with Sam been?
*Breaks into a broad smile* Fantastic. It keeps getting better. He's growing WITH me. We get to grow together, now. He did some growing on the show. I did an ENORMOUS amount of growing on the show and now, we grow together and as one and it's amazing. It's a really great feeling and I love him more and more everyday.
5. Has it been harder now without the cameras always around?
Hell no. Easy as pie. I don't have to wonder if they're gonna film that loud ass fart. I don't have to try to make sure me and Sam are all the way under the covers when we're getting down. The only thing that has been harder is that I can no longer say, "Like I said - as you've seen with your own eyes..." *Laughed and shrugged her shoulders.* I hated being on camera all the time. My life has IMPROVED by not having to do that. *Chuckles again*
6. What do you miss most about the show?
I miss living with my friends. *Teary eyed* They were quite a bunch, but the life was a good one because of the people.
7. What's one lasting memory you took away from the show?
One? Um... I'll have to say Venice. *Smiling fondly* I think my life changed forever in Venice.
8. Who from the show have you kept in contact with?
Who HAVEN'T I kept in touch with is an easier one. *Smiles brightly as she counts on her fingers* I talk to Quinn and Tana more than anyone from the house. I have to check in with Joe every time I swing by New York and sometimes aside from that. I keep in touch with the folks that I kept up with in the house.
9. How has the memories you've made on the show changed who you are now?
I know that I'm beautiful. And, I think it took a group of strangers to teach me that. And also that beauty isn't what it's sometimes made out to be, so honestly, everyone fits the description, because your beauty is relative to those who matter, most of all yourself.
10. If you could go back and redo one thing from your time on the show what would it be? Why?
Um... I'd say that I would not have treated some people in my life the way that I did. If I could, I would have been more receptive to other people's emotions at times and if I hurt them, it would have been because I just had no other choice, not because I chose to be selfish. I would have been a better me when I had the chance to do right by someone that I called my friend, instead of how I handled it.. *Bites her lip and nods* Yeah, I'm talking Jesse right now and why? Because we were close. We were more to each other than anything and I feel like even a good friend would have handled the situation differently than I did. I forgive myself. I know I was wrong and made a mistake, but I would have liked for us to part ways amicably and that didn't happen.