Every so often I’ll somehow find my way back to Tumblr to just blabber and unload some thoughts.
I do miss being on Tumblr and its “safe-ness” of me writing nonsense that I don’t quite have on other social accounts (mainly bc most people aren’t on here anymore)
I am incredibly lucky. I recognize that.
I’m so grateful that I have been surrounded by friends and family that care and it has made me naive/too much belief around a false sense of security.
I sometimes look back and think about certain situations/scenarios that I have found myself in and realize “ wow. that could have ended terribly.”
I’m glad some people haven’t been terrible and that I am mostly grounded.
Originally, I had planned on going back and celebrating the New Year in Taiwan, but since it was originally going to be incredibly busy at work, I couldn’t make it back.
Although I would have loved to have gone on a ski trip to Japan with my parents and celebrate the New Year with family, I think it worked out pretty well instead.
I was able to go on a retreat with the rest of my TAP-ATL board last weekend. It was a great way to really get to know them a little better. I do still feel a bit of a disconnect, but I think it might make future TAP events a little better. We went to a nice airbnb that had plenty of games and really comfy couches and had an intense agenda, starting the sessions with reasons why we joined TAP, a backround of ourselves, and basically our plans for the year. It ended with an intense game of hotseat. I really didn’t want to know as much as I did about these people as i ended up doing.
Valentine’s day was nice. A. had gotten me another necklace. It’s small and minimalistic and I like it. I’ve uh...ordered some moscow mule mugs so hopefully he’ll like those? I should just have him make a Amazon wishlist to make my life easier. We had a booth at work that you could make your own bouquet. I think the one I made turned out really well, but I think I might have taken too many flowers? No one set a limit so.....#noshame
Also, I decided to go home and treat myself and finally use my bath bomb for the first time and had some wine. The bath bomb was super anti-climactic and I probably wouldn’t spend that much ever again... At least it smells nice.
THURSDAY - LNY Eve - TAP Date Auction
It was the night of our NY eve dinner for TAP. Planning it took quite a bit of an effort. Since our retreat on Saturday, we barely had 20 people who paid. However, we were able to max out the room and reach 70, and even had to refund and turn people away. [Super kudos to everyone else who helped plan].
The event did start off a bit awk when we began the date auction. Just awk with the first auctionee, but everyone else did a great job. Someone ended up bidding on D for $250!!!!! WILD. I always wonder what would happen if I sign up. Would anyone bid on me?? I don’t know many people at these events so I just didn’t want to put myself in that situation to begin with....
Finally, today I helped out at volunteering at the Chinese Culture Center for the New year’s celebration. I saw J. at the event and saw his family again. It was awk bc his mom asked me if I remembered him. I did not. merp.
Overall, interesting week and good start to the new year.
It’s been awhile since I’ve been on tumblr. Used to rant a lot and really marinate in my angsty-ness.
I’m not quite sure what made me take a tumblr hiatus, but I saw an insta post from someone who was starting a series of posts about herself, productivity and simply positive attitude and I felt that I could maybe start on this path again.
These last few months have been A LOT. Technically, they haven’t really been much, but I’m weak and kinda lost control of my life. (but then again, did I ever really have control???)
I think I need to focus on some positive things and slowly pick some pieces back up. It’s currently 12:53 a.m., but oddly enough I am not tired yet. I should sleep though.
I might take some time to clean up the dishes that I’ve racked up...
Get ready folks, it’s a new year, and a hopefully more put together Lisa. I feel good about this. :)
