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UGH
I hate myself sometimes.
Ahhhhhhhh I have not been posting on here regularly AT ALL.
ANYWAY, in the past few weeks I started occasionally going on runs with Brian (my fiance) and my GOD I am out of shape. Your out of shape-ness can easily be disguised if you spend time on an elliptical, arc trainer or bike but when you’re actually forced to run and use your legs and focus on breathing?? No hiding how pathetic I am. lmao
Lol so we are taking things slow. And when I say we, I actually mean Brian is being very patient running with me because he’s waaay more in shape than me and I jog at a snail’s pace and still feel like dying.
I’ve never been a runner. Even when I got in shape like 5 years ago, my personal best was 25 minutes of a non-stop jog on a treadmill, which is less strenuous than outdoor workouts. I think in high school I once got my mile time down to 8-9 minutes but that was over 10 years ago and isn’t valid.
BUT I do feel like running leaves my body feeling like I worked out harder than stationary cardio machines at the gym, and though I’m in mega pain after running. it feels good.
So, like I said we’re taking it slow. So jogging ½ a mile, walking ¼ and then back and forth in that pattern. Really only ends up being like 2-3 miles total but trust me… that is a lot for me. Normally on a treadmill, I do 2 minutes of jogging and then 2 walking or something like that, so the fact that I’ve been able to go a ½ mile without stopping is impressive for me.
I am in DIRE need of new running shoes though. If I took a guess, I’d say my current gym shoes are like… 5 years old. I KNOW that’s bad, lol but I normally don’t run so for workouts in the gym, I haven’t been in pain. But it’s so noticeable how shitty the shoes are when I run outside. I’ve been having knee pain and shin splints that start DURING the running. Soooooooooo Brian and I are going to the store tonight to get me actual nice gym shoes…. which I don’t think I’ve ever willingly shelled out the money one should to get good quality gym shoes.
We’ll see how willing and able I am to go for a run once the weather is humid af and over 80 degrees… But wish me luck.
The last weigh in I posted was the beginning of April. I should technically have 3 but apparently I never took a picture from one week... I've still been making it to the gym, but definitely not as frequent as I should be. And I get bored posting the same things relating to my workout. And it's finally starting you get nicer weather wise and it's hard for me to stay motivated to go to the gym immediately following work because then I have no time to enjoy the nice weather. Anywho, going to the gym tonight. So we shall see.
I am so anti-social
When I’m heavy, I just have no desire to go out and see people because I’m so self conscious and know people that haven’t seen me in a while are judging me thinking ‘Wow, Jess has let herself go!’
And then, when I’m in the early stages of getting into a workout routine and eating healthier, I just don’t like going out and even putting myself into situations of temptation. Because frankly, I have no willpower, I can’t go to a bar and not drink- and I don’t want to go to a bar and not drink! I rather just be alone at home, lmao.
I don’t really want to splurge and have cheat meals or indulge in nights of drinking until I lose 20 pounds. Maybe that sounds excessive, but I gain weight soooooooooooooooooooooooooo easily that a weekend of bad eating can seriously make me gain 5 lbs. So, I rather wait a bit before I get a social life back.
Yikes, I am so lame. Someone tell me I’m not alone.
SIGH
My gym is turning into a Planet Fitness!
Ah I am so happy! I was a Planet Fitness member before we moved into the house last May but I cancelled my membership because there was no near PF to me and Zip Fitness was LITERALLY down the street from my house so it just made sense.
Zip Fitness was kind of dumpy though and just didn’t have the same feel as PF. The machines were constantly broken and never fixed, the music played in the locker room always bothered me and their 30 Minute Circuit Workout area was ALWAYS infiltrated by people who WEREN’T doing the 30 minute training.
So I’m super happy to get a Planet Fitness back!
Last night I did the elliptical for 30 minutes, only burning maybe 204 calories (don't have picture because the machine cleared immediately once I stopped-annoying!). Then I went straight to the treadmill for a quick 10 minute interval run again. That's how sweaty I get from jogging intermittently. I'm so attractive lmao.
I've been working out on treadmills but I have only been walking at a fast pace. Mainly because I'm so incredibly out of shape and I'm embarrassed to even try jogging.
Anyway on Monday and Wednesday I did two short interval runs. One was only 15 minutes and the other was 10, so nothing impressive. Just switching off between 1 minute spurts of walking and jogging. And my jog speed is still slow- 5.5-6.0 mph. Obviously I hope to build up the speed and length of time I jog
I do have to say, I feel way more exhausted from jogging than using any other cardio machine. My heart races more and I just feel like I'm using way more muscles jogging than any other machine. It felt good!
That's all for now.
Big Effing Reminder: If you’re adopting a healthier lifestyle, please don’t get discouraged after a damn week. You need to be patient and remember this is a slow, steady process and your body needs time to adjust. This shit doesn’t happen overnight or in a week. Chill.
Wednesday Weigh-in 03/28/2018 Down 2.2 lbs from last week! I am super surprised I lost anything this week because my weekend eating was NOT good and I indulged in cheese and bread last night and I had potatoes during dinner. Weekend eating is a diet ruiner. Went out to eat THREE times. Two of which were at Italian restaurants and I CANNOT resist bread and olive oil. And both Friday AND Saturday I had two glasses of wine at dinner! Plus it's just generally hard to eat healthy at Italian places. Even avoiding pasta (which I did) things are either battered in dough or doused in oil. Sunday I had fish tacos but the only bad part of that were the flour tortillas so I didn't feel that guilty. Regarding the picture, I think at every even 10 lbs I'll post a picture with the scale picture. So at 170, 160, 150... You get it.
Week 2 Summary (03/19-03/25) You know, I think these weekly summaries are a good idea until I try to actively recall what I did last week! I worked out M, W, TH, F AND Saturday! Tuesday I went to my aunt's house to celebrate my grandma's birthday. Luckily, she's doing keto so the dinner was stuffed peppers and a caprese salad. AND... I RESISTED wine! Actually, my uncle made these veggie fried patties after dessert and I graduated even trying them because it was 9 pm and past my eating window. Thursday and Saturday I did the 30 minute strength circuit which is a personal favorite and I primarily had it to myself. Love when that happens! I feel like my workouts are pretty lack luster though. Like when I'm doing exclusively cardio (cycling, elliptical, treadmill) I just don't push myself hard enough. I'm barely pushing past 200 calories burned for a 30 minute workout. That's shameful. Hoping to amp things up this week, or at least work out for a longer period of time.
You know what's a buzzkill?
Even when I eventually lose 20 pounds, which is a sizable amount to lose, I'm STILL GOING TO BE BIG.
I'm hoping to lose 50-55 pounds and even then I'll be at the high end of a healthy BMI range for my height! Overall goal is 130-135.
I just can't wait until my face doesn't have multiple chins. Ugh I feel like when I gain weight, it goes to my face immediately.
First week of Intermittent Fasting complete!
I didn’t mention this, but Brian (my fiancé) and I began intermittent fasting (IF) last week and I am officially done with week 1.
After watching a BBC documentary, ‘Eat, Fast and Live Longer’, watching a few podcasts and a slew of articles on the benefits of fasting, we decided to give it a go. I will admit, some of this seems like a fad, but the benefits are scientifically based andsuper fascinating.
There are different iterations of intermittent fasting, but pretty much it’s where you fast for a lengthy period of time and have a shorter window of hours to eat.
I will link a few things below because everything I’ve read, watched and listened to can explain everything far better than me. But in short some benefits include:
Lowering blood glucose levels
Reduce blood lipids (fatty acids/ cholesterol)
Reduces risk of cancer
Increases cellular repair
Increases a growth hormone which aide in fat burning and muscle gain
So, I’m doing the 16:8 fasting, where I fast for 16 hours and eat all of my calories for the day within an 8 hr period. So, I eat between noon- 8pm. During a fast you’re allowed water, black coffee and unsweetened tea- Literally nothing with calories or anything your body would need to metabolize.
I’m finding that I’m not actually that hungry in the morning, maybe around 10:30-11:00 I start feeling hunger pangs but I can hold off, or I’ll have some tea which always helps suppress my appetite. Noon- 8:00pm gives me enough time to commute home, get to the gym to work out and get home to cook/eat dinner. Plus, I’m finding myself pretty easily distracted in the mornings at work where I’m not craving food.
Intermittent fasting also helps suppress random food cravings where you’re not actually hungry but randomly craving stuff. I have a problem with boredom eating so this seems to be helping.
And then obviously on top of the intermittent fasting, I’m sticking to a 1200 calorie diet and primarily removing complex carbs (rice, pasta, bread, potatoes). I considered Keto but it’s just too restrictive IMO and I enjoy sweet food so I need fruit in my diet to actually stick to working out/ trying to lose weight- otherwise I’ll binge on shit food like candy and cookies. In the past, how I’ve always lost weight was this exact diet and exercise. So, really I’m just adding IF to the mix. I’ve always been the most focused when I’ve actively counted calories and tracked what the hell I put in my body.
Links Here:
Eat, Fast and Live Longer:
https://youtu.be/Ihhj_VSKiTs
Joe Rogan Podcast on IF:
https://youtu.be/dDJdk0j4xnM
How to do IF:
https://youtu.be/lwCRjwDs1Ek
Random Useful Articles/Benefits of Intermittent Fasting:
https://www.nerdfitness.com/blog/a-beginners-guide-to-intermittent-fasting/
https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/10-health-benefits-of-intermittent-fasting
https://www.rd.com/health/wellness/intermittent-fasting-benefits/
https://www.mindbodygreen.com/articles/why-intermittent-fasting-is-the-best-thing-to-ever-happen-to-your-metabolism
“Becoming healthier is more than losing weight. I’m going to improve the quality of my life.”
— Affirmation of the day. (via riffatmatinpoetry)
03/21/2018
So I potentially lost 3.4 pounds since last week! BUT my most recent weighin was at the gym so I don’t know how closely matched my scales is to the gym one, ya know?
I’m going to weigh myself tonight at the him, but again that’ll be a different weight since I will have obviously eaten today.
Moving forward though, I’m going to weigh myself every Wednesday- at home and at the gym. So that’s at home weighin will be used to compare with next week’s weighing.
And tonight’s weighin at the gym will be a better gauge on whether I lost anything from last week.
I always have issues uploading from my phone...
Okay, still overdue for the long post I mentioned. Anyway, week 1 summary: I weigh 186. Which, for my height is despicable. Anyway, I need to be fully open here. So that's my weight. I made it in the gym Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday AND Saturday. Don't think I've been to the gym on a Saturday in over a year. Stuck to pretty basic stuff like elliptical, bike or walking on a treadmill. I need to start jogging I'm just truly dragging my feet. Saturday I did the bike for 30 minutes and the 30 minute circuit training which I really enjoy. My legs are currently in a ton of pain. There's a random collection of photos, even one of my looking huge with all of my stomach rolls. As for eating, I'm back to tracking everything and sticking to 1200 calories a day. Week 1 is done and I have my gym bag ready for tonight. Yahooo