Lmao The Username Is Cringy And Kinda Missleading

If it’s not edgy, it’s gay.

[winter-fairyy]

Have you ever felt so touch starved that it’s like psychically painful and you would literally do anything just for someone to hug you?

Yea that’s where I’m at tonight. It’s 1am and I’m literally about to cry honestly.

[oatmilkcore]

here is the thing about being someone’s second choice.

everyone says it’s better than not even being someone’s choice at all, but it’s not.

see,

not being someone’s choice gives you closure. you know it’s not gonna happen; you know to move on, and it hurts but you know. but being a second choice?

it’s being held on by the smallest touch of hope, because maybe, (just maybe,) tomorrow might be the day they change their mind.

it’s abandoning your homework to comfort him after their latest fight, even though in the back of your mind you know he’s gonna make up with her tomorrow, and you’re probably better off finishing that essay.

it’s staying up late waiting to hear from him because what if?? it’s one of his bad nights?? while he goes straight to sleep without giving you a second thought.

it’s only existing when they’ve had a fight and he wants to talk to someone who he knows will drop everything for him.

it’s thinking maybe, maybe he’s finally over her and maybe it’ll finally be you then seeing him post a cute quote and just thinking, ‘oh.’

it’s painful, it’s repetitive, it’s an endless cycle. it sure as hell isn’t better than not being a choice at all. it’s constant dedication to the smallest hopes that it’ll be you

- even though you know it’ll never be you, don’t you? // w.m.m

[mayibeskinnyplease]

Reasons to recover

I know some of you might not want to look at this list because you’re just not there yet and it’s absolutely fine

Less heart problems

Digestive system works better

Not cold all the time

Hair won’t fall out

No more memory problems

Moving is easier

Going out to eat with people is actually fun

Going to the beach is fun

You won’t hurt everywhere anymore

You get your vitamins from actual food

To be able to think about more things than just food

People don’t see you as the sick one anymore

To be able to go to the gym without worrying about passing out

School is easier

Work is easier

Concentrating on books and other hobbies is easy

You’ll sleep better

You’ll have energy

You’ll have strength to give piggyback rides

You will still be able to wear anything you want

Confidence grows

You’ll look alive

You’ll live your life the way it was meant to be lived

Feel free to add more

💕

[sunshine-avalanche]

Do you think this is a pretty sight? This is the reality of having anorexia for 12+ years. The reality of what eating disorders can do to your body.

When I was in high school and then in college getting my bachelors degree, I spent more time in hospitals and treatment centers than I did out of them.

And then I found out

My organs failed. Permanently.

Last year, I needed major surgery that took about 4 HOURS, and after that I was admitted to the hospital for a week on heavy pain medications, being wheeled around because I couldn’t walk.

I had tubes everywhere.

I had to medically withdraw from graduate school because I had to spend that time in doctors offices, infusion centers for IVs, in the ER, or admitted into the hospital.

Now I have a 6 inch scar across my abdomen and will be on medications for the rest of my life to help my heart and stomach function enough to keep me alive.

I’ve nearly died multiple times from the ED, but I had never believed that my organs could shut down and leave me to deal with that reality for the rest of my life.

That is not a way anyone should have to live life.

This is what an eating disorder looks like. Not the “thinspo” everyone sees on the Internet. This is what you don’t see behind those pictures and it’s not pretty.

[fvckyourfate]

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[andwhileyourealive]

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[never-good-enough-ever]

Sad

[welcometoyouredoom]

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[awholenutha]

Please keep boosting this, free knowledge is so important people.

[wheeloffortune-design]

I want to apologise to

- Britney for making fun of her when she had her breakdown

- Monica Lewinski for judging her when she was a 22year old temp sexually assaulted by the most powerful man in the world

- Ke$ha for ever thinking she was trashy when all she wanted to do was make party music

- Kristen Stewart for ever thinking she was dumb when she’s actually one of the coolest people ever

- Megan Fox for ever thinking she was just a slut when actually she was an actress being harassed by her employer. 

- Hating all the women who made a career out of having a hot body. Being is shape is hard, beauty is a weapon and auto promotion is hard work. 

- All the Mary-Sues, who exist because young girls everywhere want to be part of a story they love so much

- All the female characters I ever snobbed because they got in the way of my ship.

- Hating the color pink during my teenage years, when it’s actually a lovely color and what I resented was society’s pressure to perform femininity. 

[mothsfuzz]

THINGS TO ROMANTICIZE

- going 2 bed on time

- healthy romantic relationships

- eating without worrying about calories

- living alone

- non-traditional career paths

- loving yourself

- being old and happy

feel free to add on!!

[clearingsky]

- being happy with yourself

-not pushing yourself past your limits

-forgiving yourself

-communicating healthily with yourself and others

[tuneofsorrow-deactivated2019042]

anyway op of this post is a cis transmed and dont put his shit on my dash lol.

also reblog this to let people know.

[teathattast]

[goatbran-deactivated20190407]

here’s a vid from the pov of the dudes inside

[smollesbianandreadytocry]

This is the only thing I will accept with the use of the phrase “boys will be boys”

[anonymoustypewriter]

HOLY SHIT WATCH THE OTHER VIDEO THAT WAS FAR MORE BOYS THAN I EXPECTED

[stardust-tears-and-ocean-eyes]

If you see this, DRINK WATER!

Yes, you too. Go and drink one glass, just one, for me, ok?

Reblog to promote hydration!!

[enbydnp-archive]

reblog if you’re gay, tired or in need of a hug

[tanknaka]

hey

hey friend

dont kill yourself tonight ok

you have a really pretty smile and i know its not always easy to manage one but itd be a bummer if we never had the chance to see it ever again

youre really important and you matter a lot so stay safe and try and have a nice sleep

[the-grace-of-fallen-angels]

I would like a moment to thank the people who reblog post like this so that it eventually shows on my dash.

It is keeping me alive

[lavendertears]

I actually really needed this tonight, thank you

[myblissfulsuicide]

You’re a wonderful being and I hope to God you make it through the pain you’re going though. You deserve so much more.

[po3ms-for-the-dead]

Stuck

I am in no way stuck

I am moving freely

but you are,

stuck in my mind, that is

but i won’t tell you

or anyone else for that matter

because i am scared

because i have already liked you twice before

because i am afraid it will upset my friend who also likes you

because i know

that you will never think the things i think

like how i think about those emerald eyes

more than i think about my favorite song

how your name rolls off my tongue

more than my own

about how your dirty blonde hair feels whenever i hug you

about how the very thought of you brightens my mood more than the moon brightens dark nights

but to you, i’m just another girl.

another girls who’s liked you before,

another girl who hugs you,

another girl with brown eyes,

another girl with brown hair,

another girl with anxiety,

another girl with mood swings,

another girl you text,

another girl you’re friends with,

another girl you know,

another girl at your school,

another girl.

i am just another girl,

i am not special,

i am not pretty,

i am not skinny,

i am not funny,

i am not yours.

and although i’d love to be all those things, i know that i never will be.

[a-cure-for-writers-block]

#100 Dialogue Prompts- Angst Edition

“This will be the last time you lie to me.”

“You know it’s not like that.”

“How could you think this wouldn’t hurt me?”

“You’re never going to be the same after this.”

“I just think it’d be best if we never met.”

“I can’t believe you would even think to leave me like this.”

“You never loved me, did you?”

“It didn’t have to be like this, but now you’ve ruined everything.”

“I hope you’re happy.”

“If you had have kept your mouth shut, then he’d still- he’d still be here!”

“What did you want once this was all through? Tell me!”

“Now I have to deal with the consequences of your actions. Thanks, it means a lot.”

“You could’ve- could’ve stayed. You could’ve helped me fix things.”

“I knew she’d never change, she was too stubborn, too similar to me.”

“This isn’t going to be fixed. You’ve ruined this for good now.”

“I hope I’m not put in the same part of hell as you.”

“When did you think you could hurt me again? Today? Tomorrow?”

“You’re back in my life and I want to die again.”

“You only ever brought me pain and I’m sick of it.”

“I hope you got what you wanted.”

“You made me miserable and I still loved you.”

“When you die, I’ll be the first to dance on your grave.”

“Don’t underestimate me, I have more power than you can even comprehend.”

“If only you knew what you’d brought upon yourself.”

“We’re never going to have a happy ending, just remember that.”

“Everytime something goes well, I momentarily forget how much I despise you.”

“Don’t pretend like you’re not happy to see me like this.”

“There is nothing worse than seeing you get what you want.”

“Your mind must be a horrible place.”

“You can cut me, bruise me and skin me alive, but you will not take her from me.”

“How is it that we always end up in this predicament?”

“I want to wipe that grin of your face with my sword, but my mother taught me to play nicely.”

“Did anyone ever tell you how pathetic you are? It’s incredible how low my standards are for you.”

“Ah, well if you want them back alive, I suggest you lay down your own life.”

“Don’t be ‘smart’. The battlefield is no place for Math Scholars.”

“You shouldn’t have come. You can’t be-”

“Stop talking or tomorrow won’t come.”

“Hand me the gun and I’ll kill him myself.”

“I shouldn’t care for your life, but I’m starting to and it’s becoming an inconvenience.”

“If you live to see her, please send my best regards and this box of her father’s ashes.”

“It would’ve been nice to get to know you better, but I’m afraid I don’t care.”

“I can’t help but think you’re a terrible person.”

“Seeing your face has unconventionally made me want to die. I wasn’t quite prepared for this feeling.”

“You could have loved me, I’m quite good at seducing, but you’re actually vile.”

“I hope I see you in a bodybag sometime.”

“Let’s pretend you didn’t cheat on me with my sister and be good people for a few minutes.”

“We should probably stop talking forever.”

“If I hated you anymore, I think I’d probably be crowned as satan’s right-hand man.”

“To say I ‘tolerate you’ is a vast overstatement.”

“You broke her heart and came back for more, you bastard.”

“This isn’t fifth grade, this is a courtroom, you whore.”

“I think you’d be the perfect match for my ex-husband. He loved to sleep with multiple people.”

“I’m not coming home, don’t look for me.”

“Time was always a measurement of this relationship and we finally ran out.”

“Please don’t look at me with such hatred.”

“I could’ve died and you couldn’t have cared less.”

“Just get out. I- I don’t want you hear, just leave.”

“You’re not the same person I married, don’t tell me I’m wrong.”

“I wish you wouldn’t beg for forgiveness, it has the opposite effect of what you want.”

“Don’t hate me for this. You would’ve done the same.”

“This could’ve been the end and you were ready to let me go.”

“You should’ve left me, you could never deserve the person I’ve become.”

“Hate me all you want. I know I’m right.”

“Today you broke my arm, I hope tomorrow it’s not my heart.”

“Nothing can justify this, you’ve ruined him.”

“You live with so much guilt, I hope it drives you mad one of these days.”

“My life was ruined because of one mistake. You were that mistake.”

“You are everything I hate, don’t ever come back.”

“Evil doesn’t come close.”

“Your wrongdoings are becoming your pastimes.”

“I wish you had of just done it for the thrill of it, but now you’re in deep shit.”

“Next time, I won’t be here to salvage your wreckage. This is the last time.”

“You should have ruined me when you had the chance.”

“No one will keep your name alive. Once you’re gone, everything you once stood for disappears too.”

“Don’t pretend you haven’t thought about your life without me.”

“This is always how it ends.”

“Break my heart once more, I dare you.”

“Forget how you loved me once, I mean nothing now.”

“This isn’t Romeo and Juliet, this is real life and I can go on without you.”

“You don’t own me, I don’t belong to you.”

“I should’ve died. That would’ve made you happy.”

“Are we going to carry on like this or are you going to give him back to me.”

“She drowned and he lost his mind.”

“We shouldn’t. You’re married and I’m pregnant.”

“You’ve never been loved, I can tell.”

“Who told you I needed fixing and what made you believe them?”

“You’re almost as far-gone as I am.”

“Maybe it’s best that we don’t go home.”

“Roaming the streets was never safe for her. What makes you think it’s different for you?”

“I think you’re going to ruin me. Am I right?”

“Do you remember our last feud? I wouldn’t want someone to lose their life again, would you?”

“Kiss me quick and leave them be.”

“I hate seeing you so sad. It’s just so dramatic how humans show emotions and being sad is such a boring one.”

“Will you ever forget my number? No? Ah, because you still love me.”

“After the funeral, let’s surrender.”

“What made you think I cared for you?”

“It’ll be fun explaining this to your sister. I hope she likes horror stories.”

“Don’t act as if we’re friends. I know how much you want to slit my throat.”

“Let’s not get angry. Let’s calmly and sensibly take this outside so I can ruin your face.”

“Please ruin yourself for me and I’ll watch in adoration as I fall apart as well.”

// GuYs, i haVE ofFiciaLly hAd toO muCh coFfeE. I never thought this day would come (or night/morning. It’s 2 am lmao), but here we are. I want to sleep, how are you my darlings? xox //

[po3ms-for-the-dead]

Her.

I could name one thousand reasons

Why we could never be together

Yet, I will only name three.

Number one, you’re too important to me.

I can’t lose you, I won’t lose you.

Two, the time will never be right

They’ll always be a barrier.

Three, you love her.

You love her like photographers love sunsets,

You love her like an actor loves flowers after a performance,

You love her like sad eyes love the night sky.

She is your sun and moon.

She is the reason you’re always happy.

She is the most important thing to you.

I mean, I get it.

She is what I want to be,

Gorgeous, skinny, funny, kind, etc.

She is my opposite.

And I could name 997 more reasons

That we could never be together

But I would hate to bore you away

Because you going away,

Is the very last thing I want.

[po3ms-for-the-dead]

Fake.

You let me down

And I hope you know

You screw it all up

And I let it go

You asked if I was okay

And I did say no

But you left me on read

When I needed you most

You ignore my calls

You ignore my texts

You ignore my snaps

I can guess what’s next

And even when I do get a reply

It’s always a “k”

You can’t type a simple “hi”

It’s really not that difficult

And I’m falling so hard

But my heads in the clouds

And I know you won’t try to help me

When I hit the ground

But if the roles were reversed

Oh, you can count on me

Because that’s the kind of friend

I’d wish you’d be.

[po3ms-for-the-dead]

“Does the perfect girl exist?”

Well. I’ve been asked this twice before, my answer is always something cliché like, “yes, perfect for you.” but I never thought about who my perfect girl would be. My perfect girl would have purplish-blue dyed hair, but healthy, not damaged in the slightest. Oh, a name, let’s give her a name. Purplish, purplish, purplish. Purplish! Lilac. Yes, Lilac, that shall be her name. So far, we’ve only come up with her hair and a name, how about a face next? She’d have the most piercing Neptune blue eyes with a twinkle like stars oh so bright. Hmm, stars. Stars! Yes, stars! She’d have freckles like stardust that lay upon her peachy cheeks and button nose, her lips would have the perfect amount of pigment to create the color that makeup brands are always trying to recreate. Her face shape would be a heart, to resemble how kind she is. Her body.. well, her body is her own. If I’m controlling everything else, she should be granted this very small freedom. Her skin would be tan as if she had just gotten home from being at the beach for days, she’d have a pink discoloration under her left eye. That is something that makes her unique. A perfect girl to you is different from a perfect girl to me. Her skin would be as soft as a father holding his baby for the first time. And her voice, ohh her voice. Her voice could be as calming as your grandmother singing you to sleep as she cradled you in her arms, or it could be as powerful as a volcanic eruption. She has her own gorgeous voice, she is free to say what she wants. She feels every emotion, for she is human, but she doesn’t let sadness or fear control her, for those are the emotions she feels the least. Yeah, she’s basically fearless. Fear cannot and will not control her, neither will any godforsaken negative emotion the world has to throw at her. You see, she rains- excuse me, sorry- she thunders positivity. Her clothes show off her personality pretty well. For example- she mostly wears pastel, but she isn’t afraid to rock burgundy or black. She wears whatever she wants, whenever she wants. Red and white checkered crop top? Sure, why not? Yellow sweatshirt? Of course. Lilac doesn’t need your opinion for she is her own person. If Lilac wants to dress up, she will. If Lilac does not want to dress up, she won’t. Simple. Well, that’s my perfect girl. An average persons life is 27,375 days, I still have 22,752 more days to meet Lilac. But here’s the short answer to your question: No.