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tether me

Dear high school marching band drum line cadencing through the summer evening from a mile away, please hold me here. Let your sound so gold and bright be a tether. Keep me from drifting again into that space where I don’t know anything but the earthquake magnitude of my love for my loves and the spidersilk thin web by which I’m knotted into my life. Dear UPS delivery knock, remind me of where I live— this sturdy house with a red door, an aging roof. Dear student stopping by with a citation question we’ve covered twice in class, thank you for pulling me back from the antigravity. Who can sustain in that vast floating, so full of stars but endless? Dear public radio segue music, hook and hold me. Dear hashtag, dear late night sketch, dear photo of a friend’s new pitbull pup, truss me right to this earth. Dear caterwauling fire truck in my rearview. Dear tailless calico peering in my window. Dear child needing milk or Goldfish or to know how eardrums work, let me sit on the kitchen floor with you. Let’s notice how we’re both right here. Dear automatic car lock, as I’m walking away, I’ll press the button. Honk once to remind me I haven’t disappeared.

- Catherine Pierce (source)

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how trees grow

Between bark and wood, the secret cambium layers keep growing. Each dark ring adding a new layer of wood to the older wood. (As if what grows new will never have to suffer.) But it's the darker interior portion, the heartwood that deceives the most. Even the hollow trees, leafy impostors, go on living year after year. How do such things continue? It's because, like all great survivors, the living is done on the outside, in the tenuous outer few inches of trunks until they are found out, until some storm breaks them. But for now, they are everywhere, dusting the hills with their lush green tresses, so tall and woman-thick, fruit-heavy with plum and peach. Their hearts tucked in dark spidery knolls. In each of the seasons, trees are the only thing worth looking to. Listen to the trees. They are never wrong.

- Laura Lush (source)

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you have sadness

living in places

sadness shouldn’t live

- rupi kaur

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Ugly

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Your daughter is ugly. She knows loss intimately, carries whole cities in her belly.

As a child, relatives wouldn’t hold her. She was splintered wood and sea water. She reminded them of the war.

On her fifteenth birthday you taught her how to tie her hair like rope and smoke it over burning frankincense.

You made her gargle rosewater and while she coughed, said macaanto girls like you shouldn’t smell of lonely or empty.

You are her mother. Why did you not warn her, hold her like a rotting boat and tell her that men will not love her if she is covered in continents, if her teeth are small colonies, is her stomach is an island if her thighs are borders?

What man wants to lie down and watch the world burn in his bedroom?

Your daughter’s face is a small riot, her hands are a civil war, a refugee camp behind each ear, a body littered with ugly things.

But God, does she wear the world well?

Warsan Shire

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Artificial Perks

That afternoon, sexual health advocates on campus slipped us a goodie bag of condoms, marveled at our fingers interlaced, as if carrying all the love we’d made.

Back home, she laughed, threw the still-wrapped bag into the garbage as she undressed me down to my sterile body, the best parts plastic.

She said, It’s lucky we don’t have to worry— I almost don’t believe you’re real.

Miles Walser

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sustainable-nostalgia

you are a horse running alone

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you are a horse running alone and he tries to tame you compares you to an impossible highway to a burning house says you are blinding him that he could never leave you forget you want anything but you you dizzy him, you are unbearable every woman before or after you is doused in your name you fill his mouth his teeth ache with memory of taste his body just a long shadow seeking yours but you are always too intense frightening in the way you want him unashamed and sacrificial he tells you that no man can live up to the one who lives in your head and you tried to change didn’t you? closed your mouth more tried to be softer prettier less volatile, less awake but even when sleeping you could feel him travelling away from you in his dreams so what did you want to do love split his head open? you can’t make homes out of human beings someone should have already told you that and if he wants to leave then let him leave you are terrifying and strange and beautiful something not everyone knows how to love.

Warsan Shire

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A Sonnet of Invented Memories

I told you that I was a roadway of potholes, not safe to cross. You said nothing, showed up in my driveway wearing roller-skates.

The first time I asked you on a date, after you hung up, I held the air between our phones against my ear and whispered, “You will fall in love with me. Then, just months later, you will fall out. I will pretend the entire time that I don’t know it’s coming.”

Once, I got naked and danced around your bedroom, awkward and safe. You did the same. We held each other without hesitation and flailed lovely. This was vulnerability foreplay.

The last eight times I told you I loved you, they sounded like apologies.

You recorded me a CD of you repeating, “You are beautiful.” I listened to it until I no longer thought in my own voice.

Into the half-empty phone line, I whispered, “We will wake up believing the worst in each other. We will spit shrapnel at each other’s hearts. The bruises will lodge somewhere we don’t know how to look for and I will still pretend I don’t know its coming.”

You photographed my eyebrow shapes and turned them into flashcards: mood on one side, correct response on the other. You studied them until you knew when to stay silent.

I bought you an entire bakery so that we could eat nothing but breakfast for a week. Breakfast, untainted by the day ahead, was when we still smiled at each other as if we meant it.

I whispered, “I will latch on like a deadbolt to a door and tell you it is only because I want to protect you. Really, I’m afraid that without you I mean nothing.”

10.

I gave you a bouquet of plane tickets so I could practice the feeling of watching you leave.

11.

I picked you up from the airport limping. In your absence, I’d forgotten how to walk. When I collapsed at your feet, you refused to look at me until I learned to stand up without your help.

12.

Too scared to move, I stared while you set fire to your apartment – its walls decaying beyond repair, roaches invading the corpse of your bedroom. You tossed all the faulty appliances through the smoke out your window, screaming that you couldn’t handle choking on one more thing that wouldn’t just fix himself.

13.

I whispered, “We will each weed through the last year and try to spot the moment we began breaking. We will repel sprint away from each other. Your voice will take months to drain out from my ears. You will throw away your notebook of tally marks from each time you wondered if I was worth the work. The invisible bruises will finally surface and I will still pretend that I didn’t know it was coming.”

14.

The entire time, I was only pretending that I knew it was coming.

Miles Walser

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THE ANSWER IS BLUEBERRIES AND ALL OF THE ABOVE

Sometimes we try to pull our ears off and sometimes we pull off our clothes instead and I can’t say which I prefer though I have an idea you have an idea that we have the same idea and sometimes there is nothing better than knowing that what ends doesn’t really end if you remember hard enough and I remember everything so hard it hurts it hurts my head and it hurts my beating heart but I love how hurt feels because I can remember much more how good naked feels.

Nate Slawson

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Esse

I looked at that face, dumbfounded. The lights of métro stations flew by; I didn't notice them. What can be done, if our sight lacks absolute power to devour objects ecstatically, in an instant, leaving nothing more than the void of an ideal form, a sign like a hieroglyph simplified from the drawing of an animal or bird? A slightly snub nose, a high brow with sleekly brushed-back hair, the line of the chin - but why isn't the power of sight absolute? - and in a whiteness tinged with pink two sculpted holes, containing a dark, lustrous lava. To absorb that face but to have it simultaneously against the background of all spring boughs, walls, waves, in its weeping, its laughter, moving it back fifteen years, or ahead thirty. To have. It is not even a desire. Like a butterfly, a fish, the stem of a plant, only more mysterious. And so it befell me that after so many attempts at naming the world, I am able only to repeat, harping on one string, the highest, the unique avowal beyond which no power can attain: I am, she is. Shout, blow the trumpets, make thousands-strong marches, leap, rend your clothing, repeating only: is!

She got out at Raspail. I was left behind with the immensity of existing things. A sponge, suffering because it cannot saturate itself; a river, suffering because reflections of clouds and trees are not clouds and trees.

Czeslaw Milosz

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What the Living Do

Johnny, the kitchen sink has been clogged for days, some utensil probably fell down there. And the Drano won't work but smells dangerous, and the crusty dishes have piled up waiting for the plumber I still haven't called. This is the everyday we spoke of. It's winter again: the sky's a deep, headstrong blue, and the sunlight pours through the open living-room windows because the heat's on too high in here and I can't turn it off. For weeks now, driving, or dropping a bag of groceries in the street, the bag breaking, I've been thinking: This is what the living do. And yesterday, hurrying along those wobbly bricks in the Cambridge sidewalk, spilling my coffee down my wrist and sleeve, I thought it again, and again later, when buying a hairbrush: This is it. Parking. Slamming the car door shut in the cold. What you called that yearning. What you finally gave up. We want the spring to come and the winter to pass. We want whoever to call or not call, a letter, a kiss—we want more and more and then more of it. But there are moments, walking, when I catch a glimpse of myself in the window glass, say, the window of the corner video store, and I'm gripped by a cherishing so deep for my own blowing hair, chapped face, and unbuttoned coat that I'm speechless: I am living. I remember you.

Marie Howe

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Love Song

How can I keep my soul in me, so that

it doesn't touch your soul? How can I raise

it high enough, past you, to other things?

I would like to shelter it, among remote

lost objects, in some dark and silent place

that doesn't resonate when your depths resound.

Yet everything that touches us, me and you,

takes us together like a violin's bow,

which draws one voice out of two separate strings.

Upon what instrument are we two spanned?

And what musician holds us in his hand?

Oh sweetest song.

Rainer Maria Rilke

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you are ohio

so I had this dream we were a map of the midwest. you were ohio & I was michigan & I was all over you & it was so fucking hot your spine was on fire all the way down to cincinnati, & god damn if that ain’t the most depressing thing because I knew I’d wake up wishing I was kentucky & your ankles were a river wrapped around my throat, but it don’t matter either way because motherfuck if you aren’t always telling me the same thing— it’s not happening, uh-uh, not in this time zone, brother, or any other place.

Nate Slawson

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The Best Of It

However carved up or pared down we get, we keep on making the best of it as though it doesn’t matter that our acre’s down to a square foot. As though our garden could be one bean and we’d rejoice if it flourishes, as though one bean could nourish us.

Kay Ryan

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From Miranda, or an Abridged History of the Tenth Grade

I know I promised you I wouldn't make a scene in front of all your friends but is it so wrong if I write your name across my shoes & sit by you at lunch is it so wrong if I want to stand next to you in gym class O your legs remind me of a river bed I would do a hundred sit-ups for you & whisper your name & kiss my knees pretend- ing they were you

Nate Slawson

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How It Ends

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It has been … years … months And … days Since the first time I saw you naked Since the night you ripped off your shirt Stuck your boobs in my face and said Touch them I touched them like a diabetic third grader opening a Snickers bar You said Hard I thought, yes I am But you are so soft, I said, Your lips, they’re like whale blubber That wasn’t my best line But it worked

Tonight in the grocery store, I found one of your hairs in my underwear I pulled it out in the frozen food section and screamed THAT is so gorgeous, it could kill a man Good thing I’m a leprechaun Lucky Lucky

Baby, I have no idea how this will end Maybe the equator will fall like a hula hoop from the earth’s hips And our mouths will freeze mid-kiss on our 80th anniversary Or maybe tomorrow, my absolute insanity Combined with the absolute obstacle course of your communication skills Will leave us Like a love letter In a landfill But whatever Whenever However this ends, I want you to know, that right now, I love you forever I love you for the hardest mile we walked together

For the night I collected every sharp knife in the house And threw them one by one on the roof Then told the sun, Listen show off, From now on, you are only to give me blades of grass; Things that are growing and soft ‘Cause there’s this girl who says she wants to float on her back Through my bloodstream And when she does, I want my rivers to reach the sea D’you hear me, lover?

Do you know, the night you told me you had a crush on my ears, I swore to never to become Van Gogh And look, baby, They are both still there Just like my firefly heart is still right there in your glass jar I never trusted anybody more to poke enough holes in the lid

So on the nights you sleep like a ballerina, I try to snore like a piccolo And I press my lips to your holy temples And I say, I crash in to things in the dark Even when the lights are on And I am wrong more often than I am writing And even then, I am often wrong But when my friends are in the bathroom at the bar Rolling dollar bills in to telescopes, Claiming they can see God, I will come to you Holding my grandmother’s Bible, I will press it to your chest And I will bless it with your breath And when you ask if I wanna roleplay Altar boys fucking in the kitchen during Sunday Mass I will say, Hell yes But only if you leave a hickey on my ass In the shape of Jesus’ palm So I can be sure I got nailed Down

Lover, You will never lose me to the wind You are the lightning that made me fill my chest with candles You are the thunder clapping for the poem that nobody else wants to hear You are an icicle’s tear watering a tulip on the first day of spring You melt me alive You kiss me as deep as my roots will reach And I want nothing more than to be an eyelash fallen on your cheek Then being collected by your fingers And held like a wish I promise That whatever I do I will always try my best To come true

Andrea Gibson

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Hope

What’s the use of something as unstable and diffuse as hope— the almost-twin of making do, the isotope of going on: what isn’t in the envelope just before it isn’t: the always tabled righting of the present.

Kay Ryan

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Sam

you are a new kind of monster you sure do look awful good when you’re naked I dare you to hide underneath my bed I dare you to follow me home from the bus stop late at night until we get to my front door & you reach your monster hand into my chest rip out my heart & replace it with a hummingbird I think that’s the most romantic thing a monster could do

Nate Slawson

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