poetryghosts

this is how i deal with hyperfixations, he/him 21

[blackberryandpeppermint]

Thinking about hatchetfield and doomed soulmates. About how in every possible universe you’ll find each other but in every universe you’ll loose each other as well. Or at the very least never be able to be truly happy with them. How you’ll never be able to live the life you truly wanted with them. Thinking about how Paul and Emma always find each other just as the world ends. Thinking about how Lex and Ethan will always end up apart from each other whether it be by death or cruel circumstance. Thinking about how the curse will forever keep Duke and Miss Holloway apart. Thinking about how Pete and Steph may finally end up together but only after great suffering and loosing those dear to them. Thinking about how the person who brings you the most joy will also unintentionally bring you the most suffering through no fault of their own just a cruel joke from the universe.

[poetryghosts]

Ah yes, my daily dose of pain, thank you

[table-top-horror]

Richie trans headcannon where he came out to his parents but gave himself a cringe ass anime first name like goku or whatever and his parents drew the line so hard he backpeddled and settled on Richard

[hatchet-scandal]

transfags will be like "omg he looks so good here" and this is the picture they're talking about

[khruschevshoe]

Jon Matteson does not get enough credit for his physical acting skills. In the "Nerdy Prudes Must Die" number when he "levitates" and then crashes to the ground? And in "Let It Out"? He fucking SELLS the emotional impact of those scenes and I'm tired of pretending that he is not one of the best things to happen to modern Starkid. Mariah and Angela definitely deserve their due, but my man is KILLING IT OUT HERE

-Signed, a disgruntled fan who still holds that "Let It Out" was the best scene in The Guy Who Didn't Like Musicals

[poetryghosts]

THIS THIS THIS

[louferrignojrofficial]

that rebar is his mortal enemy

[blanketforcas]

might as well put a loading sign cause that's what this video is

[chrispineofficial]

@brittanyitsnovember5th i’m yelling

[kikiatthemirror]

Reading Challenge Destiel Edition 2023

Here's the thing: a few days ago I was talking to a friend. She happily told me that she will do the reading challenge this year. For a moment I felt left out.

I read a lot, I read in a language that is not my language, and I read things that I like and that I could talk about for hours. I like to share what I read with friends. So... why can't I do the reading challenge?

Simple.

Because the Reading Challenge is for books.

But who said that?!?!?!

So I had an idea... we can do a ff reading challenge, obviously Destiel related!

My proposal is this: from January to December 2023, read something that falls into these categories, talk about it with friends, and talk about it in tumblr, twitter (while it lasts), Hive... wherever you want.

And tag your readings, so we can find each other and exchange recommendations (#RCDestiel23)

We have the largest archive for a specific ship… we can have a lot of fun!

And (I like to think) also discover something that we would never have read otherwise.

Have fun! (you can download the pdf here)

@destiel-wings @fannymazza @follows-the-bees @amemipiacitu @sketchbookdean @pixiereedus

spread the word, please? :-)

[smoothoperatorleclerc]

dean really would be the type who says “my husband” all. the. time. there’s a picture of him and cas on the beach that he texts to sam with the caption “my husband and I” and sam rolls his eyes and is like “I know who your husband is, dean.” sometimes dean is at the farmers market buying a new homemade tie for cas (who is currently at the honey station) and dean smiles at the lady who made the ties and he says “this is for my husband.” and sometimes, dean is curled up with cas on the couch, and he leans in to press his lips to cas’ and he murmurs against cas’ mouth “my husband” and cas utterly beams as he kisses dean back

[poetryghosts]

I'll never forgive the finale for making me feel like getting better means leaving Dean Winchester behind

I don't know if I'm just weird or if anyone can relate to this but i gotta get it out there. Since episode one i full-heartedly latched onto Dean Winchester and seeing him struggle with mental issues made me feel less alone and the message he put out there was always the same, keep going, it's gonna get better, it has to. No matter how low you get you always have to and are able to fight your way back up again. Never give up.

And that feeling, that struggle, is something I'm -and I'm sure many others are- familiar with, something i can relate to and hang on to, to get me through my shit. That's what i know, that's what I've "learned" from my role model Dean Winchester, no matter how bad it gets in my head i know he was there too. i will never be alone in that.

And so, getting better, taking effort in wanting to take care of myself and my mental health is uncharted territory. I don't know how to do it, how to go there. the comfort of being miserable is a sad one, but one that's been with me for years. Dean never got to try. Dean never got enough time to actively decide, yes, i wanna get better. Or just accept that life could be okay, could be more than just hanging on by a threat fighting one big bad after the next. Dean never got to life the life he deserved.

So to me that's scary as fuck, maybe it's silly to be so fixed on a fictional character as a role model but honestly i don't care. Not only do i not get to say, 'oh, Dean's done that, Dean tried getting better and he managed it, so maybe I can do it too', no. I have to take that step without this comfort character that has been with me for so many years and i feel like taking that step separates me more from him. Like I'm leaving him behind because I'm living my life in a way he never got a chance to. (And i know, i know this is stupid but it still hurts and i had to get it off my chest somewhere). I don't wanna lose him. I can't lose him.

[teaboot]

I remember being in highschool watching Supernatural and seeing all the imagery of Sam Winchester with snakes and demon blood despite being the "Good brother who eats healthy and makes normal life choices and thinks about ethics and morality"

And of Dean Winchester's association with angels and self-sacrifice despite being the "Simple brother who likes porn and strippers and pie and doesn't mind killing"

And I kept thinking that with all the violent escalation against both heaven and hell that it would be so poetic and inevitable for them to defeat both God and the Devil only to realize that the natural order exists for a reason, and that someone has to fill those roles,

And I thought it was so inevitable that Sam, the good and righteous one with dark impulses would resign himself to ruling Hell while Dean, the brash and violent one so anxious to know that he might be good would rule Heaven, and neither would die but instead remain diametrically opposed yet tied together in eternity in undeath just as they were in life, a master of heaven and a master of hell maintaining the balance of life and death as brothers, equals and opposites

And that seemed like such a foreshadowed and bygone conclusion that I was certain that it was what the writers had planned

And then it....... didn't

[poetryghosts]

[wh0mst-is-this]

Nothing could be more correct than this

[poetryghosts]

Sometimes Dean takes a little longer to catch on

[shymagnolia]

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

[shymagnolia]

okay so i just got my dream job??? a week after applying to it?? and now i’m thinking….maybe this is the good luck post

[flagellant]

…..not even six hours later i got an offer of a well paying full time long-term job with free room and board in queens in nyc, allowing me independence and a way to escape an abusive situation and an unhealthy environment

likes charge reblogs cast, folks, this is the good luck post

[coffee-or-hot-cocoa]

i need all the help i can get for finals

[finnglas]

Hey so

the last time I reblogged this post right before I got a great job, in a permanent work-from-home position, with benefits, retirement, and a salary literally 3x what I was making before, doing something I really like. 

So you know. 

This might be the real one, y’all.

[labelleizzy]

My life is pretty good but definitely sharing this out for all my folks who might need it!

[inknopewetrust]

For everyone looking for a bit of good,

Manifest this shit. Spreading the love to each and every one of you. You deserve the good that comes.

[poetryghosts]

Sometimes Dean takes a little longer to catch on

[poetryghosts]

Happy 2 year anniversary (i know I'm a day late on here)

[castielsgal]

They tried to silence you... but you always kept fighting!