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Jasper; Minor! Any Pronouns Block don’t report Cw: 120 lbs Lw: 109.7 lbs (Current) Gw: 110 lbs

[zia444]

reblog to lose 10 pounds this december 🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯

[skye-cals]

I want to be sick, but not in a "bmi too low" way. I want to be mentally sick, struggle with food in unthinkable ways, that the smell of something makes me cry bc of the calories, not being able to eat even if people beg me. I want to be so sick that even looking at food scares me

[skyy-shr]

Rice cake toppings ˖⁺‧₊˚ ♡ ˚₊‧⁺˖

[pointlesslygendered]

Bodycheck from around 20 minutes ago!!

I figured I might as well post them

[pointlesslygendered]

Both my mom and my grandpa asked if I lost weight and said I looked good. Considering I didn’t see a difference, that felt so good.

[pointlesslygendered]

I don’t know if I should actually eat breakfast tomorrow because i have swimming at 9:30 am (it’s practice for competitive so it’s not like, light) so i don’t pass out in the pool or if I should just risk it because. tight swimsuit.

[pointlesslygendered]

⭐️ving would be so much easier if my mom didn’t enforce family dinner as a daily occurrence i’m not allowed to skip. I love that she makes us dinner but like. Stop forcing me to eat it

[pointlesslygendered]

I’ve been doing more eating than disordering lately and I need like. A wake up call. I need to stay small, and small girls don’t stuff their faces because they’re bored. At this point i just need someone who will be able to yell at me before I eat something so that I don’t.

[pointlesslygendered]

“You’re already skinny. If you think you’re fat then what do you think about me?” Shut up shut up shut up that’s different you’re different you don’t get it everyones body is beautiful just not mine why don’t you get that i don’t think of you any other way than perfect this isn’t for you it’s for me

[pointlesslygendered]

I’m so excited for it to get hot enough for me to swim this summer. Once it gets to that point i’ll be able to burn calories and also get back my stamina for when swim starts in august for the school team. A plus is that because I love swimming so much and have for years my family won’t be concerned by the amount i’ll be doing it so they won’t suspect anything

[pointlesslygendered]

Giving my friends all my food at lunch aside from the bare minimum with them not asking questions >>>

[pointlesslygendered]

Subconsciously one day my calorie limit dropped from 1000 to 650 and to this day i cannot remember when it was

[iyzyv]

low cal fast food options cuz i lowkey be stressing when my family pulls up to a fast food restaurant for lunch and they all looking at me like 🤨 when i’m frantically googling the cal counts

[pointlesslygendered]

I need someone to be like. mean to me. I need more reasons to keep going than just the ones that I can give myself. I need other people to say it to me. Be absolutely downright vile. I need it. (Pictures below)

ALSO PLEASE IGNORE HOW BIG MY SHORTS ARE I WEAR THEM TO SLEEP 😭😭

[pointlesslygendered]

I’m almost at my first gw and I have never felt more motivated to keep going.

[pointlesslygendered]

I desperately need good indoor workouts that’ll burn calories. I normally go out and go on walks and do other outdoor things but New York is currently in chaos and I think that going and working out in 250 air quality won’t help me 😭😭

[pointlesslygendered]

“You’re starving yourself!” No actually i’m not i’m just preparing for that phase of the zombie apocalypse where we can’t get food. I’m actually just 10 steps ahead.