[poleeeng]

➪ Hi! I’m 𝙿𝙰𝚄. tags are down below. don’t get lost.

check out @inkmantra on IG!

➪ listen with me: pauleeene ☺︎︎

[poleeeng]

Just drag your heels and don’t you draw a line, be strong, girl

[poleeeng]

may konti yata akong pagsisisi na nagpagupit nanaman ako hahahaha. pero okay lang. it’s just hair. it will grow. inaantay ko lang talaga makahinga bahagya buhok ko tapos magblack hair na ulit ako. umay na sa kulay. it’s just a phase talaga. i love keeping my natural hair color. namimiss ko lang long straight black hair ko and full bangs.

[herigo]

[radical-revolution]

[poleeeng]

wahahhaha napacheck tuloy ako ng 2019 me. nakakatuwa naman din. grabe, ilang taon na lumipas.

[poleeeng]

2019 Pau?

[poleeeng]

isa lang talaga suot kong sapatos nyan hahaha. this is how i plan outfits. Yes, i plan outfits waaay ahead of time. i love dressing up, kaya trying out outfits makes me really happy. di ko pa nasusuot tong fit na to hahaha. naisip ko lang tapos tinry ko.

[poleeeng]

di na ata posible makamove on sa perfect crown. chemistry hit so hard! sobrang ganda pa ng OST 😭

[poleeeng]

OR’s The Cure is just soooo gooood

[poleeeng]

mapaayos ko na sana ukulele ko. namimiss ko na tumugtog at gumawa ng covers.

[poleeeng]

ayoko isipin yung pagod kaya lang talagang tinatablan ako. antok na antok na ako pero wala akong magawa, kailangan ko pang tapusin work ko na palaging natitigil tuwing gising si baby. sobrang antok ko na tapos 1-2hrs max lang maiitulog ko ngayon, di pa sure kasi walang bantay si baby, wala ang lola nya. gusto ko maiyak nalang.

ayoko na talaga mag night shift pero wala din akong choice. send help.

[poleeeng]

ano ba effective na pampataba? hahaha ako problema ko pano pumayat, tapos itong si jacques naman kung pano tataba

[poleeeng]

if not for everything that has happened, i wouldn’t be the way i am now. i’m grateful to my old self for keeping herself alive despite all the unseen struggles she had to endure, and for navigating life with profound resilience.

[cheshmenoor]

[poleeeng]

🫥

[poleeeng]

the most personal playlist ive made.

i still cry for her, for 2021-2022 Pau. the pain she had to endure, the life she had to settle for, all the feelings she had to suppress for someone, for people who betrayed her, and for her parents. i still cry for her but i am proud of her for overcoming everything.

grabe pag napapakinggan ko yung trigger songs ko dito, naiiyak padin talaga ako especially yung songs ko sa parents ko noon.

i love me for overcoming all the pain and choosing love and forgiveness above all else.

[poleeeng]

nabanggit ko to sa bestfriend ko sa work kahapon, and even her still remembers those times kahit di pa sobrang deep ng friendship namin noon nang mga panahong yan. it was the worst time of my life. family problems, pandemic, unstable mental health, body dysmorphia, financial crisis, lost friendships, self doubt, and worst of them all, Heartbreak. kaya i never want to forget that version of me. she’s one of the strongest person ive ever met.