just here

24|las vegas|sarcastic bitch|sweet as honey|if ur under the impression that ur judgment is wanted here ur very wrong, bud|ig:hiangelass|sc: on my ig bc im too lazy to count the amount of 'n's|♡

[perfectfeelings]

“I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.”

— Roy Croft

[blankspace17]

The reoccurring theme of being unwanted in your childhood and seeing yourself as some kind of monster and how you feel like you have to move mountains to get people to like you

[loading-life]

Even on bad terms loyalty should never change.

[petrow]

these almost goodbyes

look at us tousled in the wind again unable to hold onto anything of solid security

our loving lips parting to speak of jealousy and wrong assumptions, still wet with days-old passion and exchange

look at this distance and the short time it takes to fall back into its trap of feeling isolated while apart

the mouth of hunger is unfed and aches to be satiated

look at these smooth memories of hellos and long kisses and wonder why we trip upon these almost goodbyes again

look at me and stay with me

we're almost there we're almost home

[vvyxn]

[lmm-43]

Unfortunately I don’t wanna be close to anyone anymore sorry.

[typiing-deactivated20240430]

I won't fight for a spot in anyone's life. either value me or miss me

[quotemadness]

“I think only once in your life do you find someone that you say, “Hey, this is the person I want to spend the rest of my time on this earth with.” And if you miss it, or walk away from it, or even maybe, blink?it’s gone.”

— Jacqueline Woodson

[yms1]

You can’t hurt an overthinker, they already seen it coming you’re just proving them right

[depressedpansexualfreak]

I’m in a permanent state of exhaustion. The only way to feel relief is to kill myself.

Depreasedhomoflexiblegirl

[polmonibruciatii]

[thehopefulquotes]

“I am the dark and I am the light, I am the moon and I am the starless night sky. Fall in love with all that I am or please, do not fall in love with me at all.”

— Unknown

[amateur]

[thepersonalquotes]

[alejandropoeta-deactivated20240]

Out of Focus

I don’t know if any of this can work… from the straight and narrow I will stray: they said be a lawyer, a salesman, or a CPA, a respectable lifestyle, dressed in gray; follow the rules that they have laid, they’ll give you credit, a roof overhead.

I don’t know if any of this can work… writing poems to love, feeling no more shame: a life out of focus, receding, and I am to blame. They told me “say No,” but I will say “YES!” to having no fear and embracing my mess of emotions and choices that fate brings my way.

I don’t know if any of this can work… give them what they want, make money they say, so they can hold on to your life in layaway. Then follow the herd straight into church: be compliant and kneel down in sorrow to pray to get the wafer-free-card out of guilt’s  jail. 

I don’t know if any of this can work… labor in silence, get insurance and accumulate; fear the future, save and don’t dissipate. They say make money and also make haste to offer your bones to the collective grave: they’ll pick them clean, then celebrate. 

I don’t know if any of this can work… loving and longing for both women and men, searching for meaning in the social maze while in solitude staring at God in the face, but from this life out of focus I’m ready to say: “I’ll live and die by my rules and I’ll make it work!”

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Alejandro Fabián

[missinyouiskillingme]

“I don’t know what they are called, the spaces between seconds — but I think of you always in those intervals.”

― Salvador Plascencia, The People of Paper

[deviika]

Jamie Varon