PomPomJester

RP blog for Pomni from The Amazing Digital Circus +18

[pompomjester25]

Pompomjester25

Loved 𝚋𝚢 Mimi

Indie RP blog for Pomni from The Amazing Digital Circus.

Canon Divergent, headcanon heavy, multiship, Semi-selective, 18+ only

Credit for promo: @wolfcross

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jax PLEASE don't fumble another baddie

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[ @pompomjester25 cont’d! ]

Jax watches with thinly veiled amusement as she skids to a halt, his gaze flickering momentarily to the goofy hat with the stupid bells on it, before settling back on her round, sad little face. He didn’t realize just how quiet it was without all of the background noise, the soft jingle of the bells almost deafening against the absence of the corny circus music or the usual mayhem that accompanies a typical day in the tent.

One of his ears twitches, remaining facing her while the other turns towards the end of the hall, searching for the familiar sound of the Ringmaster or any of the others nearby. Her slip up— we were worried about you, doesn’t go unnoticed, and his grin sharpens from the reminder of just how alienated he’s become from everyone. Good. “God, right. How silly of me.” The rabbit forces a chuckle, slapping a hand against his forehead like he’s forgotten something. “I completely forgot it was my turn to bring the s’more’s and kick off kumbaya around the campfire tonight.” He quips, sarcasm heavy in his tone.

He would never admit it, at least out loud and certainly not right now, that he’s glad Pomni was the one to seek him out. He might have just ripped Raggie’s throat out if she decided to grow a backbone and try to find him, with how much rage he’s bottling up.

Everything is so uncertain, everyone is spiraling and here his little jester is, trying to be the glue piecing the mismatched puzzle together by sheer force of will. It might be amusing, if it wasn’t so pathetically wholesome.

Any smart ass retort he may have had dies on his tongue at the sincerity in her trembling voice, and the grin slips off his face entirely as he stares. The last time he’s seen her so . . . scared, was when she first arrived and had no idea what to make of the digital hell she landed in. Jax can’t even bring himself to go along with her self depreciation, instead replying with a sharp; “Why? Why me? Haven’t you figured out by now that you’d all be better off without me?” It’s one of the most honest things he’s ever said aloud, his voice echoing in the hallway between them, raw with an emotion he doesn’t care to explain.

[pompomjester25]

"But that's not true!"

Whatever sense she had on trying to be quiet and to keep Caine from noticing them went out the window with that loud and sudden reply, her words echoing through the muted silence like a dagger through silk. It sliced the quiet around them, leaving an echoing void of awkward tension in their midst. Her outburst lingered on far after the words on her lips. Like the bouncing tremor of sound on a caves walls. It lasted long. Long enough to thunder in the rabbits long perked up ears.

Pomni was looking at him now, her fist balled at her sides, her gaze hard and desperate, a tinge of manic fierceness in her colorful stare. Stubborn and strong-willed. She wasn't going to let himself demean himself in her presence like that. Not after everything.

"We wouldn't have fought so hard to keep you by us if that was true, Jax..." Her words were quieter now, as if she had just remembered they were trying to be discreet again. "You're still one of us. And-...And I refuse to abandoned you. Why can't you see that?"

Hadn't their fight before taught him anything? Or was he in denial of that too? Had none of her words landed back then when she had been clawing and biting at his back? How much more did she have to prove to him that he meant something to her? To all of them. When would he fucking get they gave a damn? The brunette's fists shook at her side. "I said I needed you. I mean it, Jax. I can't-..." Pomni threw her hands up in muted frustration. "I can't do this without you. Any of you. I don't care if you see it as weak or see me and crazy I just...I can't keep letting my friends suffer at the hands of a madman. That includes, you. I don't know why you think you're not apart of that. You're wrong."

"And look if-...if Caine comes after us? And if things go bad? You can blame it all on me." The twitch in her left eye was quick and barley visible. The fear she held behind her flimsy smile was at best noticeable. She wasn't so well trained in hiding her emotions like he was. She chuckled, though the sound was hollow and strained. "That way none of you get hurt, alright? I just-...I need all the help I can get. I'm not a leader, i'm not a genius or special or anything like that. I can't do this, I'm not strong enough." She whispered. "So please just this one and I promise I will never ask anything from you ever again..." This time she did choke up, her breathless plead greeted by a faint whimper.

"...Will you be with me...?"

[crow-keys]

princess Pomni and thief jax. Please

Some hetslop for ur Friday 🙏 thank you for the suggestion!!!!

[whccares]

The bright, garish colors of the circus blur together as he stumbles down the endless hallways. His large feet feel unsteady, tripping over one another as he struggles to control his ragged breathing. He knows he’s spiraling, and no matter how hard he tries to calm himself, the anxiety keeps spiking.

"Get it together, you fu[BLEEP]ng idiot! You look ridiculous!" Jax mutters, finally forcing himself to come to a stop in the vestibule of one of the more out-of-the-way doorways. He presses a hand against his chest like that alone could calm his breathing, and sucks in a breath, holding it for a moment before exhaling. "F[BLEEP]!"

They're counting on him. For once, they actually included him in something, and he's screwing it up because he's having second thoughts. Does he actually want to leave? To face the world he left behind when he joined the circus? His past. . . wasn't exactly glamorous, and the thought of going back to all of that . . . no. None of this is real. This is absolutely Caine fucking with them again; he's sure of it.

. . . But could he really stand to let everyone down like that?

Just as the static blaring in his ears becomes overwhelming, Pomni's soft voice breaks through his thoughts. Jax blinks, giving a cartoonish shake of his head to clear it away as he peeks around the corner and notices the little jester running after him. What's she doing here? He's supposed to be finding Caine--

Clearing his throat, Jax lets his expression smooth, his familiar smile sweeping across his mouth, and swipes his forearm over his eyes to clear away any potential tears. He smooths his ears back for good measure and steps around the corner. "Missed me that much already, huh? If you wanted to get me alone, all you had to do was ask." He teases.

[pompomjester25]

The little Jester girl might've been petite but she made up for it with speed.

It didn't take her long till she came to a bouncing halt at the sound of his voice. Her jester hat jingled and swayed from side to side as the brunette slowed her speed to meet the purple rabbit, coming to stand before him with wide multi-colored gaze, her eyes searching his own pair and smoothed out features for any signs of the previous distress she had sensed from him earlier.

"Jax! There you are-"

Pomni ignored his jest, more familiar to them now to know when he was using one to cover his ass. He wasn't as slick as he thought. Not anymore anyways.

"Hey man I-...what happened? You just took off like that." She cocked her head to the side like a curious puppy, staring up at him with pondering question yet cautious enough not to say it out loud lest she spooked him more into his shell. She had done that before and-...it hadn't been pretty. But the pregnant pauses between her sentences would give away how hard she was struggling to talk to him.

"We-...I was worried about you. Are you...um...okay?" She was well aware she was bad at this but it was the thought that counted at least. Genuine concern laced her every word nonetheless. "It's dangerous right now, man. I know this is your way of helping and we're thankful but...I'd rather not have any of us separate right now...y'know?"

There was a beat of silence before she spoke again, this time the wavering hesitance in her voice grew thicker.

"I-...Eherm..." Fuck this was harder than she thought. "I can't do this on my own." Pomni confessed finally, her voice ever so faintly trembling as she flickered her gaze away from him. Lashes fluttered quickly as she spoke. "I tried that and I failed. That whole Abel thing was my fault. I gave everyone too much hope and I-....what I'm trying to say is-..."

Goddammit, Pomni. Speak.

"Stay with us...? Stay with me?" She whispered faintly.

[voscra]

Not perfect but beautiful.

[pompomjester25]

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"What's your favorite world Caine...?" Came the girls soft murmur.

Pomni figured nobody had ever really asked the AI that. Nobody really tried to get to know their warden like she apparently did. They all found him annoying or scary...or both but...something about him this day, the way he just seemed to float there idly made her curiosity take root.

"I mean...you have to have one, right?"

[pompomjester25]

@boombambaby / @whccares

Jax had left the café like he was in some sort of panic when Kinger began to lose his insanity. The face he made. The way his voice sounded quiet. Something was up and it had bugged her the whole conversation with the others.

Why did he run off? Why did he look...scared. It didn't sit well with her, and the fact he was out there alone? Even more so.

In a hushed murmur she had quietly asked Ragatha to look out for Kinger and keep his bucket on his head before jogging out the way she came, moving quickly down the stairs with hurried footfall. She had to find him...make sure he was okay....

"Jax?" Came her soft voice, hushed to keep Caine from listening in. "Hey! Where are you...? Jax?"

[pompomjester25]

oh thank god you're back hello!

SHUDDAP I GOT DISTRACTED ON MY ALASTOR BLOG uiygfuwyagfuywaYUFGUYAGF

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confrontation prompts.

"You said [x]. It upset me."

"What did I say that made you think I didn't want to know you?"

"I'm trying to figure out where we went wrong."

"When we speak I notice a sort of ... conflict. I'd like to do something to change that."

"We're going to be working together. Let's try to get along."

"Do you think I should feel bad forever?"

"What makes you think I should apologise?"

"I don't understand what you think I did wrong."

"I don't want to hurt you, but I don't know how to stop."

"I know it's hurting you. I can't stop."

"I'm not interested in having that sort of relationship with you anymore."

"You didn't think to tell me?"

"How long have you known?"

"How long have you been hiding this?"

"It's not your fault, it just... it just really sucks."

"Every time I look at you I think about it."

"When I see you like that, I'm... you scare me, [name]."

"When you do that, I feel afraid."

"Sometimes you worry me."

"The way you act about your own safety... that's scary for people who care about you."

"Can we not do this right now?"

"I want to talk about it but I don't have the mental space for it right now. Can we come back to it?"

"Sit down."

"I have something I need to tell you."

"Can we talk?"

"Whatever you say, it always feels ... like you're holding something against me."

"It's time to come clean."

"Bullshit. Tell me the truth."

[pompomjester25]

wb pompom

ayyyye tyty good to be back, im emotionally compromised :3

[vergolophus-archive]

I bring him back and curse him with the weighted burden of a heart and regret.

[pompomjester25]

"It seems so quiet lately. Like all the sound has gone away...It's not the same without Caine around here. I'm starting to miss him...which is crazy since he kinda tried to torture us n'all. But...The Circus just isn't the same without his voice..."

[pompomjester25]

Just saw the movie. I need a moment.

[amalsoappickle]

WHAT THE FUCK DIGITAL CIRCUS

[circusroyal]

■ ₊♔    ❝     I   think   sometimes   a   father   only   grants   what   he   thinks   is   necessary   in   the   moment   .   Because   he   KNOWS   it's   better   to   let   them   figure   things   out   themselves   .   ❞    His   words   seemed   pointed   .   A   tip   off   in   some   remark   .

Worried   brows   would   have   formed   a   definition   between   them   .    ❝    It's   not   that   I   wouldn't   do   anything   you   asked   for   it's   just   that   I'm   not   always   here    ...   Jax   ?   It's   been   hard   on   him   ever   since   Ribbit   &&   Kaufmo   .   People   cope   with   things   differently   .   ❞ 

He   had   always   tried   to   keep   his   answers   on   topic   ,   reign   them   back   when   they   deviated   .   Sometimes   withdrew   information   .   Leaving   him   ridden   with   guilt   but   it   was   NECESSARY   .   

■ ₊♔    ❝    Heh   ,   yeah   ,   I'm   sure   they   were.   I   can't   even   picture   what   their   faces   looked   like   it's   been   so   long   &&   they're   all   probably   adults   by   now   .   I   just   hope   the   man   whose   with   them   has   learnt   the   same   things   I   have   .   ❞    His   memories   ,   as   sparse   as   they   can   be   ,   are   always   precious   to   him   .    ❝    Just   not   in   the   same   way   .   We're   all   constantly   learning   .   No   matter   our   age   or   experience   .   ❞ 

He   adjust   the   pale   on   his   rood   .    ❝    It   was   nice   to   be   present   with   you   for   longer   ,   Pomni   ,   it's   going   to   be   okay   .   ❞        ■     ₊    ཐིཋྀ

[pompomjester25]

"Don't you think maybe Caine was the reason you were y'know...crazy?" Pomni would interject with a shrug. "Think about it. It's dark everywhere now. You don't even need a bucket here. Maybe it wasn't just the dark but it was him. He said he could mess with our minds, right? What if he messed specifically with yours."

"And Jax? Its way more than that. He isn't...being himself. It's not normal. Well...his normal. I'm just afraid he'll go where we can't...I don't want to lose him, Kinger." Even now, they had to be a team, work this out regardless of how everyone felt about one another. It was the only way they could get through this as a group. If one fell apart everything else would too sooner or later.

But the next part of their conversation made her turn sharply to look at him, her big multicolored eyes going wide with unwanted realization. That man? Who was he talking about just then? The curiosity on her face was blatant but she chose not to speak of it.

"You're talking like...you're going to go away again, Kinger. Stop that-...you're scaring me." She tried to laugh off the obvious sincerity of her fear.

"You're gonna stay right...?"

[ikimaru]

trying to get my friends into this ship like