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💗 ┊ it/its, nonbinary. 27 years old. i go by axel. 18+ only. no minors please! my main fandom / fanart account is @/clockgaze so if you recognize me that's why.

i'm mentally ill and chronically ill. i will talk and go into this often on my blog. i will also oc and art post a lot as this brings me the most comfort. please do not follow me if you vague post.

i will also post about my selfships here.

ohhh i also will be participating in artfight this year!

https://artfight.net/~durante

please do check me out :D! i have a hitlist linked if you'd like to fill that out.

#shut up axel

redesigned a sona bc the last did Not scratch the itch but, but................ my goober...................

#my art #pink for amazing reasons

vesterium-ulpiani

hello...!

so, many apologies for the throwaway account! i am being stalked by the abuser in question and we live in the same home so please understand i cannot use my main account...!

but, hi. its me. the seal. i am in the process of removing my abuser from my home and this is just assistance in making sure I can pay rent and have a place to stay while i am waiting to get hired somewhere and get checks coming in. she uses her rent payment as an excuse to feel like she can treat me poorly and I am...at my limit, genuinely...! i am just stuck until I can pull ahead. its been like this for years and honestly I'm ready to go no contact and move on with my life...!

GoFundMe here

All of the money will be stored in a savings I will not touch until I get my first employment check in and pay my first instance of rent...! (it's about $1300 a month).

I so genuinely appreciate any and all donations, as it will help me end the cycle with my egg donor and her partner here and I can finally start to heal.

hand slipped

#my art #arthur art tag #eye horror tw #scopophobia tw

I will eventually update my pinned to be more fancy..........

#shut up axel #debating a theme but i cba

jessebloom

affirmations: i am very normal. i am not trapped in a lie of my own making. everything is fine. no one will uncover my web of deceit #mywebofdeceit

#arthur

b0nkcreat

eyes emoji was the perfect invention for nosy people. like 👀 whats going on over here 👀👀 i just wanna know #LetMeKnow 👀👀👀

#arthur

honeyscomet

"theyll hate you for this" "but theyll be alive" is THE juiciest thing to me

honeyscomet

i will ensure you stay alive above all else. even if what i do to make it happen is horrendous. even if it violates all your wishes or moral principles. even if you can never look at me the same way again, even if you hate me for it. because at least if you hate me it means youre alive

#arthur #would do this

valtsv

the conceptual appeal of the tower to me is that it's a way of burying yourself alive by going upwards

valtsv

who up building a monument to their own destruction and mistaking it for progress 💯

#arthur

system-of-cells-interlinked

I ❤️ dehumanization through godhood and/or sainthood

system-of-cells-interlinked

I ❤️ objectification through godhood and/or sainthood

#tropes

valtsv

real sadists understand that you can torture The Character simply by forcing them to live with themself

#arthur

radioactive-yuri

me when the character has a uniquely fucked mindset. me when the character's fundamental views of how the world works lead to them being hurt and/or hurting others and not seeing the problem with this. me when the character is a little freak who does weird shit because their beliefs, inspired entirely by their environment, are fuckeddddd

radioactive-yuri

[said with so much adoration in my heart it physically hurts] why would they say that. what do they mean by that. why would they do this❤️ [also said while knowing exactly why they'd do this and, in fact, having done hours of analysis into why they'd do this]

#envy #arthur #i should change their tag now that theyre named #fuckkkk

that one oc that permeates ur brain every waking hour

#we should kill arthur with hammers for this /lh #shut up axel